"Handan, have you heard the happy news? Sultan will marry me for Kapudan Murad Paşa. I couldn’t believe I could finally get what I want." Esmahan said happily to me and my heart was hurting because I knew my sister will marry a man I love.

" I heard it. He will marry me for Iskender." I said and sighed. I didn't know how to feel about the fact I will have to marry him. At one hand, he saved me and he risked his life for me. But at another hand, he killed my brother and I could never forgive that.

" Not everyone can be happy, life is like that." Esmahan said and smiled to me and made me so annoyed like never before. She obviously knew I had some emotions towards Murad and this way she wanted to make me even more jealous.

" Unfornatley, you will have to marry a man who doesn't love you, but loves your sister. How hard that must be." I said and sarcastically smiled which made her smile disappear.

Esmahan was looking at me for few seconds and I could see she is not feeling fine with my words, but she was the one who started this.

" Murad will start to love me with the time, but you will always know that I have stolen a man you love from you." Esmahan said and raised her head, and in my eighteen years I have never seen her acting like this.

" You will still take care of your words, Esmahan." I said to her seriously.

" Why should I?" she asked me and raised her head proudly.

" Because I won't allow you to disrespect me like this even though we are sisters. You made alone yourself trouble and will continue to live in sadness with man who will never look at you the way he would look at me." I said to her and she stayed speachless.

I never meant to behave like this to my sister who was only person I loved and cared of in this Palace, but she went to mix into the place where she shouldn't have and this way she destroyed any possibility of my plan to ascend the throne as first female Sultana of Empire ever.

I knew Murad could have helped me a lot, because that was a dream we had together. I could do it easily and we could achieve the throne really quickly.

But Iskender wasn't like this. If he would only know for my plan he would never save me. He would led me to death there.

This night the feast in Harem was celebrated in the name of engagement of me and Esmahan. Mahfiruz organised the whole celebration and I knew she was really happy because she would finally get rid of us, and that Esmahan and I got into a fight because of Murad.

" Poor Iskender, he didn't deserve to have a wife like you are Handan." Mahfiruz Valide Sultana said and looked at me with sarcastic smile.

She enjoyed making me feel less worthy, but she could never achieve her goal and make me feel like that. It was because her words had no meaning for me and she was no one to me.

" Your opinion is not important, Mahfiruz. No one asked you for it." I said to her and continued to enjoy the feaat that was held in Harem.

At that moment, one girl which was pouring us drink looked at me. I realised she was really beautiful and that she maybe could help me to achieve one of my goals.

" What is your name, Hatun?" I asked her and she bowed at me immediatley when she heard me.

" Marina, Sultana." black haired lady answered to me anxiously.

" I will send you to Sultan as my gift. You are beautiful and I hope you will meet my expectations." I said and I could see Marina being really happy.

" Thank you so much, Sultana. You made me so happy." Marina said and walked to the aghas who should prepare her for my brother Sultan.

" How do you dare to send concubines to my Mehmed? I am his Valide and I am the only one who has the right to do it." Mahfiruz raised her tone on me.

" I am his sister and I obviously have the right to do it. Mehmed must have sons to have heirs to the throne." I said to her trying to make a reason for sending Marina to Mehmed.

But real reason was totally different. I wanted a concunine who will be loved by Mehmed, but also loyal to me. Someone who would inform me about each of his steps. And as Marina was new she would obviously be very helpful to me.

" Sultana, Iskender Paşa wants to meet you." agha whispered in my ears so I quickly got up and went to see him.

At the end, I can't change the fact that he will be my husband and I have to give him the chance, because he will be the man I will have to spend rest of my life with.

"  Sultana, I hope you are satisfied with Sultan's decision as much as I am." Iskender said and looked at my eyes deeply. I couldn’t lie, there was something in him that made him look so special.

" I have nothing against that marriage. I will be always grateful to you, because if you wouldn't save me, Mahfiruz Sultana would get what she wanted." I said to him and I could see he didn't except I will mention her.

" Sultana, how?" he asked me.

" I heard it, you shouldn't hide it from me. At the end we will be married soon and I dont want you to hide things like this to me. I know if I have to worry for my own life because of her." I said and faked my fear towards her, even though there was no one I was afraid of.

" I don't want to make Sultan upset about that, Sultana already threated me." Iskender said and looked at the floor.

" I wanted to congradulate you for your title of Grand Vizier. You have no one to be afraid of now, especially not Mahfiruz. This shouldn't be hidden from my brother Sultan Mehmed." I said to him as I really wanted Mehmed to find out about this so he could punish Mahfiruz, because she was my enemy.