"I know you've all come here for an execution, but now on one will die here today. The city of light has fallen and there is no commander left to rule us. Until another nightblood ascends, I- king Roan of Azgeda, eldest son of Nia, grandson of Theo and caretaker of the throne and keeper of the flame" Roan says in a gather of the people in Polis

"You're a king not priest! This is blasphemy" a girl says from the crowd "not blasphem, order!" Roan replies

"Until another ascends, Azgeda honours and will defend the coalition of the last true commander; Lexa Kom Trikru. Including the 13th clan" Roan says

"Let it be known that an attack against Skaikru is an attack against us all" he adds

-

"From your king. Take this, you'll be safe in any of our lands" Echo hands Bellamy a safe passage "you think we'll ever be able to trust each other again?" Echo asks

"I doubt it" Bellamy says "maybe after you'd tell your guards to stop hitting me" I says "welcome to the coalition" Echo ignores me before she walks away

"Time to go" Bellamy says "we'll do our best to keep the king on his throne" Kane says. We all gets separate. Me, Clarke and Bellamy are about to walks back to Arkadia while the rest of them stays at Polis

"We'll find a way to beat the radiation" Clarke says "if one of you screw this up, we die. No pressure" Octavia says

"This is serious, O. If anyone finds out why Roan helped us, it'll be every clan to itself. The king will fall and they'll come after us" Bellamy says

"It's getting dark, let's do this" Abby pulls Clarke into a hug "you turn the page" Kane tells me and Bellamy, we are about to walk away but Kane grabs us

"You turn the page and you don't look back. You do better today than you did yesterday, you understand?" Kane say

"Before you know, you'll deserve to survive" he adds "I hope so" Bellamy says "none of us does, but we still do" I says before Bellamy walks away

"You earn the right to survive" Kane tells me "whatever" I shrugs "don't 'whatever, me" he says

"Why do you care, anyway?" I questions "everyone needs someone that cares" he says, I nods "I'll do better" I walks away

"Okay, princess. What now?" Bellamy asks Clarke "now, we survive" Clarke says "I don't think it'd be easy this time" I says "it's never is" Bellamy says

-

We reached Arkadia, Bellamy and Clarke gave everyone a quick hugs before they went to talk about finding a plan, I told them I'll join them after I'll talk with Jasper, I promised him a talk.

"Hi" I smiles as I hugs Harper, Raven and Monty "I missed you" Monty says "yeah, it feels like I haven't seen you since like forever" Raven says

"Uh, where's Jasper?" I asks "he's in his room" Monty says "he didn't want to say hi?" I asks "I am sure he's just asleep" Harper says

"I'll go check on him" I says before I was about to walk "wait, Mary" Raven stops me "yeah?" I asks before she pulls me into a long hug

"I really missed you" she says "me too" I pulls out of the hug and gives her a soft smile "I gotta go talk with Jasper now, but I'll catch up with you later, okay?" I says, she gives me a nod before I walks away

I knocks on Jasper's door, but gets no answer. I checks the door and realises it open, so I decides to let myself in

I slowly opens the door in case he was sleeping, and there he was, sleeping. It's noticeably that he shares blood with me.

I notices a letter with my name on it so I decides to walk in and pick it up "who is it?" He groans, half asleep. His eyes were still closed

Before I get the chance to open the note Jasper notices me, he quickly stands up and takes the note out of my hand

"What's that all about?" I asks "it's nothing" he says "it has my name on it" I says "so? Come on, it's my first time seeing you" he says

"Don't change the subject" I says "look, it's not relevant. It's nothing, honest" he says "then give it to me" I says

"No!" He says in a defensive tone "why? Just tell me why" I says "because I am not going to kill myself anymore, what's the point?" He says

"Hold on, you tried to kill yourself?" I asks "I was about to, but then Monty told me that we're all going to die in 6 months" he says

"Clarke and Bellamy are working on a plan right now" I says "they can't save us from this one, Mae" he says "Jasper, why did you want to kill yourself?" I asks

"You know why, you wanted too. The earth is not what we thought it was" he says "I know, but we can do better, we can make the best out of it" I says

"By what? By fighting to find a plan that wouldn't work?" He says "we have time" I says "you know what we also have? A radiation wave" he says

"You can't just give up" I says "I already did, long time ago" he says "no. You didn't. I didn't give up when I was on the Ark and my dad called me a waste of breath every damn day, I didn't gave up when you told me I am this horrible evil person that kills everything I touch. You're not allowed to give up" I says

"Mary, you really want to spend your last 6 months fighting?" He asks "if it will be my last 6 months then yeah, I do. I rather fight than sit and do nothing but count the days" I says

"If you would've lost Murphy you'd understand" he says "a lot of times we feel like our lives is the worst. But... I think if you look at anybody's else package, you wouldn't trade tour shit for their shit" I says

"So everyone got it worst and I am just dramatic?" He says "no, Jasper- you're missing the point" I says

"I get it. But you don't have to give me the ,don't kill yourself' talk, because there's not point in that anymore" he says

"We'll find a plan" I says "sure you do" he lays the note on the table and walks away. I sight before I decides to open it

"Dear Mary, this is not those notes that explains why I did what I did, you know why. Actually, you know more than anyone why.
But I just want you to know that it was my decision, it has nothing to do with you. I don't want you to go my way, I know you're also in pain but everyone needs you, mostly Monty. Keep an eye over my boy, will you?
Anyways, you're the most strong person I know, no matter what happens you keep fighting. I am not like that, and that's okay, I accept it.
I know you beat yourself up over a lot of things but I want to tell you that you're forgiven, at least by me. I hope you'd understand, sincerely yours Jas"

I read the letter through tears. Jas was the nickname I used to give him when we were really young. I couldn't pronounced his name correctly so he let me call him Jas. I didn't even know he remembers it, we were really so young.

I walks outside seeing Jasper sitting in the bar "Jasper" I walks towards him "yeah?" He questions "am I really forgiven?" I sits down next to him

"You read the letter" he says "you knew I would. Answer my question" I says "the question is not if you're forgiven by me, the questions is if you forgive yourself" he says

"You know after what just happened I'll never be able to" I says "no matter how many people will tell you you're forgiven it won't matter until you'd forgive yourself" he says

"I need to earn it" I says "you would" he says "how do you know?" I asks "because you're not a bad person, Mary" he says

"Come on" I chuckles "you're not" he says "no, don't give me that bullshit, you wanted to kill yourself because of me and I-" I breaks down in tears "it's not your fault" he says, I let myself break down

"I hate myself so much, I hate myself so much. What I did is evil, Jasper" I looks at him "hey, Mary" he says

"I am evil, I am a monster. I am a monster for doing that to Maya, to you, I-" I says, but can't finish my sentence because of my sobs, I can't stop the tears

"You're not a monster Mary, you're not evil. You're just a human being" he says "I don't understand, you don't hate me anymore?" I asks

"I never hated you, I was angry at the world. Now I have no time for that" he says "no, we'll survive. We always do" I says

"Don't spend this months in pain" he shakes his head "I will do my best to keep you alive" I says

"Yeah, okay" he chuckles before he drinks from his cup "I do" I says "I know you would, but even Becca failed of finding a solution. It's the end of the world, cousin" he says

"Not exactly. There were survivors" I says "I don't care if there will be survivors or not, I am outta here in 6 months" he says "you wish, I am not letting some radiation wave kill you" I says making him shake his head with a laugh

-

"We've been at this for two days, there must be something we're not thinking of" Bellamy says "yeah, we're not thinking about lunch. I am starving" I says

"Mary, be serious" Raven says "what if we could reach the nearest nuclear reactor?" Bellamy questions

"I told you, the meltdown started months ago. There's not magic button to turn them off. Today this isn't black rain, but it will be soon. That's why we have to focus on riding out the radiation, finding someplace safe and big enough to hold of 500 of us" Raven says

"This isn't just about saving us. I made a promise to Roan. It's about saving everyone" Clarke says "we can't even figure out a way to save our people how are we supposed to save everyone?" I asks

"That's why we need to tell everyone. Crowdsource it, if there's another amount Weather out there, the Grounders will know about it" Raven says

"And you think they're just gonna tell us just like that? If we tell everybody they're gonna die, the coalition is over, Roan falls and the Grounders will be at our gate" Bellamy says

"Then just tell our people. We need more minds on this problem. On the Ark people volunteered for the culling because they were told the truth and given a choice. A choice your dad died for" Raven looks at Clarke

"You think I've forgotten that?" Clarke questions "okay. We'll tell everybody the truth. As soon as we have a viable solution. Without one, it'll starts panic" Bellamy says

"You don't know that" Raven says "yeah because it's really not panicking to hear that you're gonna die in a few months" I says "that's it" Monty says "what are you talking about?" Clarke asks

"Think. Alpha station survived for 97 years in space through elevated radiation levels and extreme temperature fluctuations. Sound familiar? All we have to do is patch up the ship. We're standing in our viable solution" Monty explains

"Yes! Monty has saved the day"" I says making him chuckle