Draft 2
February 3rd

Hi. Hi dude

I don't know how to start this, so here goes.

I'm a writer and I write yes, but with you, I am lost for words.

I adore you. I love you. I cherish you.

Which one is it?

You have no idea how many drafts I've deleted, how many times I stared at the blinking cursor on my phone, trying to think of words to say to you.

And the answer is, I can't.

The thing is, there is an infinitesimal amount of things I would love to tell you about you.

I want you to feel loved. To feel happy.

Being the one that makes you smile or laugh or be the one to pull you out of your misery, even if just for a little bit, that is one of the best gifts I could ever receive in life.

I would roll my eyes fondly when you somehow made Cola political or when you warn me about the dangers of ai or when you correct my grammar.

You've become part of my routine even before I really knew I even had one.

How I changed my computer background to a picture of daisies just because they reminded me of you, or that any time a corny love song comes on I would think of you immediately.

As you probably know by now, I'm not great at expressing my love for you sometimes. I'm forgetful (sometimes) and I might I miss cues or I say the wrong thing at the wrong time or I'm too obsessive or petty or anything else.

But I remember how you sound when you laugh. How the edges of your lips quirk up when you're happy or when you find something amusing.

How you mush your hair backwards (making me want to run my hair through it but COUGHS)

I can see your immense love for your cousin as if he was your own son. 

I can see how hard you try or how tired you are even when you try to conceal it.

You might think you're hiding it well, but I can see you. Not through you, or pass you. I see you. And fully you.

You're strong, and independent and dedicated, and loving, and a good person.

What I want you to know is that I love you. All the fucking time. I hope that would be enough because you're enough for me.

And although we've only known each other for about 2 years you've been through almost every pivotal moment in my life.

You've made me the person I am today and I would've never made it out in one piece without you. For this, I thank you with my whole heart.

You are you are you. That's all that really matters and I wouldn't change it for anything.