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PART TWO TO HEARTBROKEN! HINATA
sorry but tsukki > hinata KSKXKSKZJSNZAJ ❤️
warning: contains a panic attack scene
presented by: tsukki headpats

(M/N) and Hinata began to drift apart after the incident with Kageyama. (M/N) instead began to hang out with Koji and Izumi as much as he could, but they still went to a different school. He had to face facts; his best friend didn't want to speak to him, which meant he needed to find someone new in the meantime.

Luckily for him, he had the perfect idea of who to go to.

One day, (M/N) walked to Tsukishima and Yamaguchi's class. He poked his head in and immediately felt a few eyes on him. The news about him and Hinata had spread like wildfire, so it was something he was getting used to. But aside from all the random people staring him, he caught the glance of a certain blonde.

"(L/N)-kun," Tsukishima addressed the student. He glanced around, then looked at (M/N). "Why are you here?"

"You said that if I ever needed something, to let you know," (M/N) quietly replied. He walked over to Tsukishima's desk, where Tsukki and Yamaguchi sat. "So.. I'm asking for you to be my friend- or friends? Please..?" He whispered.

Yamaguchi and Tsukishima looked at each other in surprise. Yamaguchi was about to say yes, but his best friend beat him to it. "Sure," Tsukishima mumbled. He grabbed a chair and pulled it up for (M/N). "Sit."

(M/N) grinned and took a seat. Yamaguchi glanced between the two, then smiled a little and shrugged. The trio began to chat about school and other things, things that managed to make (M/N) smile and quietly giggle. He hadn't done that in a while.

Meanwhile, outside walked Hinata and Yachi. The two heard some laughter and Hinata poked his head inside the classroom. His eyes widened a bit when he saw (M/N) laughing at something Tsukishima said, while the blonde wore a small smirk on his lips. "Hinata, we should g-go," Yachi whispered, trying to not bring attention on to them.

"He's just.. friends with Tsukishima now?" Hinata whispered. He pulled back and put his hands in his pockets, walking away with his friend and manager. "That's.. weird! It's not like they used to talk before!"

"Well maybe (L/N)'s just trying to make new friends," Yachi shrugged. She covered her mouth afterwards. "N-Not that there's anything with his old friends- like you! Y-You guys will w-work this out eventually, right?!"

"I don't know Yachi! I don't know..."

A few days later, and (M/N) was once again with Tsukishim. But this time, he was alone with him. "Hey Tsukishima! Do you mind helping me with these?" The boy panted as he caught up to the blonde. He held a stack of books in his arms.

"I guess," Tsukishima replied dryly. He took a few from (M/N)'s stack and the two began to walk. "Are you, uh.. okay?" He suddenly asked after a few minutes of walking.

(M/N) tensed up a little, but smiled and shrugged. "Define 'okay'," he chuckled, and Tsukishima gave him a small glare. The (H/C)-haired boy sighed, "I guess.. I'm just trying to get over what happened, get used to the stares people give me.."

"To be quite frank, it's none of their business. You shouldn't have to worry about them," Tsukishima scoffed. "And I told you already, what happened was just a mess that people need to move past. All parties messed up - you, Shrimpy, and the King. But it's in the past."

"Easy for you to say," (M/N) whispered with a sad smile. "You didn't lose your best friend."

Tsukishima glared at him and smacked the back of his head. "No, but I have to deal with those two idiots and you, who, quite frankly, I prefer over them," he sneered. Then he put both hands back on the books. "And aside from that, even if it were Yamaguchi and I - which it never will be - I'd just suck it up and move past it. No use dwelling on it. And Yamaguchi is the same way, I think."

(M/N) looked up at Tsukishima and smiled. "Yeah.. you're right! Sorry about that Tsukishima," he chuckled. They reached the door of the classroom they had to drop the books off to. "When did you get so wise, huh?" The student teased before slipping inside the room.

"When I realized you were hurt," Tsukishima whispered to himself, glancing down at the books in his hands. The blonde had found himself always being concerned about (M/N); when they passed Hinata or Kageyama in the hall, Tsukishima would walk between them and (M/N) to protect him from any sudden looks thrown his way. At lunch, Tsukishima and Yamaguchi would sometimes find (M/N) and sit with him. There were more examples I could explain, but that'd take some time.

He joined (M/N) inside the classroom and the two dropped off the books, then began to walk back down the halls. There was silence for a bit, until Tsukishima heard arguing down a hallway. He immediately recognized the voices - Hinata and Kageyama.

"Boke, I'm telling you, (L/N) still-!"

"I don't careeeee! We're not friends anymore, so just leave it alone Bakayama! And if you're going to say he still likes me, then you're wrong! He's friends with Stingyshima, meaning he probably likes him too!"

Tsukishima glared at the staircase that the voices seemed to come from and got ready to march up there, but stopped himself when he heard soft sniffling. He turned around and saw tears falling down (M/N)'s soft (S/C) cheeks, (E/C) eyes filled with haze. "(L/N), don't listen to them," Tsukishima whispered. "They're morons, you know that."

"I-I.." (M/N) tried to speak, but his throat felt like it was closing up. He looked at Tsukishima with wide eyes and shook his head, then looked down at his hands. "T-Tsu.. T-Tsukki.."

Tsukishima clicked his tongue and tried to think of what to do. He knew it was a panic attack, seeing as he had them - rarely - after incredibly stressful days. But to help someone was a different story. He thought about what Yamaguchi did when he had them. He looked at (M/N) and held his hands up. "(L/N), is it okay for me to touch you? And to take you somewhere safe?" He asked calmly.

(M/N) slowly nodded, body trembling as Tsukishima gingerly took a hold of his arm. The two slowly walked into an empty classroom, and Tsukishima made sure to close the door behind them. He then sat (M/N) down. "I-I'm sorry, I'm sorry," (M/N) whimpered weakly. "I'm sorry- I promise, I-I don't like you, not like that..! I'm s-sorry!"

Tsukishima's heart ached a bit, but he shook his head. "Don't apologize," he mumbled. He pulled up a chair in front of his friend. "Listen to me. Count 10 with me and breathe."
He began to count while (M/N) started to try and steady his breath. After a bit, he was able to breathe normally, but he was still shaking. "Do you need anything?" Tsukishima asked.

(M/N) looked at the blonde and gulped. "I- I... just tell me you don't think I like you," he whispered weakly. "Please, Tsukishima, I don't want you to think that-"

"Is it true?" Tsukishima quietly asked. "I wouldn't be mad if it were."

(M/N) looked down at his hands and gulped. He didn't know what he felt towards the blonde; he knew he liked him. Whether as a friend or as something more, he wasn't sure. He shrugged and sniffled. He saw Tsukishima shift, then felt a gentle touch on his head. He looked up and saw the blonde staring down at him with a blank expression - but in his eyes, (M/N) could see sadness. "Don't let those idiots get to you," the blonde whispered. "I don't care if you like me or not."

"Why? 'Cause you're gonna reject me and be fine?" (M/N) whispered back. He looked at the ceiling with a sad smirk. "Yeah. Right. Like I'm letting that happen again.."

Tsukishima frowned and moved his hand from (M/N)'s to his cheek. The two looked at each other, (M/N)'s eyes wide. "I would- I wouldn't do that," Tsukishima mumbled. "You idiot, why would I ever do that?"

(M/N)'s eyes watered a bit as the trembling in his body began to subside. "B-Because I'm your teammate's weird ex-best friend that fell in love with him?" He awkwardly laughed, trying not to cry again.

Tsukishima snickered and shook his head. "You really are an idiot," he said. He pulled his hands back and instead resting his cheek against one. "Now tell me why I wouldn't do that. Why I would be alright with the fact that you could possibly like me?"

(M/N)'s hands gently settled on his lap and gripped his uniform pants. He slowly nodded and looked up at Tsukki. "Because.. you like me?" He whispered almost inaudibly.

Tsukishima nodded and stood up. He noticed that the room was a bit cold, that (M/N) didn't have his jacket, and that the boy was still shaking. He took off his jacket and handed it to (M/N). "Get warmed up and stop shaking," he mumbled, a slight blush dusting his cheeks. "I'll see you around."

He left the room without another word, leaving (M/N) to watch a small smile. The student looked down at the jacket and giggled, then shrugged it on. 'Maybe I can like someone again..' he thought to himself.

That afternoon, when school ended, he was walking Tsukishima and Yamaguchi. (M/N) and Tsukishima didn't speak much, just shared occasional glances. "So (L/N), do you think you could come pick us up tonight after practice?" Yamaguchi asked. "You owe me for helping you with math the other day.. might as well pay me back now with some fries~"

"Ugh, I guess!" (M/N) groaned, playfully shoving the freckled teen. He looked at Tsukishima and smiled. "Will you be coming with us?" He asked.

Tsukishima glanced between the two, then looked at the jacket (M/N) wore. His jacket. He smirked, though it was meant to be a fond smile. "Sure. Might as well keep you two from getting hit by a car or something," he teased.

(M/N) dropped his friends off at practice, and just as he turned around to leave, his eyes met with those of the person behind him. They were brown, wide, and radiated the sweetest energy. But when they met with (M/N)'s eyes, they filled with bitterness and hurt. "Hinata," (M/N) whispered.

"(L/N)," Hinata said back, blinking with those wide eyes of his. "What are you doing here?"

"Dropping off Yamaguchi and T-Tsukishima," (M/N) stammered. He thought back to what had happened earlier in the day and gulped. "I'll just.. be going now."

"Do you like Tsukishima?" Hinata asked. (M/N) paused mid-step. "I've seen you guys - it's like how you used to look at me.."

"What does it matter to you?" (M/N) sadly laughed. He looked at the sky. "Like you said.. we're not friends anymore. And Tsukishima.. he told me to move on. We all messed up - Kageyama, me, heck, maybe even you. It was a messed up situation for all of us, mostly you, but the consequences have hit me too. So please, just.. leave it alone."

With that, he started to walk away again. Hinata watched him leave and felt his chest tighten, and he bit his lip. No, he hadn't suddenly caught feelings for his ex-best friend; he just missed having him around. He sighed and went inside, ignoring the glare he received from a certain blonde.

~~~

A few weeks later, Tsukishima and (M/N) were walking together to find Yamaguchi for lunch. After accepting that the two liked each other, they began to get closer, but Tsukishima didn't want to hurt (M/N) in any way mentally. But he decided that today, he could finally ask (M/N) out.

"(L/N), are you busy after school today?" Tsukishima awkwardly asked, fiddling with his fingers. He had picked the habit up from a certain friend of his from Tokyo.

"Hm? No, why?"

"Would you.. like to go out? There's a nice café near by."

"Sure!"

'That was easy enough.'

The day passed for the two, until finally, volleyball practice ended later that day. When Tsukishima left the gym, he saw (M/N) standing at the gates. He smiled a little and walked over. "You came. Kinda surprised," he remarked.

"Of course I did! I'm excited for this!" (M/N) replied as he straightened up. He grinned and held his hand out, which Tsukishima hesitantly took. "Now, where is this cafe-?"

"(M/N)!"

The two turned around, both a bit shocked when Hinata came running over. He stopped in front of them and turned to (M/N), bowing. "I'm sorry for acting like such a meanie these last few weeks!" He yelled suddenly. (M/N) winced and squeezed Tsukki's hand, but stared at his old friend regardless. "And I'm sorry for what happened that day that you tried to tell me the truth!"

Tsukishima took a step forward to snap at Hinata, but he felt a tug on his jacket and looked down. (M/N) was weakly smiling. "Thank you Hinata," he whispered. "I forgive you. And I'm sorry for what I did t-too."

Hinata perked up and stood up straight. "So.. can we be friends again...?"

"I'd love to," (M/N) chuckled. Then, he looked up at Tsukishima. "But let's talk about this another day. I have a date to go on."

"Oh! Okay!" Hinata replied. He glared at Tsukishima. "Don't hurt him, or I'll beat you up!"

"Yeah yeah, whatever you say, brat," Tsukishima hissed back. He looked at (M/N) and frowned. "Lets go." The two walked away and started to head to the cafe, but Tsukishima felt the urge to ask something. "How can you let him back into your heart so easily?" He asked. "He hurt you.. you were having panic attacks because of him! What if he likes you now-?"

(M/N) looked up at Tsukishima and stopped walking. "Don't be silly Tsukki," he softly chucked. "I forgave him because.. well, I do miss him as my friend. I'm willing to give him a chance. But I doubt he likes me again," he answered. Then, he squeezed Tsukki's hand. "And if he does, it sucks to be him. Because I already like somebody new."

Tsukishima blushed and was about to make fun of how cheesy (M/N) sounded, but was stopped when he felt soft lips touch his own lips. Tsukishima's eyes widened as (M/N) started to walk again and he stopped him. The blonde tugged the (H/C)-haired boy into another kiss, hands shakily cupping his cheeks. When it seemed like the oxygen was about to escape their lungs entirely, they pulled apart.

(M/N) smiled and rested his head on Tsukishima's chest. The blonde smiled a little and wrapped his arms around him. "Well then.. that's good," Tsukki whispered. "Because I'm not letting you go, or letting you get hurt, ever again."

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