Hello guys!!! Wow, I can't believe I am in 'MIA' for more than a year now. I really don't have any feelings to start writing back after everything that happened to my life last year. But suddenly the urge to write is coming back, so here I am. Well, before I am starting to write longer in this author's note, let me give you guys space to read this beautiful story first if you guys think this is beautiful. Hahaha. Have fun!

Your heart raced quicker as the time flies. It is not slowing down but it's getting faster and faster. Your mind is out of peace. Your hand is trembling. Your breathing is out of control. You know you're now having a panic attack. It's been a while since the last time you're having this but you can't believe it is happening in the middle of your class. You close your eyes trying to control it but it seems to make it become worse. Your breathing becomes even more out of control. You look down to see your hands still trembling.

"(y/n)... (y/n)..." you heard someone calling your name but you can't reply to them. It's not like you don't want to but you can't. You just can't.
"Hey, (y/n). I am here" suddenly your body got pulled over and getting hugged by someone who you immediately recognized.
"B-Bokuto," you said slowly.
"Yes, I am here. Now take a deep breath and let it out slowly. Follow me" right after that, he started to breathe in and you followed him. Then, he breathed out slowly and you followed him too. Both of you did the same thing over and over again until you feel like your heartbeat is a little bit under control.

"Calm a little bit now?" he pushed you a bit to see your face with a big smile on him before asking you. You nodded slowly at him.
"Teacher! I am going to bring (y/n) to the health room with me," he said and took your hand with him after the teacher give you guys his permission.

You keep silent along the way to the health room. As soon as you guys arrived, he opened the door but it seems the teacher in charge is not in the room. But, Bokuto just brought you in and makes you sit on one of the beds. Your hand are still trembling but not as much as before. You looked up to Bokuto only to find him smiling at you.

"I am sorry," you said to him but he give you a comforting smile.
"Why are you saying sorry? It's not your fault." hearing him saying that, made you teared up.
"Hey Hey Hey. Why are you crying? Don't cry" his face panicked and immediately bring his finger to wipe out your tears.
"I don't know why I am having this now. I am so sorry" you said to him.

"You're stressed, right? I know you always bottled up everything that happened and never let it out. Hey, I am your boyfriend. Give me some privileges to make you happy. And it's been a while since the last time you come to see my practice." Bokuto cupped your face while giving you a big smile. Sometimes, the childish Bokuto can even be a mature one like this.

"I don't want to give more trouble to you. You have to focus on your games. I know you will give Akaashi and your teammate a problem later if your mind is on something else other than the volleyball." you said to him while looking down.
"Even (y/n) are not believing in me too now~" you looked up immediately and saw his sulking face.
"You know I didn't mean it like that," you said but seeing his sulking face makes you calm and ended up cracking a smile.

Why did I feel like he is the one who needs comfort more than I do now? You thought in your mind but because of this, your panic attack is slowing down and you're calmer than before. Your hand stop trembling much and your breathing is starting to be at a normal pace too. Bokuto is really your calming pill just like now.

"My girlfriend is smiling now. You're good now? Need more hug?" he asked you while opening up his arm to give you a hug. You being you, of course, accepting it wholehearted. He hugged you and soothed you back and caressed your hair.
"You're amazing! You're beautiful! You're smart! You're kind! You're pretty! You're sweet! You're my girlfriend! You have me as your boyfriend!" you smiled hearing him.

~Ring~Ring~Ring~

Then you heard the bell ringing, meaning that the school is over for today.

"Yes! The class is over now! Let's go doing something fun!" he said almost loudly and that makes you giggle.
"What do you want to do, Bokuto?" he grinned.
"Of course, watching me do some spike, block, serve and playing volleyball! Andddddd, of course, today my girlfriend will have to play with me too!" your eyes widen.
"W-What? But I don't know anything"
"It's okay. You have me, right? I am Bokuto Koutarou, the top five aces in the country!" he said proudly.

Without further ado, both of you go to the gym but not before you remind him of your bags and to change the cloth first before going to the gym. He is really excited which makes you excited too. When you are alone for a while during changing the cloth, you thought about how carelessly you managed your stress. You sighed remembering not having enough time for the 'Me-Time' for a while because you only focused on studying.

Bokuto is right. It's been a while since the last time I had fun. He also sulked a few times before because I said I can't come to see his practice. But I am glad and grateful that he is still the Bokuto that I love and he does not take it to his heart. I love you, you know that right? Bokuto?

"(y/n)! Are you feeling down again?" Bokuto's panicked voice makes you back to reality. You shooked your head and smiled.
"No, I am just thinking that I really love you so much," you said to him, expecting him with a proud reply but his face redden.
"(y-y/n)!"
"You're blushing?" you giggled.
"I am! So what?! My girlfriend is confessing to me now!" his reply makes you laugh.
"I will always love you," you said again. True, everything is true. Without you, I don't think I can handle this by myself.
"I love you tooooo!!!!!" Bokuto shouted!

"Yeah, we all love you too. Now, Bokuto, please consider the single us in here too." Konoha said when Fukurodani volleyball teams came to the gym.
"(y/n)-san. It's been a while" Akaashi greeted you and you nodded.
"It's been a while" he nodded at you.
"(y/n), I heard about you earlier. Are you okay now?" Kaori asked you and you smiled.
"I am okay now." she hugged you.

"Don't forget that we are always with you" you patted her back, ensuring her.
"Today, we will give our honourable member, (y/n), which is my girlfriend a chance to play volleyball!" Then, Bokuto said and everyone agreed which makes you feel touched.

After stretching and a few jog around the gym, your volleyball 'training' starts with Bokuto trying to teach you to spike which is a little bit of failure. You can't even touch the ball that Bokuto set to you. You always miss it somehow.
"I can't! I keep on missing it!" you said. You don't know if you are really terrible at this or Bokuto set it a little out of the line. Sometimes the ball is higher than you, sometimes the ball is lower, sometimes too fast. You don't know but this makes you laugh.

"Bokuto-san, you can't set it to a beginner like that. (y/n)-san is not you" suddenly Akaashi came to you and asked Bokuto to give him the ball. Bokuto showed his sulking face but still gave the ball to him.
"(y/n)-san, let me set it to you" you nodded. As you imagined, when you jumped, the ball that Akaashi set to you landed directly at your palm and giving you the chance to spike the ball with all your might. Your face showed an unbelievable reaction that you can spike it so well.
"I did it!" you said cheerfully and high-fived Akaashi before looking at a certain moody captain.

"I will let you both alone now," Akaashi said before walking away back to his team. You thanked him before walking to the moody captain.
"I spiked the ball"
"I know"
"But you're sulking now"
"I want to be the one who set it for you" you laughed a bit.

"But you make me happy though" then he looked at you with his 'teary eyes'.
"Really?" you nodded.
"YES!!! Of course! I am the only one who can make you happy!" just like that, he is back to his usual cheerful Bokuto which always makes you laugh at how simple-minded he is. Well, he is my boyfriend. My simple-minded, childish, happy pill boyfriend.

Then, you give a little peck on his cheeks before saying thank you to him.
"Just on cheeks?" he smirked which makes you blush.
"For now..." you silently replied to him.
"I LOVE YOU!"

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Well well well. The end of this update. How about it? I don't think I still have the way I wrote before but I really want to give you guys the update for this fanfic. It is really such a long time and I don't know if some of you still waiting for the request to be in here or not, but I guess more than a year is enough for the wait. I am back to wattpad for now. Anyway, thank you to you guys who are waiting for the update (if you guys still), still supporting this fanfic and me, the encouragement you guys gave to me, everything. I really appreciated it. Thanks again from deep in my heart.

See you next time!

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