Mary's pov

"I am so sorry" I holds Luna's hand as she was lying on the medical bed "it's okay, I know you did your best" she gives me a sad smile

"I should've have tried harder" I shakes my head as I feels tears running down my cheek "hey, don't cry" she wipes my tears

"I don't want you to die" I sobs "I will watch over you every time you'll visit the ocean" she says "I don't want you to watch over me, I want you to be next to me" I says

"Don't cry, Mary" she says before I sees Murphy walks in, I shares a look with him for a moment "go" Luna says "w-what?" I turns my glance at her

"Go to him" she says "I can't leave you right now" I says "I want you to go to him" she says, I shakes my head "please" she adds. I sighs

"I'll right be back" I says as I walks towards Murphy who were handing Abby pills

"Where did you g- never mind" Abby says "I didn't know how many you needed, so I took it all" Murphy says

"What are you waiting for? Go. Be doctors" he adds "give it to the child first, and if it works you give it to the others" Abby hands Jackson the pills

"I am glad you're back, John. I was worried about you" Abby says before she walks away to help Jackson

I watches them give the Adria the medicine. Luna holds her hand as Nyko was standing next to her

"What are you- uh, did you decide to come back?" I asks "I don't know, should I?" He asks "do whatever you want, Murphy" I shrugs

"Tell me something. Do you hate me?" He asks "I could never hate you" I says "then why are we like this? Okay, we don't have to be together but we don't have to be like this" he says

"Like what?" I asks "like we're strangers. I don't want to be a stranger to you" he says "I don't want you to be a stranger but being around you hurts" I says

"Then why?" He asks "Murphy..." I says "no, I am serious. Why are you hurting me? Why are you hurting yourself?"

"Because I prefer hurting you now than later" I says "what are you talking about? Why would you hurt me?" He asks

"Can we not do this here please?" I asks, he gently grabs my arm and walks me to outside, to some bench we loved sitting and talking on.

It was on the back side of Arkadia, there were never a lot of people there, so it was quiet. And we would mostly face the trees and talk about what place we'll go to when there won't be any more wars

I, want to go to the ocean. Murphy wants to go to the desert, he says that people there are more accepting.

"Come on, tell me what's going on with you" he says "I understand that you love me now and it's cute and all, but you don't know me, okay?" I says

"Please. Name one person who knows you better than me" he says. I stays quite because I know that there some things I can tell Murphy and u can't tell anyone else, not even Monty or Jasper

"Abby told me Clarke and Bellamy went to a mission, I was surprised to see you here. I assumed you went with them" he says

"Well... surprise" I says "you always go with them. You always back up Clarke with Bellamy, that's your thing" he says

"I have no 'thing, anymore" I says "what's going on with you?" He asks "nothing!" I says in a defensive tone

"Come on, why are you pushing me away instead of talking to me?" He asks "I am not pushing you away" I says

"Yes you are. Just please tell me what's going on, talk to me" he says "you wouldn't understand" I says "try me" he says

"I don't want to fail, again." I sighs "failing what?" He asks "failing anyone else, okay?" I says

"You didn't fail anyone" he says "that's what you said about Jasper, and that's what you said about Raven" I says

"You didn't fail them either" he says "I am not Raven's friend, and I am not Jasper's cousin. So what would you call it?" I says

"People have fights, Mary" he says "it's not some... stupid fight. You can notice when someone looks at you differently, and when it's someone you care about, it's the worse feeling a human being can feel. It's like someone rips your heart out and runs over it over and over" I says

"I'd never look at you differently" he says making me chuckle "hey, come on. It's me" he says "I am probably the reason why the human race won't survive, you don't want to be with me"

"I am pretty sure you're a little bit exaggerating" he says "I am not like you, Murphy. You steal meds for sick people, you made a deal with Ontari just to keep me safe, you-"

"I am always understanding you, always. Expect for now. I need you, Mary. Instead of being by my side you push me away. You were scared to hurt me? You're doing this right now" he says

"I need to go back inside" I stands up "don't walk away, Mary" he stands up as well "sometime you walks away, sometimes I do. We're fucking taking turns!" I turns around to face him

"When did I ever leave?" He questions "you left to the city of light I left on Polis, and that's okay I get it. But we're always somehow separated" I says

"You're still wearing the ring I made you" he grabs my hand, I looks down "as long as you're wearing that ring I am by your side"

"I wish everything was different, I wish-" I says but I decided to not finish the sentence. Because as I kept talking it just got more painful to face Murphy and tell him I don't want to be with him, because I, in fact want to

"It could be different, we can make it different" he says "no. We can't. So much happened. So much changed. I changed" I says "you're the same Mary I love" he starts

"I know you. I don't believe that you broke up with me just because of that, I love you, but I feel like you're not telling me something, I feels like there's something more to it"

"You-" I tries to starts the sentence but break down in tears "hey, Mary" he tries to reach to me but I shoves him "you wouldn't understand"

"Please, help me understand. I can't see you like that" he says "please, just go" I says "no, I can't. I can't leave you, not like that" he insists

"Just go, please" I says "no I-" he says, but I cuts him off "I said go away!" I snaps, he looks at me in shock. He stands there in shock for a few moments before he decides to walk away like I told him to

I wanted to be alone, but I also wanted him to be with him. I just couldn't tell him. He was right, I fully wasn't honest with him

There's something he don't know about me, that nobody knows. Not even Jasper. Nobody in this world knows, and I want it to stay like that

I kept this as a secrets for many years, and I am not gonna share this secret right now, I just can't.

I felt like I was about to tell Murphy, and it freaked me out so bad to the point I snapped. I know that he didn't deserve that. I just feels like I am losing it.

"Abby" I says as I enters the med bay "Mary" she walks towards me "did you cry?" She asks "no" I lies

"Did it work?" I asks before I takes a look at Luna hugging Adria with sobs, closing her eyes. I takes a deep breath as I realises it didn't work

"We tried, Mary" Abby gives me a sad smile before we walks towards Luna and Nyko. I feel tears running down my cheek as Luna kisses Adria her cheek while sobbing