A/N So how 'bout some JeffMads? I swear, this will be the last sad story...probably. I can't help it lol. But yea...here ya go.

Thomas P.O.V

I sat hunched over on the couch, head in hands. On the coffee table in front of me sat my phone and a glass of scotch I had pored. I needed something to numb the pain, yet my heart still ached.

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see his when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies.

James and I just had our worst fight yet. He told me that I use him and that I don't really love him. I told him I didn't need him and that if I wanted to use someone it sure wouldn't be him.

I didn't mean any of those words though, I was just so angry that he didn't believe that I loved him. So I told him to leave and not to come back. I wish he would come back. This is all my fault, I should have treated him better.

Anger boils inside of me. I begin pacing, back and forth. Eventually my thoughts turn dark and I snap. I grab the glass off the table and throw it against the wall. The sound of it shattering only fuels me further.

I go on a rampage, breaking anything in sight. Coffee table- fire wood. China cabinet- shards of porcelain and glass. I  soon tire and slump against the wall. Now I truly know what it is to hit rock bottom.

A familiar song dances through my head, I wish it would stop.

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love him when you let him go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love him when you let him go.

I throw my head against my he wall, I watch the shadows of passing headlights. I look anywhere but the mess I've created, my hands, the window, the ceiling.

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
Love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see him when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved him too much and you dive too deep.

Angry, hot tears rained down my face. This is my fault. I ruined the best thing in my life.

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love him when you let him go
And you let him go.

And I let him go...