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INTENSE WORDS AND ACTIONS!!!
Sorry its been so long so many things have held me back that even I can't handle them all right now so I finally came back to kinda let things out a bit
Hope u guys like it
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'I hate school, it feels like a prison, so many plastic people just walking down the halls. All mindlessly walking down a path to being brainwashed. I hate everyone in here I have my small handful of friends that I do trust with my life but... They can't help me with everything. There are something's that can't be helped.

I've always wanted that perfect or cute romance story like in movies or just on T.V. but life isn't a fairy tail its not so easy anymore. Theirs expectations we must all fit in all us boys and girls know that. I've always hated the way I look. I hate everything about myself. I always have. I was never good enough for my ex's so they left of cheated.

Who can blame them. I feel like I can never be happy or that I never will be happy and I'll just die sad and alone. These blades are the only thing that make me feel human sometimes its pathetic but then again so am I'.

I feel something warm on my face? What is it? I go up to touch near my eye and feel tears. "I'm crying?" When did I?" I wipe of the remaining tears and go to my usual spot to unwind and just have time to myself away from everyone. My hair gently flows with the wind, it feels nice.

'Will I ever truly be loved for how I am?, who I am?' I take a blade out and add another story mark to my collection of stories. As I finish I hear footsteps running towards me. SHIT! I mumbled to myself. "What are you doing!? Dont do that to yourself!" I heard a worried voice behind me as they ran up next to me and gently hold my arm out to them.

I look to them to see one of my classmates. "S-sugawara?" I notice him looking at my scars and fresh new wound and quickly yank my arm away from him. "Dont look!" He gives me a worried look and asks, "Why?" I look him in the eyes. "Why, what?" "Why do you do this to yourself?" He asks gently. I can slowly feel my blood boil. "What do you care, huh!? Its none of your business what I do to myself I'm not anyone to you just like everyone else in this hell hole!" I can feel my tears burning my eyes. 'I've already made an idiot of myself in front of him I don't wanna cry in front of anyone either that's what I hate to do the most.' I shut my eyes tight and run away from him as far away as I can. He tries to run after me but I somehow eventually lose him by the school gym.

I wipe my tears away. I want to just go home already but I promised him I'd wait for him to finish practice so we could go home together. I let out a long sigh and go inside the gym putting on my personal mask. The smile everyone thinks belongs to a happy cheerful girl with no issues. I walk in looking for my brother Daichi and quickly spot him scolding Tanaka. I go towards them and stand in between the two. 'I feel bad for Tanaka he's just unique he isn't a bad guy loud and feisty is just how he is'.

"Why are you yelling at Tanaka for?" I give Tanaka a hug and play with his shaved hair. He considers me his little sister which I find fitting. "He was telling Hinata to fight people who call him short!" I slightly giggle at the image of Hinata fighting tall people. I look back at Tanaka then Daichi. "Next time don't scold him bring him to me." Apparently I'm more scary than Daichi when I'm mad which everyone on the team knows. But they still don't know he's my brother since we never really act like brother and sister.

More like friends I guess you can say?Tanaka then got a chill up his spine at the thought of having to deal with an angry little girl putting him in his place. "Look sis I promise I won't do it again I was just trying to toughen him up make him stand up for himself so please just don't get mad alright!?" I look over to him and say, "fine with me just don't make him fight titans ok."

Suddenly someone walks into the gym I look over and see someone who I didn't want to see right now. Its...Sugawara. Shit is he can tell everyone about what he saw Today? will Daichi find out? Thoughts run across my head at the speed of light until I was snapped out of my thought by Hinata. "Big sis, its not Tanaka's fault its mine I swear!" He calls me big sis because Tanaka calls me sis too. Its adorable. I'm a second year like Tanaka but he's still older which is why to Hinata im "big sis". "Its ok Hinata I know but I'm not going to get mad at either of you ok just dont do it again, now I have to go ok."

I notice Sugawara is walking towards me and I have to leave now before he confronts me and my character breaks. I try to run out of the gym exit but he blocks it and grabs my hand. He pulls me out if the gym and takes me to the back of the gym. "What do you want?" I ask in a shaking unsteady voice. "Why do you do that?" He asks in a soft gentle voice. "Because no one cares, and because I'm never good enough for anything or anyone." I say with my voice still quivering.

He walks up to me and lifts my arm again for him to see them better. "Here's the thing (Y/N) thats not true because I care. I've always cared. I always admired you from a far you cared about others before yourself you put others before yourself. Its not exactly a good thing all the time but it makes you gentle and caring."

He kisses the scars on your wrist. "I don't know if you remember but when I was in my last year of middle school and you were in your second year you found me crying on the school roof. And you sat next to me and hugged me telling me 'It's ok to have bad days they just make us stronger so we can protect others.' And after that day I began to like you." I do remember that day very well that day I was going to go look for him to confess my feelings to him then saw him crying.

After I saw him like that it broke my heart he was always smiling and to see him in tears hurt. I eventually gave up on liking him. He likes me back now? No this is a prank I know it is, It wouldn't be the first time. "This isn't a funny joke Sugawara." I say slowly starting to get mad. "Its not a joke (Y/N)!" He says in a serious voice. "I would never play around with your feelings like that. I'm telling you my genuine feelings." I dont know what to tell him he's obviously blind if he's saying he likes me. "How could you? How huh?" I ask him with a slight trace of rage.

"Because your you. I like you for you. The way you are behind the facade you put up and behind the side of you that harms yourself and tells you your not good enough. You have a beautiful heart that cares about others. Your a sweet person. You have a wonderful personality that you lock away to protect yourself. I don't care about what your body looks like or if you have an attractive face because thats not important. Personality is important looks are just plus. And just happen to have found gold."

He just gave me a long speech on how he sees me and honestly he made my heart race thats the first time someone said I was pretty or perfect the way I am, normally people point out what they dont like about me but he pointed then out and called me perfect anyway. I cover my face because at this point tears are over flowing from my eyes.

He hugs me and tells me its ok to cry. "I know we didn't ever talk much but can't we try now? I don't want to pressure you into a relationship that fast. Unless you don't mind its completely up to you." I hug him back and say, "I've liked you too the day I found you crying I was going to confess to you but I eventually gave up. So I don't mind."

He puts his chin on top of my head and says "I'm glad. I would have waited for you forever if it meant I could make you happy and I could be someone special to you. But can I ask you a quick question?" You look up to him confused. "Weren't you and Daichi dating?" He asks in a bit of a panicky tone. You laugh realizing that no one knows about Daichi being your brother. "Sugawara, he's my brother." You laughed at his worried tone. Sugawara's face goes pale as he realizes he now has to ask for not only your permission but Daichi's too. "He's ganna kill me." You pout at him. "No he won't your his best friend after all."

Sugawara takes a deep breath and looks you in your (e/c) eyes while holding both of your hands in his. "(Y/N) will you please go out with me?" he asks in a soft voice. "Yes!" I smile and hug him as his kisses the top of my head. We go back to the gym and find out all of them thought we got kidnapped.

Daichi runs over to me and grabs my shoulders. "Where were you?, you had me worried sick!" He's very protective of me since I'm younger. I was with Sugawara. A deadly aura surrounds him as he begins to think Sugawara as an older boy wanted to try something. Sugawara walks up to Daichi a little terrified not only because of his venomous aura. Sugawara clears his throat and says, "D-Daichi I wanted to ask if I c-could date your s-sister?" Daichi froze he was shocked that he found out about me being his sister and that Sugawara wanted to date me. Daichi looked at Sugawara in the eye and saw that he was serious about what he just asked.

Daichi smiled. "Sure I don't mind as long as she says its fine with her. At least this time I can say I trust the guy she's dating. your my best friend Sugawara but if you hurt her I'll break you." He says in a calm but smiley tone. Which could send shivers up anyone's spine. But sugawara just smiled back and said, "I would never dream of it!" He then walks over to me and hugs me. "I'll never let you feel alone ever again I promise. But after practice is over I think you need to tell Daichi about the scars." You look at him and nod your head.

After practice was over you guys head over to the store for some steamed buns. You pull Daichi over to you while everyone else is inside the store already and tell him, "I have to show you something Daichi." You show him your wrist and apologize sincerely to him. He smiles sadly and looks at you. "Its ok, i just wish you would have told me about what bothers you so much instead of crying and doing this behind closed doors." He runs His fingers over the scars gently and hugs you. Sugawara walks out of the store and goes over to you two. "Keep her safe for me ok?" Daichi tells Sugawara.

Sugawara pulls me close and says, "Of course." Then hands me a steamed bun. Daichi later invited Sugawara to come home with us and he agrees. For the rest of that night we talked and I told him about each story I carried with me on my wrist and he listened attentively to each one. Slowly we fell asleep on the couch with me on his chest and his face nuzzled up in my hair.

I've finally found my hero. Someone who can save me, from myself.

The End...

Sorry if that was intense and long you guys but if any of you ever deal with issues like these its ok I do too I'm always here to listen if you guys just wanna talk and let some stuff out.
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-Ashley🌸