|| It's not true
Tell me I've been lied to
Crying isn't like you ||

Change is truly terrifying. It was something you wished you could just stop, but you couldn't. It was simply unavoidable.

|| What the hell did I do?
Never been the type to
Let someone see right through ||

You're whole life, you based yourself off of what others want to see and hear rather than who you truly are. You couldn't help it, how could you find beauty in something that's damaged.

But he did.

And it scared you.

|| Maybe won't you take it back
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothing has to change today
You didn't mean to say "I love you"
I love you and I don't want to ||

"I love you, (F/n)."

"...What?"

"I love you."

|| Up all night on another red eye
I wish we never learned to fly ||

Tears fell from your eyes. It was so confusing. What did he love? How could he love someone who didn't even know themselves?

You don't deserve him. He shouldn't have fell in love. So why?

You weren't ready to allow someone to know the deepest parts of yourself. They don't deserve to be put through that trouble. You felt like it'd be a nuisance.

"I'm so sorry..."

|| Maybe we should just try
To tell ourselves a good lie
I didn't mean to make you cry ||

"I'm so sorry! I can't.. Let's just stay the way we are... I'm not ready," you're voice shook uncontrollably. Your chest tightened. It was suffocating.

'So why?! Why are you crying? Why cry over someone so pointless? Why? Stop...'

"Then, I'll wait.. No matter how long, I'll wait for you," He stated blinking away the tears that stung his eyes, "Please."

|| Maybe won't you take it back
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothing has to change today
You didn't mean to say "I love you"
I love you and I don't want to ||

"You're wasting your time! Anyone but me.. Take it back, say it to someone else. Someone who's worth your time."

"How could you say that to yourself?!"

"That's just how I feel! That's just how I am! I don't love you, Akaashi."

'I love you, Akaashi. But I shouldn't.'

|| The smile that you gave me
Even when you felt like dying ||

"Then I'm sorry, for wasting your time," He smiled softly wiping away the stray tears from your cheeks, "find yourself, (F/n). Don't cry anymore."

|| We fall apart as it gets dark
I'm in your arms in Central Park
There's nothing you could do or say ||

| 'I can't escape the way, I love you
I don't want to, but I love you' |

"why am I so broken?"

A/n
Chin up! ♥︎
|| i love you - Billie Eilish ||
(There's a lot of different interpretations about this song so this is kinda how i see it)
It just so happened that it popped up while I was going through all your requests :3 so I decided to do this one first
An Akaashi angst requested by y2kbabee !!
Thank youu for the request!
Sorry, that I hurt bby Akaashi :((
Hope it was okay since he wasn't featured so much in this chapter
(･_･; )

I didn't expect the large amount of requests, and it makes me sad that I probably won't be able to get to a lot of them ;-; But I'll get to as many as possible while still balancing out the characters in the book so it doesn't get too repetitive! Tagging everyone with a similar request will be difficult so I'm still deciding what to do abt that hehe

Besides that, I'll shut up now,, ILy and thank you! I plan on posting another chapter soon it's in progress rn but I need to be in a certain mood lol. I'll be b a c k.