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What I Never Knew I Always Wanted

"Maya, I don't think you should give up on love."

"Well, I tried the love thing and it bit me in the ass," Maya said, taking the container of cookie dough ice-cream Riley was handing her.

Riley got comfortable on the couch next to her best friend with her own container. "I know things with Lucas were tough," she said after taking a bite.

Maya dropped her spoon in the container. "I started to let him in and look what happened. I should have known he wasn't trustworthy after the middle school drama-"

"Middle school drama? Maya it was barely middle school drama. Lucas and I decided to try a relationship which lasted a whole two weeks because we were awkward and better off as friends. Thankfully, we figured it out right away after not going on one date and feeling weird when we held hands. That's why I told you to go for it with him because it's Lucas."

"Whatever," Maya shrugged off. "It was still drama. I just thought we are both older and more mature and could be in an adult relationship but no, I wasted six months of my life."

"Lucas isn't a bad guy. He messed up. Do I like him right now? No, he cheated on you and broke your heart but..."

"I'm not giving him a second chance," Maya shook her head.

"I wasn't going to tell you to."

"Good, because I closed that chapter when I slammed the door behind me. I don't ever want to feel that hurt again. I've decided I'm going back to the real me. I've always been the girl who wasn't waiting for some prince to come into my life or wanting to sing lullabies to a baby or anything like that. Like I've always said, I don't need those things to make me happy. No thank you. I'm going to stay happy and single forever."

"I think you should dream of dressing in a white dress and singing to your future baby. You would make a beautiful bride and you have a voice of an angel. You deserve happiness."

"I don't need a prince or babies to be happy."

"You know what I mean. Love is an amazing thing when you give your heart to the right person. I'm not saying you should wait around for a guy to come in to your life. You should live and I know you think you don't need love, but wait until a new prince comes a long and proves you wrong...you will get married and have lots and lots of his babies."

Maya smiled shaking her head, knowing there was no point in arguing. Riley wasn't going to let it go even though she, herself, hadn't found the right prince yet. The two have been having the same conversation pretty much everyday since her break up with Lucas. Maya never dreamed of getting married or having babies even with Lucas, but no matter how many times she said that, Riley would give her until the right prince comes a long speech.

"I'm just happy to see you smiling again."

"I'm going to be okay. It's been a few weeks and the hurt is going away."

Riley nodded, "Imagine when a new prince comes along and takes the hurt away completely."

Maya didn't get a chance to respond because of knocking on their front door. Both of their heads snapped up in the direction before looking at each other.

"Were you expecting someone?" Maya asked, knowing she didn't invite anyone over as she watched Riley stand up to answer.

"Auggie said he had something he wanted to show me and he had to show me it tonight. He wouldn't tell me what it was. I'll let him show me really quick and send him on his way."

Maya nodded, watching Riley open the door.

"Auggie, what is so important you just couldn't tell me what it was over the phone or wait until I come over in the morning."

"Jeez, can't I at least get a 'Hi Auggie, I've missed you' and a hug."

Maya chuckled watching the two as she stood up and going to stand next to Riley ready to greet Auggie herself when a new person entered their apartment. "Josh," she gasped, feeling her heart stop but in a good way as the two made eye contact. "You're back."

"I'm back," Josh confirmed with a slight smile, his eyes never leaving Maya.

"Or a prince from the past," Riley whispered only for Maya to hear causing Maya's eyes to go wide before she glared over at her best friend as she watched her best friend hug her uncle.

"Maya," Josh greeted, nervously, rubbing the back of his neck. "You look gorgeous."

Maya looked down at her sweats and tank top and knew her hair was a mess in a messy bun. "I know you are only being polite but I'll say thank you."

Josh smirked, walking a little closer to her, making her heart start to beat faster. "I wasn't being polite. I was being truthful. You'll always be Gorgeous to me" he murmured, walking passed her.

Maya bit her lip, to hide her smile, blushing. She looked over her shoulder as Josh walked into the kitchen. She bounced back and forth on her feet. "Get it together Hunter."

The next thing Maya knew her and Josh were on her couch talking for hours. Long after Auggie left and Riley called it a night and went to bed.

"I thought you were dating Lucas?"

"I was. We broke up," she told him softly, knowing eventually he was going to ask about her relationship status.

"I'm sorry to hear that."

"I'm sure you are," she said, sarcastically, causing Josh to chuckle.

"You're right," Josh nodded. "I'm not sorry to hear it but I am sorry you're hurting."

"Was," she corrected, looking him in the eyes. "I was hurting but tonight I can honestly say I feel happy."

Josh smiled, nodding. "I'm hoping maybe I'm part of the reason."

Maya shrugged, teasingly. "Maybe."

Josh laughed. "I can live with maybe...for now."

Maya looked over at Josh, smiling. "Yeah?"

"Yeah, I love knowing I can put a smile on your face and make you happy."

Maya blushed, looking away, "Is this where you're going to ask me out?" she asked, hoping as she bit the corner of her lip, not making eye contact.

"No," Josh answered, chuckling a little when Maya's head whip in his direction, shocked. He stopped, taking Maya's hands in his and waiting until she looked up at him. "I don't want to be your rebound," he started, and signaled for Maya to wait when she went to cut him off until he was finished before continuing. "I know you are still getting over your break up with Lucas, but I'll be here when you are ready. When your heart is ready. When we do us. I want us to last forever."

A small smile came to Maya's face as she blushed for what felt like the hundredth time that night.

"So, no, I'm not going to ask you out tonight but I am going to do this," he told her, gently, tucking a piece of hair that fell out of her messy bun behind her ear before tilting her head up to face him and leaning down to place a soft but passionate kiss on her lips that left both wanting more. "That's a preview of what's to come."

"I like that preview," Maya grinned, staying close to him. "Actually I love that preview," she corrected herself.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah," she told him, sealing her words with a quick kiss.

"When your heart is completely ready."

"You will be the first to know," she told him.

Josh smiled. "We should get some sleep," he suggested, noticing the sun starting to creep into the room.

Maya nodded, snuggling up to him as the two got comfortable on the couch and it wasn't long to they both caved into sleep, wrapped in each other's arms.

The next evening, Maya looked up at a smirking Riley as she entered their apartment. She rolled her eyes already knowing what put the smirk on her best friend's face.

"You and my uncle looked really cozy last night or should I say this morning when I left."

Maya bit her lip, hoping the blush on her face wasn't that noticeable but continued sketching. "Nothing happened."

"Nothing?" Riley asked, raising her eyebrows.

Maya swallowed, as she felt her best friend's knowing eyes on her. "Fine! We kissed but that was it."

"So, what was it with this I don't need a prince?"

"I don't."

"Mmhmm, so I can tell my uncle-"

"Don't you dare."

A huge grin came to Riley's mouth.

"Stop," Maya warned. "Josh and I are just friends," she forced out, knowing she already wanted more.

"Friends?"

"Yes," Maya nodded. "He wants to wait until I'm completely over my break up with Lucas."

"Are you?"

Maya sat still for a moment, her thoughts instantly going to Josh and what the future made hold for them before thinking about Lucas how the hurt wasn't there anymore. She didn't feel the drop or ache in her heart at the thought of him. She could truly say she was ready to leave him in her past and move on. She looked up at her best friend. "Yes."

"Then what are you waiting for?"

Maya pressed her lips together and slowly nodded. She quickly tossed her sketchbook aside and grabbed her pursed. She said quick thank you and bye to Riley before she was out the door.

She rushed into Topanga's finding Josh at the counter. She gave him a small smile, glancing around before making her way over to stand in front of him. "My heart is ready," she told him before he could get out a word. "Josh, I want us."

Josh smiled, before offering out his hand which she happily accepted it.

XOXOXOX

Josh lead Maya through the trails he took so many times as a kid to an empty field before stopping and setting his backpack down.

Maya looked at her boyfriend of six months confused as to why they were stopping. She knew they still had to hike back to the car. "What are we...doing?"

"This is where we are going to relax and enjoy some food."

"But Josh it looks like it's about to storm," Maya pointed out looking at the dark clouds taking over what was a beautiful sunny day.

"A little rain isn't going to stop us."

Maya couldn't help but smile and nod, glancing once more up at the dark sky as she got comfortable on the blanket Josh had laid out.

"What do we have to eat?" Maya asked trying to see what Josh had hidden in his bag.

"Someone is a little eager."

"Well I am hungry now that I thought about it."

Josh smiled, taking out their lunch and setting it up before the two dug in.

"You have a little something," Josh pointed to the side of her lip. "Here let me," he said, when she missed. His thumb gently wiping it off as the two stared into each other's eyes before they both moved in for a deep kiss as the rain started to pour from the sky. Neither one caring one moment about how they were getting soaked.

Maya pulled Josh down as the kiss got more intense. Josh pulled away, but staying close. He hovered above her and ran his thumb across her cheek as she stared up into his eyes. "Marry me?"

Maya's eyes went wide as she gasped, wondering if he was serious. "Josh?"

"Marry me?" he repeated.

Maya stared up into his eyes before smiling and leaning up and placing a kiss on his mouth. "Yes," she finally answered.

"Yes?"

"Yes," she murmured against his lips, smiling. "I'll marry you."

Josh smiled against her lips before kissing her again and the two became loss in each other.

XOXOXOX

Maya rushed home as soon as she could after she got the call from Riley about Alan. Waiting for a co-worker to come and take over felt like forever even if it was only a few minutes. Her heart stopped when she walked into her and Josh's apartment to find him sitting on the couch staring straight forward.

"Josh?" Maya murmured, hesitantly walking closer to him. She wasn't surprised he didn't acknowledge her. She knew his brain was somewhere else. She slowly lowered herself to her knees to kneel in front of him, taking his hands into her's as her heart broke for him at the sight of his tears. She wished more than anything she could take away his pain. She cupped his face in her small hands, her thumbs wiping away his tears before wrapping her arms around his neck and felt him break down in arms. She pulled herself up so she place her knees on the side of his legs and placing her body as close to his as she could and held him as tight as she could. She closed her eyes to keep her own tears from falling. She needed to be strong for him.

Maya rested her head on Josh's shoulder as he rested his head on top of her. A small smile came to her face as she felt his thumb run over her diamond ring that had only been placed on her finger a week ago as they sat on his parent's living room couch after visiting Alan in the hospital later that night.

"Josh?"

"Mmhmm?"

"I think we should move up our wedding."

Josh looked over at her with eyebrows narrowing in.

Maya just gave him a small smile, before kissing his lip. The two started planning their wedding the day after they got engaged, not wanting to waste anytime. "I know how much it will mean to you to have your father at our wedding so if we move our wedding from next spring to this fall-"

"But this fall is like only four months away."

Maya nodded, "I know."

"We would have to rush everything-"

"Josh, I don't care. That stuff doesn't matter to me. You've actually been more of diva about our wedding than me," she joked, getting him to chuckle.

"I just want it to be perfect for you because you deserve it more than anybody."

Maya smiled as her heart melted. "And it will be because I'm marrying you. That's all that matters and I know we can pull something together by October."

Josh took in a deep breath, a small smile coming to his face. "October?"

Maya nodded, returning his smile.

"You will become my wife."

Maya nodded again. "You'll become my husband."

Josh's mind was spinning with all the things they would have to do to get it together in four months but with his dad's health being unpredictable. "Let's do it."

Maya smile got wider, as she pulled him for a deep kiss. "Yeah?"

"Yeah. I love you and I can't wait to make you my wife."

"I love you more and I can't wait for you to be my husband."

XOXOXOX

"We should just cancel the wedding and go back to our plans for a May wedding. There is no way we can get everything done in less than two months," Josh complained as the two were getting ready for bed.

"Josh, it's okay. It's just a little setback-"

"More like a major setback."

"It's not that big of a deal." Maya couldn't help but grin at how Josh was over reacting. "Our wedding will be fine. That's just a detail that doesn't really matter at the end of the day. I'm sure we can find something else."

Josh stared over at Maya as he unbutton his shirt. He wanted Maya to have everything and more. The way things were going it wasn't going to happen. "Look," he began, softly. "I love you and I appreciate you are willing to move up our wedding to ensure my dad being there but my dad is a fighter and could still be here in May."

Maya nodded, "I know he can be, but our wedding is still happening in October because your dad is going to have another reason to fight to see May."

Josh stood confused, looking over at Maya questioningly.

"I think he might fight to stay to see another grandchild be born into the world."

Josh's eyes went wide. "Cory and Topanga are having another baby," he exclaimed, amazed, as he tossed his shirt into the laundry basket causing Maya to smile. "That's insane. I mean good for them but I thought they would be finished after Auggie and wait for Riley to give them some grandkids."

Maya laughed, shaking her head as she slipped on one of his t-shirts to sleep in. "No, Cory and Topanga aren't having another baby," she told him, making him confused again.

"Morgan has swore off ever having kids-Oh God, Eric is having a kid? That's the last thing this world needs."

Maya pressed her lips together to contain her from smiling again at how adorable and out of loop her fiance was. She walked over, standing on her tippy toes and wrapping her arms around his neck as his arms instantly went around her waist to pull her even closer to him. "Eric nor Morgan is having a baby either," she said, waiting for the news to sink in.

"If Cory, Eric or Morgan aren't expecting," he murmured, going through his brothers and sister before his eyes lit up and another huge smile came to Maya's face as she knew he caught on. "Me and you?" he asked, shocked, his pointer finger pointing between the two as his other arm stayed wrapped around her waist, keeping her close.

Maya stared up into his eyes, nodding. "Yeah, me and you."

"We're having a baby?"

Maya nodded, "I'm pregnant," she said, stepping back a little to give Josh a moment to let the news sink in.

Josh felt the tears start to form in his eyes before he picked Maya up twirling her around as she laughed. "I can't believe it," he breathed out, setting her feet back down on the ground, pressing his forehead against hers. "We're having a baby."

Maya felt her own eyes on the brink of tears. "We're having a baby."

XOXOXOX

Maya smiled watching her two best friends bicker and flirt if she could say so herself as the three worked on her wedding favors. She felt her stomach start to turn at the sight and smell of the chips and dip and pray it would go away. The last thing she needed was suspicions, especially from Farkle. She wasn't ready for her pregnancy to come out yet. She wanted to get through the wedding before anyone knew.

"Maya, are you okay?" Farkle asked.

Maya's head snapped up, her eyes wide. "Yeah, I'm fine," she forced out with a smile.

Farkle slowly nodded as his phone ding and Maya couldn't be more thankful for the distraction.

"Who's texting you?" Riley asked, trying to peek over to see.

"None of your business!"

"Let me see!"

"No!"

"Come on!"

"I said no!"

Riley glared at the only guy at the table, "Well then I guess I'll have to steal your phone and see for myself."

"Fine. It's Lucas," Farkle answered, nervously, glancing over in Maya's direction.

Maya chuckled. "Farkle, it's okay," she told him, sensing his nervousness. "You know I don't care you are still friends with him. How's has he been?" she asked, politely.

"Not good," Farkle answered, honestly, shocking the two girls in the room. "He still talks about you just about every time I see him. He still believes after all this time there is still a chance for you two."

Maya nodded, pressing her lips together. She wasn't sure what she should say. That chapter of her life was completely closed and had been for some time. She moved on and is days away from marrying the love of her life.

"I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable."

"You didn't, Farkle," Maya eased. "I just don't know what to say," she admitted with a shrug. "It sucks he is stuck in the past and feels that way but it's not my place to comfort him or make him move forward. Lucas needs to move on."

Riley looked over at Farkle. "Have you told him to move on?"

"I just thought this was a stage and he would get over Maya and move on but he's been turning to drinking and believes he can win you back. He keeps hanging out at the sports bar where he asked you to be his girlfriend and hoping you will come through the doors looking for him."

Maya sighed, hated hearing what Lucas was going through. She may not be in love with Lucas but she didn't like knowing he was hurting. "He needs to realize it's' time for him to move on so he can get over this. Him and I are completely over. He can't win me back. There is no winning me back. I'm not in love with him and I never was. I cared for him. I cared for him a lot but I'm in love with Josh. Josh makes me realize what I really want in life and things I've never thought about that I want. I've never been the girl who wanted to get married or have a baby and now here I am getting married and having-" she started but quickly stopped herself as she saw both Riley and Farkle's eyes on her. She gave them a small smile. "I'm getting married to the love of my life and maybe one day we will have a baby."

Riley smiled at her best friend, squeezing her hand. "Just think you were swearing off love not so long ago."

"I know," Maya laughed. "Thank God I didn't stick with that plan."

Riley nodded. I'm so happy for you for."

"Yeah, me too," Farkle agreed, his eyes on his blonde friend. He was happy to see her so happy.

Maya gave both of her friends a small smile.

"So, what are you doing Friday?" Riley asked Farkle.

Maya playfully rolled her as the two went back to acting as if she wasn't there before she felt herself nausea again to the point where she knew she was going to have to go to the bathroom soon. She took a deep breath, trying to keep it down and keep her cool as she stood up. "I need to use the bathroom. I'll be right back," she told them, not giving them a chance to say anything. She tried not to cringe at the sound of Farkle asking Riley if she was pregnant.

XOXOXOX

Maya laid on the couch, her hand on her forming bump as she watched "Last Man Standing". She smiled at the sight of Josh's ring on his left hand as he rubbed her feet from his spot at the end of the couch. She still couldn't believe the two were married.

"What?" Josh asked, noticing the smile on Maya's face.

Maya shook her head, "Nothing."

"Nothing?"

"I just...I still can't believe you are my husband," she said, blushing, her smile going wider.

"You sure it's not the apples and peanut butter that is putting that big smile on your face."

"Shut it," she laughed, looking down at her snack. "I can't help your child is craving it," she told him, remembering at three in the morning when she got a strong craving for it and Josh had to go to the store because they had no peanut butter or apples in the apartment.

"My child?"

"Yes, your child."

"At least my child is craving semi-healthy snacks."

Maya shook her head, smiling. "But, seriously, I can't believe we are married," she told him, looking into his eyes.

Josh nodded. "I know. I can't believe it either. I became the luckiest man in the world two days ago."

Maya's cheeks grew redder. She bit her lip to stop her smile going wider. "Really? Because I'm pretty sure I became the luckiest woman two days ago."

Josh smiled, climbing on top of Maya. "Then I guess we are two lucky people."

"That we are," she nodded, placing a quick kiss on his mouth.

"I'm happy this little one decided to be good the day of our wedding," he continued, resting his hand on her bump, knowing the days leading up the wedding were tough on her because of the morning sickness.

"Me and you, both," Maya agreed, running her fingers through her husband's hair. "There is something I need to tell you because you deserve to know."

"Okay," Josh nodded, a little nervously, eyeing his wife.

"Don't worry it's nothing too bad," she reassured him, pecking his lips. "Lucas came to the church the day of our wedding."

Josh looked over at his wife, shocked. "When? I didn't see him at the wedding."

"Before the ceremony when Riley was with you and you gave her the letter."

Josh nodded, running his hand up and down her forming bump. "What did he want?"

Maya sighed, "He came hoping I would go back to him."

Josh nodded.

"Are you mad?"

"About?"

"Lucas."

"No, why would I be mad?"

"He came to the church to try and win me back."

"But he didn't and I don't blame him for trying because I would have done the same because I know what an amazing wife I have but the difference is I wouldn't have walked out of the church until you were mine," he told her causing her to shake her head and smile. "Maya, I know where your heart lies and it's with me just like mine is with you. I know I have nothing to worry about."

Maya nodded, smiling, "It is. I'm so in love with you. Marrying you and having your baby is two of the best decisions I have ever made. You make me so happy."

Josh returned her smile, cupping her face in his hands. "I feel the exact same way. I love you more than you will ever know."

XOXOXOX

Maya sat in her rocking chair, staring down at her newborn baby as she gently rocked. She softly ran her pointer finger over her baby cheek as she softly sung to her baby boy.

"You're stealing every bit of my heart with your daddy's eyes. What a sweet surprise."

She couldn't help the smile that came to her face as she sung those words before continuing.

"And now I'm holdin' what I never knew I always wanted. I couldn't see, I was blind 'til my eyes were opened. I didn't know there was a hole. Something missing in my soul. 'Til you filled it up, with your love"

Maya felt eyes on her and looked over to see Josh leaning in the doorway, his eyes on her. She blushed, smiling,"How long have you been there?"

"Not long," he answered, walking into the room and squatting down to be at eye level with his baby boy "I'm so excited to drive this little one down so my dad can meet him."

Maya smiled, watching in amazed at how loving Josh looked at their son. "Me too. It's going to be really special."

Josh nodded as the two's eyes remained on their sleeping son. "I know sitting here staring at our son while he sleeps is fun but we really need to get some sleep."

"I know," Maya pouted, softly. "I just don't want to let him go. I want to hold him forever."

Josh smiled, kissing his wife's cheek and standing up straight. Maya kissed her son's forehead before carefully handing him to Josh. She stayed seated, watching as Josh took his turn kissing their son's forehead before gently lying him down in his crib. He offered his hands for Maya to take helping her. The two took one last look at their sleeping son before walking into their bedroom.

The next afternoon, Josh walked through his parent's front door to see his ill father watching television in a hospital bed that had been set up in the living room. He couldn't be more grateful his father was still here on the earth and they got the okay they could bring their son down to meet him.

"Hey dad," he greeted as he carried the carseat carrying his son as he held the front door open for Maya to walk in.

"Hey son. Daughter," Alan greeted back.

Maya greeted back with a smile while reaching for Josh's hand.

"Whatcha got there?" Alan asked, weakly.

"We have someone special we would like you to meet," Maya answered as Josh unbuckled their son to get him out and Amy had come in to joined them from the kitchen.

"Dad," he began, before glancing over at his mother who had joined them. "Mom. We would like you both to meet Gabriel Alan Matthews."

Maya watched as a smile came to Alan's face as Josh showed him their son and tears formed in both her and Amy's eyes at the magical moment that at times they believed they wouldn't see. Maya wrapped an arm around Amy as the two watched as Josh held his son closer for his father to see.

"He's a handsome little thing, isn't he?" Alan said, before he slowly nodded his head towards Maya. "Thank God he looks more like his mother and not his daddy," he joked, getting everyone to laughed softly.

"I agree," Josh smiled, glancing over at his wife.

Maya gave him a small smile before glancing down at her son. "I think he looks like his daddy."

Amy nodded. "He definitely has Josh's eyes. I would recognize those little blue eyes anywhere."

"He does," Maya agreed, glancing down lovingly at her little boy.

Maya listened to the small talk between her husband and his parents as her eyes settled on her son. She looked up from her son to her husband and knew she got everything she never knew she always wanted and was bless to call this her life.

I hope you are enjoying this, and if you are please leave me a review with your thoughts. There is one more part left and I'll posted if I get some interest in it.