Jin feels weird around Namjoon now. He can't stop thinking about what his hyung said every time he sees him, the kisses on his neck that gave him chills, the kiss on the lips... He doesn't feel repulsed or anything, just... awkward. He barely speaks to him now, and he wonders if Namjoon notices that he's been kind of avoiding him for the past few weeks.

He has stopped going to Yoongi's as much, and it's kind of disappointing to Taehyung and Jimin. Sometimes Jungkook will come over though, and Taehyung is happy.

Yoongi says that Namjoon has always been a pervert, and reminds him that Namjoon was drunk, so Jin should probably let it go, but Yoongi must have told Namjoon because he now wants to talk about it, and Jin just doesn't. He knows that they probably should, but Jin doesn't want to because he knows it will more then likely mean that things will change between them. Jin doesn't know if he wants to be more than friends with Namjoon. He doesn't know if he's ready for that yet.

He doesn't know if he's ready to love someone else like he loved Eunji.

Jin feels like a mess. He isn't really sure on what to do or who to talk to about it, but eventually, he figures giving Namjoon a chance is the only option.

It's late one night. Taehyung came over and so did Jungkook, but Jimin didn't. Namjoon won't stop texting Jin about it, saying he's sorry, saying he really wants to talk about it, asking if he can come over.

Jin gives in.

'If you wanna talk, I'll come to Yoongi's if that's where you're at. Tae and Jungkook are here.'

And Jin's already going over to Yoongi's before he gets a response. Just as he opens the door, he gets that reply.

'Wait, I'm not there, don't go over.'

But he doesn't see it.

What he does see though, is Yoongi fucking Jimin into the couch, and really Jin is angry even though he isn't sure if he has a right to be. They're not related- Jimin isn't really his little brother.

But Jin thinks of him as one so he decides that he does have a right to be angry. Especially because Yoongi is nineteen and Jimin is sixteen, making Jimin underage.

Especially because Yoongi was supposed to be his friend.

Especially because, according to the text he got from Namjoon that he just now saw, Namjoon has known about it.

"What the fuck?" Jin says, wanting to cry because why? Why this now? "What are you fucking doing?!"

Yoongi jumps away from Jimin so quick, a panicked look on his face as he covers them both. "Hyung-"

"What the hell are you doing?!" Jin nearly shouts, and Yoongi looks away. "Jimin, why are you with him?! You're sixteen!"

"I'm sorry, Hyung," Jimin says, sitting up a bit, lip between his teeth. "I'm so sorry, I just... I asked him to..."

"How long?" Jin asks, oddly calm sounding, but neither answer so he asks again but louder. "How fucking long has this shit been going on?!"

"Two weeks..." Yoongi whispers, pinching the bridge of his nose.

"Two weeks-!?" Jin almost screeches, but Jimin cuts him off.

"Hyung, please stop..." He says softly. "Please calm down. I know that you think of me as your little brother, but I'm not little anymore. I may only be sixteen but I know what I'm doing. I know that I love Yoongi, and that I want this. I want to be with him. I know what love feels like."

"But you don't know because you're a kid, and kids don't understand l-"

"Hyung, you did, remember?"

Jin seems to think about this. Jimin is right. But that doesn't mean he's any less angry.

"I fucked up," Jin corrects, his tone bitter. "I slept with a girl because I felt that I loved her, and got her pregnant. I was young and stupid and knew nothing of love. You don't know what love is all about either!"

"But I feel like I do, Hyung, just like you did. You have to let me figure it out for myself."

"But this..." Jin shakes his head. "He's an adult and you're a kid! There's an age difference here! And you barely even really know each other! You shouldn't be... shouldn't be fucking! And Yoongi, I thought Namjoon was screwing around when he said that you looked like you wanted to bang Jimin! I didn't think that you'd actually want to, that you'd actually fucking do it! How low can you get? He's a kid!"

Yoongi won't look at Jin.

"Please Hyung, just..." Jimin sighs softly, "Just let me live my life the way I want to. If I make mistakes then I just know that I have you there to back me up and help. Same goes for you and Tae-Tae. He knows you'll have his back."

"But this is just... You're not even old enough to consent to sex, Jimin, you know that, don't you?" Jin's almost crying at this point, and Jimin is. "It's illegal, what you're doing! Illegal! Yoongi could go to fucking prison!"

Jimin wipes the tears in his eyes away. "I'm sorry, Hyung. I'm sorry. Please stop yelling..."

"I'm sorry too, Hyung," Yoongi chimes in, biting his lip.

"Sorry doesn't cut it-"

Yoongi's had enough.

"You're not even his brother, why are you making a huge deal out of it?!" He finally snaps, and Jin is taken aback. "You think you have a right to tell him what's right and what's wrong, but honestly, you don't! And the 'age difference' is barely even three years!"

"Yoongi-hyung, please stop..." Jimin whispers, touching Yoongi's arm. He presses a kiss to his shoulder. "Calm down..."

Yoongi sighs. "I'm sorry, baby," he whispers, and opens his mouth again to apologize to Jin, but Jin doesn't want to hear it. Yoongi is right, after all.

"Whatever. Do what you want, I guess. I shouldn't care."

And with that, Jin just slams the door, responds to the text Namjoon sent with a 'You knew? About Yoongi and Jimin?' and returns to his own apartment.

"Hey guys," he says when he opens the door, and they look over at him, "Mind keeping an eye on Hoseok?"

"No, we don't mind," Taehyung replies, and Jin pauses for a moment before nodding and leaving.

Just as Jin leaves the area, walking down the sidewalk, Namjoon texts back.

'...Yeah, I'm sorry. I told you not to go because they wanted some alone time.'

'Why didn't you tell me?'

Jin is upset with him. But he just wants to know why Namjoon would keep something like this from him.

'Well, I mean, it's just... they asked me not to.'

Jin narrows his eyes. 'Why would they not want me to know?'

'We all knew you'd be upset. I know you can't help yourself, you just get mad sometimes.'

'I wasn't mad at you for the things you said, the things you did that night if that's what you're getting at. You just made me feel weird, and I just... I couldn't see you without thinking about it.'

Jin knows that's not completely true. He couldn't get the idea out of his head for the next few days after, and then the more he thought about it, the more excited he would get inside. He isn't sure if he's supposed to feel this way. But no matter what he really feels, Jin always opts for burying the truth. It is and always was the easiest option.

'Why do you feel weird?' Namjoon texts back a few minutes later, 'Because I'm gay?'

Jin stops walking, suddenly a lot angrier. 'That's not it and you fucking know it. It's because I'm not, and I told you this already. I don't like all the flirting. It makes me uncomfortable.'

Lies. He doesn't mean it. He actually really likes the attention that Namjoon gives him.

'It's just me having fun. It didn't mean anything- it still doesn't mean anything. Nothing I said or did to you that night meant anything. I don't feel that way about you. I couldn't. You should know that I wouldn't put you in an awkward position like that, you've known me for how long now? I'm only joking when I say stuff like that to you. I know you're straight. Don't worry. The kiss was prolly just because I was drunk and horny. I'm sorry about that.'

Jin bites his lip, rereading the message. 'It didn't mean anything.' Ouch, that stings. 'I don't feel that way about you. I couldn't.' Oh, but that hurts worse.

It meant something to him. Jin can lie to himself and everyone else all he wants but at the end of the day, it meant something to him. Jin cares what Namjoon thinks of him, how he feels about him.

Jin isn't sure if he's upset with Namjoon or himself more.

'So... you couldn't like me because...?' Jin replies after a minute.

Namjoon takes a while to answer. 'Because... I don't know. I guess I'm not into people like you.'

Jin goes from being sad to angry again. 'People like me? What's that supposed to mean?'

'I only meant that I'm just not into you. But you're not into me either, so it's all good.'

Jin is still offended, though. 'But why couldn't you be into me?Are you saying that I'm not good enough for someone like you? Why, because I have a kid? Because I'm protective of people I care about? Or is it another reason?'

'No, you're taking it the wrong way. That's not what I meant, so don't start jumping to conclusions or making dumb assumptions. Look, I'm on my way. Let's talk when I get there.'

'Ah, wait, no, I see, it's because I didn't fall for your fuckboyish flirting, because I'm not like other boys- the boys that do. You couldn't like me because I'm not easy. I understand.'

'Whoa, it isn't like that. You're being fucking ridiculous, and you know that isn't what I meant. That was uncalled for.'

'No, I know what you meant. But it's okay. I don't care. Oh, and I won't be there when you show up, so... goodbye.'

-

Jin is just pissed as he wanders the streets. Namjoon keeps texting him with 'I'm sorry, but I can explain if you just let me', 'Where are you? Come on, stop being ridiculous', and 'Jinnie, please answer me...', before 'I'm coming over, please just be there'. Jin replies to none of them.

It's when he's gone still, at three am, that Jimin finally texts him to please come back. 'Hyung, Yoongi is really sorry. So am I. Please don't be mad at us. Please come home.'

But Jin isn't even mad at Yoongi or Jimin anymore. 'I'm not mad at you or Yoongi. I'm sorry for blowing up like I did when I had no right to. I'm not your parent, or your brother, but I just... I care about you. However, you are lucky that I blew up instead of telling your parents and then they start blowing up, grounding you and forbidding you from seeing Yoongi again. I just want you to think seriously about getting into relationships, Jiminie. Especially with Yoongi, someone you barely know.'

'I understand I guess...'

'Yoongi isn't a bad guy or anything, at least not that I know of, so it's not that. I just mean I want you to be careful at all times.'

'I will, Hyung, thank you. And please don't tell my parents...'

'I won't if I never have to see Yoongi on top of you like that again.'

'That aside, are you coming back?' Jin's eyes are staring at the keyboard, fingers hovering above it. He doesn't know what to say. 'Namjoon-hyung wants to talk to you. He's here. He's upset and worried. He said he wants to talk to you.'

'Not tonight. Namjoon-hyung missed his chance to fix anything. He made everything worse. I don't want to speak to him.'

Jin is the one who made things worse though, in reality.

But then, just minutes later, Namjoon is calling, and Jin doesn't answer, at least, not until the third time he calls, and now Jin is just irritated again.

"Jinnie, look-"

"Leave me alone, Namjoon." -hyung. He knows it isn't respectful of him to leave it out but he doesn't care. "I don't care about what you have to say. I'm done. You don't need to try and make things okay because it's not like you need me in your life, and you know, I don't... I don't need you either. I was fine before you came along." He doesn't know why he's saying this. None of it is true. He was almost on the street, starving to death when he met Namjoon. It was Namjoon who convinced Jaekyung to let Jin work at the diner. It was Namjoon who saved him and Hoseok from that guy in the alleyway. Jin owes Namjoon everything, to be honest.

There's a split second of silence before Jin speaks again.

"So just..." He's crying now, and he doesn't know why because it's his fault, he's the one who made a big deal out of everything, "Just leave me alone, okay? Just leave me alone..."

And with that, Jin hangs up and stops answering any texts or calls. He isn't sure where he is, but he keeps walking. The hot tears on his cheeks remind him of the night Hoseok was born, reminds him of Eunji. He misses her.

He wipes his tears away and yet more follow. Jin's heart is aching, and all he wants to do is curl up somewhere and hide away from the world.

Eventually, he opens up his messages and sends a text to Mina. 'Can I crash at yours? Sorry, I know it's late, but I'm upset with Namjoon-hyung and he's at my apartment right now so I can't go home.'

She texts back with 'Yeah, where are you? I'll come get you.'

Jin checks a street sign before texting her back to tell her, then asking if he woke her.

'I was already up, brat.' Jin gets back, and he smiles a little, wiping his tears away once again. This time, no more return.

-

Oof.