The day of mine and Esmahan's wedding finally arrived. May 7th, day which I will remember forever. The day I will marry a man my mother looks at like an enemy, but the man my heart started gaining a lot of emotions for like I never thought I would. Marriage to a man which was blamed to kill my brother and my mother and her companions believing those stories, but something in my heart didn't allow me to trust that and I was sure he didn't kill my brother Osman.

This day I always dreamed of since of a time when I was a little girl that I would marry Kapudan Murad Pasha and spend my life with him. For 10 years since my 7th to 17th age I thought he would be the one whose woman I would become this day. But he is going to marry my sister who did this on purpose and after that even poisoned me just to make sure he loves only her and not remember me.

But maybe it was even better like this. Maybe it will be better if I marry Iskender. I forced myself to stop all the emotions I had towards Murad, and I was successful in that. Maybe because Iskender was character like I was, maybe because I loved being in Iskender's presence or maybe because he saved my life.

I know marrying Iskender is stopping all the plans which my mother planned to place me on the throne and start the new era, but I was ready to rather spend my life peacefully and happily married because I knew because of her plans I would only get into the troubles and take more innocent lives which I wasn't ready to. But I couldn't not the remember how I swore on the day my brother Osman died that I would revenge him, and I knew I would revenge him.

Sultan Mehmed ordered his mother Mahfiruz to make a giant wedding ceremony in the Palace because two Sultanas were marrying on the same day which wasn't very usual, but we were already at the age we should marry and we shouldn't wait anymore for it. Only thing I was glad for was that they allowed my mother Dilara Sultan to come to the Palace for my wedding. Even though she would rather not because she didn't like the decision of me marrying a man she seemed at like an enemy.

I was in my chambers for the last time ever. My maids helped me prepare for the wedding. I knew I would never return in this Palace anymore as a Sultana who wasn't liked by almost whole Harem. I know if I would return here one day it would be with me on the throne and everyone bowing at me and trembling even at the mention of my name.

I suddenly heard the door opening and my mother coming inside with a golden box in her hand. She came closer to me and I couldn't see the real happiness in her eyes because I knew she isn't happy for who I am marrying.

"My Handan. I wish on this day you would marry another man, a man you love," she said exactly showing her emotions as not being satisfied with this, but there was nothing that could change anymore.

"Valide, I will find my happiness with Iskender," I said as she couldn't obviously realise I already had a sort of emotions towards him, or she wouldn't want to accept that.

"As a mother I am gifting you this, you should always remember you are a Sultana by birth and that no one can dare to even raise their voice on you. If Iskender even once hurts you he must know I will make sure he is deep at the end of Bosphorus," Valide said making me smile because she cared for me, but once again I knew she meant that for real because whoever would dare to make something for her family she was ready to spill the blood.

I opened the golden box where I found beautiful rubin ring inside of which I know there was a fake poison. Every mother gifted this to their daughter in a chance she wouldn't be able to escape from her husband in the situation, so she would save herself from this with fake poison and until she would wake up already family would come and know what has happened.

"Kapudan Murad wanted to write you a letter so I took it with myself because no one else is safe now anymore," Valide said as I looked confused at the letter.

I took the letter even though I didn't want to read anything from Murad anymore as I am going to be Iskender's wife and I didn't want to have any problems anymore when I really started gaining emotions towards Iskender.

My most loved one Handan Sultana, I know you don't wish from me to write you more letters. I know you don't want me to be close to you after everything that happens. I promise to you that I will keep far away from you just not to let you in any kind of problems. Maybe you will find your happiness Iskender, but I will never be able to look at another woman. Esmahan will be my wife just on paper, but I will never be able to gain any emotion towards her. If Iskender dares to make you cry even once, I want you to know that I am ready to hurt him ten times more. I hope you will be happy and that you will never even know what sadness is. My heart will always belong to you and only you, and if you anytime have any problem, then I want you to know that I will be here for you always. We will always find a solution for a problem.

I read the letter without having any emotions towards this man anymore because I successfully got over him. He knew I already had some emotions towards Iskender so it was better for him to be far away from me, otherwise both of us would get in the problems. I came closer to the candles and burned the letter while my mother couldn't believe how easy I burned it without letting any tear.

"Are you ready?" My mother asked me after few seconds of the silence. She didn't want to question me anymore about Iskender and my love for him or for Murad, and it was even better for us that way.

"I am, I want this to end as soon as possible," I said as I wanted to spend at least time as possible in the Harem between all those people that I couldn't stand anymore.

I went down to the Harem where Esmahan has been sitting proudly next to Valide Mahfiruz and she acted like she was her daughter how much she loved her. It was funny because Mahfiruz onoy used Esmahan to get rid of me and Esmahan was really naive to trust her so much, because one day she will get in problems because all of that.

At the night, the carriage came from me in front a Palace. My mother and Musa looked at me while I am going away with tears in their eyes, because those two were the only one who cared for me for real without acting. I entered the carriage which took me to the another part of Istanbul.

The palace was known as Golden Palace, palace very beautifully decorated with gold which my father gave to build as his summer mansion. It was smaller than Topkapi, but it was way more luxurious. It was next to the Bosphorus with beautiful terrace allowing me to walk next to it.

Maids opened doors to me and I entered in beautiful main room where were the steps that would take me to the upper floor where mine and Iskender's room was.

I walked upside those stairs having my head filled of mixed emotions as I wasn't sure myself how I feel at this moment. I didn't know if this is going to be amazing for me, or horrible. I didn't know what this marriage would bring me. But when I entered the room with veil on my head and saw Iskender, my heart suddenly started beating really fast. Did I really liked this man so much?

Iskender removed the veil from my head and looked at me deeply in my eyes with his beautiful brown eyes in who I lost at this exact moment. I felt so weak and without any power to say something. His lips slowly touched mine before kissing me for the first time ever.