I feel a knot in my chest

Like I wanna cry

But I dont know why

Is it the emotion I store?

Or the feelings I chose to ignore?

Its like someones sitting on my chest

But all ready have the weight of the world on these broken shoulders

I have been through so much in life

That if someone else were to have my life they'd chose to die

Or at least try

Ma's has this before

The stress of being poor

Not know if their is food in the cabinet

But never being there to know

Dealing with the stuff I had to hear about at home

I'm the only one she can trust

But sometimes thats just too much

The child trama was enough

Now Im going through my own stuff

Afraid of everything that surrounds me

Afraid of even crossing the street

These roads are dangerous

And even more dangerous for me.

..

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Yesterday I was going through a lot of moods
So sorry for the messages I sent

It just wasn't my night

12-31-18

~Kaydence