"Are you about done? We gotta be heading back" Murphy tells Jaha as he was still sitting next to Well's grave. It got dark so we had to leave

"How well did you know him?" Jaha asks "well enough to be hung for his murder" Murphy says before Jaha looks up at Murphy with a shock and confused expression

"Clarke sugarcoated it for you, didn't she?" Murphy asks "what happened to my son?" Jaha asks as he stands up

"Twelve year old girl stabbed him in the neck with a knife she took from me" Murphy answers "why would she do that?" Jaha asks

"She couldn't kill you" I says "yeah. So you got a lot of blood on your hands, chancellor. Every single one of them, including your son would still be alive if you hadn't sent us down here" Murphy adds

"If I didn't send you... they would've died on the Ark with the rest of us and we would've never known that Earth was survivable. Their sacrifice is why we are here" Jaha says

"Good can come out of even the darkest act, John" Jaha says "you gave us no tools to survive here, you could've at least send one guard or one paramedic, we were lead by Clarke and Bellamy who are kids because you didn't care if we'd survive" I says

"We were training you with earth skills for weeks" Jaha says "you think the crap Pike said helped us? He had no clue what is waiting for us, and you knew it. If you didn't sent us to die you sent us to be on our own" I says

"At the end of the day, we survived. Why can't you be happy with that?" Jaha asks "because 47 of my friends are prisoners in Mount Weather, not all of us survived" I says

"I know you're upset-" he says "you know nothing about how I feel" I snaps "you're right, I don't. But I lost something too, I sacrificed too. Sending all of you cost me my son's life" he says making me look down

"Camp "you" is that way" Murphy points at the opposite direction Jaha walks towards to "we'll rest at the drop ship for a while" Jaha says

"Suit yourself" Murphy says before me and him follows Jaha "why did I even agreed to come" I groans

"Because you can't stand a second without me" he says before we enters the drop shit and sits in front of Jaha

Jaha offers me and Murphy food but we both refuses "you sure? You must be hungry" Jaha says "no one gives anything without expecting something in return" Murphy says

"That's a cynical way to go through life, John" Jaha says "you pull me off work detail, you offer me food. Why are you being so nice to me?" Murphy asks

"Everyone deserves a second chance" Jaha answers, he takes a moment before continuing "that's why we send the hundred to the earth in the first place" Jaha says

"What a load of crap. You didn't give a damn about us. You still don't, that's why you're not fighting for those kids in Mount Weather" Murphy says

"No, I have to think of everyone" Jaha says "they're kids. Do you even get that into your head? They put kids in cages and take their blood, is that not horrifying enough to hear to make you want them out of here?" I says

"Of course I want them out of there. I know you don't wanna hear this, but sometimes, you have to sacrifice the few to save the many. Like I said, good can come out of even the darkest act" Jaha says

"Then you can take it from me that not good come from any of this. I was pardoned, slate wiped clean. I am still treated like dirt" Murphy says

"You made mistakes. So have I" Jaha says "I am nothing like you, chancellor" Murphy says

"No?" Jaha asks "don't even compare, man" I says "we both should've died several times over. We both have suffered at the hands of the grounders. We both have been betrayed and imprisoned by our own people" Jaha says

"So there's no place for either of us then. Great. I though you were supposed to be inspiring" Murphy says

"There is a place for all of us. When I first landed on Earth I met a woman who spoke of a place beyond the dead zone. A place where everyone is accepted" Jaha says

"A city of light" he adds making Murphy chuckles "sounds like a fairy tale" Murphy says "or a seconds chance" Jaha says

"You sound crazy" I says "you don't even know if it's real" Murphy says "you're right, I don't. But I believe" Jaha says

"Okay. Well that's good for you, chancellor. Very good" Murphy says as he lays his bag on the floor and lays down on it, using it as a pillow

"I am gonna find it, John. And once I do... I am gonna come back and lead my people home" Jaha says

-

"Mary. Wake up" Murphy says "what is it?" I bears shouting from outside, I walks out of the drop ship seeing Jaha with a bunch of people

"Hey, what the hell is this?" Murphy asks "we're going to the city of light" Jaha says "you're going now? There is a million ways to die out there" Murphy says

"Well, if it's not your time, nothing can kill you, but if it is your time, it only takes one" Jaha says making me chuckle "when does his time comes?" Mumbles

"Do you even have a map?" Murphy asks, Jaha shakes his head "then how do you know where you're going?" Murphy asks

"We don't. But I will not be ruled by fear, you wanna be stop treated like a criminal then you have to stop thinking that's all you are" Jaha says

"Take this leap of faith with me, Murphy. And let me show you there is so much more for you... than this" Jaha says looking at the drop ship

"Give me a second" Murphy says, Jaha nods before Murphy turns and faces me

"You're not actually thinking about this, are you?" I asks "come with me" he says

"What? Are you crazy?" I asks "you know how I said we can't live an happily ever after in this world? Then maybe in Jaha's fairy tail we could" he says

"This perfect world is a one huge bluff. A perfect world is never perfect, only filled with lies" I says "did you just quote Kendrick?" He chuckles

"This is serious" I says "I know, I am serious. Let's do this together" he says "I can't, Jasper and Monty needs me" I says, he nods understanding what it means

"Then this is a goodbye" he says as I feel tears in my eyes, I can see his eyes gets water as well. I hate to see his eyes gets watery, but we both couldn't stop it

"If you'll die I won't be able to forgive, not this time" I says "I am not going to die, I am going to give us our fairy tail" he says

"And I am going to free our friends" I says before he reaches to his pocket "what's that?" I asks "this is a ring, I carved it with my knife from some part of metal I found on the drop ship. I wanted to give you this on the right time, it seems like this is the right time" he says with tears

"Thank you" I says, also crying "I know you lost your ring from your mom when you were a kid" he says "I love you" I says

"Murphy, we gotta leave" Jaha says "is this a goodbye gift?" I asks "I love you too" he pulls me into a long kiss

"I gotta go now, don't die" he says "you too" I says laughing through my tears "may we meet again" I says "may we meet again" he gives me a sad smile before he walks away, I put the ring he gave my on finger, it fits

I need him here, with me. I needs him to be there for me while we free our friends from Mount Weather

But he needs to go for himself, he needs to find his place that he feels belongs to.

Yesterday he told me that he wished he could go somewhere place where nobody knows him, I know how much he wants that. I hope he'd get that

We both needs different thing, but we also both wants that same thing. We both wants each other, and it hurts. But we all owns some things to ourselves.

The right thing was letting Murphy go, he would hopefully find peace and a place for him to feel welcomed

I know he could get killed in the way, but come on... it's Murphy. He's a fucking cockroach, he can't die

And while he doesn't die I will get my friends out of Mount weather and will give them a place where they could feel safe

but it still hurts. Doing the right thing suck. It doesn't feel right, but in some place I know it is, I don't really know how, I just know

I wasn't mad at him for leaving just as he wasn't mad at me for staying, we both understand that.

But Murphy was right about one thing, I really can't stand a second without him. How am I going to fight Mount Weather without him by my side?

Without him holding my hand and telling me everything will be fine.

It feels like the world hates me, they put Jasper, Monty and another 47 of my people in cages and Murphy goes searching after the "city of life" that I don't know if he'll come back from

There's no one left to tell me everything will be fine. I mean, I got Bellamy and Clarke, but it's different. I know Jasper, Monty and Murphy for years. It's just different

It's like the world against me, testing me when I am going to break.

World, I didn't know if you noticed but I broke down million times you can stop fucking with me now.

But I mean, none of them is dead, so I should feel grateful. But also not knowing what's going on with them feels like a punishment

Being scared for the people I love is not something I should be grateful for

I am keeping faith that they will be fine soon. They has to be. Faith is all I got

Maybe I am not that different from Murphy and Jaha, I mean they also has faith. Just in different things

Okay, maybe I went too far. I may have something common with Murphy, but not with Jaha.

Author note:

I am deeply for this chapter😔
I can't wait to write season 3 of the 100 alreadyyyyy