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haha this is gonna hurt-
requested by -TSUKKIPOO !! hope you like it! im sorry if it's really bad-
presented by: pretty bby

"Stupid Kageyama! You're always yelling at me; I'm so tired of it!" Hinata yelled as he and Kageyama stood in the gym after practice. "I always thought it was a joke, but you're being really mean now!"

"Well maybe if you listened to me, I wouldn't yell!" Kageyama argued, crossing his arms. "But you're hard headed, boke!"

"If I'm so hard headed, why do you like me then?!"

"At this rate, I don't think I do anymore!"

Hinata stared at Kageyama and grit his teeth. "Fine! B-Baka! We're over then!" He shouted and grabbed his stuff. "I don't wanna date a bully!"

"Fine!"

And with that, Hinata ran out the gym. As he mounted his bike and began to go home, tears poured down his cheeks. 'I really thought me and Bakayama would last! But he's still a stupid, self-centered King!' He thought. 'I know.. I'll go to (M/N)! He always makes me feel better!'

(M/N) was Hinata's long time best friend, since they were in elementary school. (M/N) had always said, 'My door's open for you at any hour, Sho.'

So, there, at around 11 PM at night, Shouyou was knocking at (M/N)'s door. (M/N)'s mother opened it. "Oh, hello Shouy- oh my God, get inside!" She worried, shuffling the boy inside. "You look terrible dear! What happened?! You're going to catch a cold!"

"I just had a rough day," Shouyou mumbled, trying to wipe his tears. For once, (M/N)'s mother was witnessing his usual sunshine-like energy diminishing. She gently hugged him. "Is.. is (M/N) awake?" He whimpered.

"No, but you can wake him up."

He nodded and pulled away, sniffling. Hinata's throat was tight, aching and burning. He headed to (M/N)'s room, texting his mother along the way that he wouldn't be coming home. He went into the bedroom and quietly sat next to (M/N). "(M/N)," he whispered. The boy didn't stir. Hinata let out a choked sob. "(M-M/N), p..please wake up," he pleaded.

(M/N) groaned and rolled on to his side, facing Shouyou. When he realized the ginger was next to him, he sat up. "Hey Sho.. what's up?" He whispered, rubbing his eyes and yawning.

"(M-M/N).."

(M/N) heard the cracks in his best friend's voice and looked at him in shock. He crawled to his bedside table and turned on the lamp; that's when he saw Shouyou's face. Red, puffy, tear-stained, trembling lips, watery eyes, everything. "Oh my God, Shouyou," he whispered, pulling the ginger into his lap and hugging him tightly. "Let it all out sunshine.."

Those simple words were like a switch for Hinata. The dams in his eyes shattered, and he began to wail and sob into (M/N)'s shoulder. "We.. we broke- broke up! Stupid Kageyama! Stupid, s-stupid, s...stu... I'm stupid!" He cried, tightly hugging his best friend. "I'm so so so so stupid! W-Why m-me?!"

"Shh, stop that Shouyou. You're not stupid," (M/N) whispered, rubbing the ginger's back. "It happens sometimes. We don't always get who we want. That's just life. I'm sorry you learned that so soon," he spoke, eyes watering. He hated seeing his best friend in such agony. He didn't want him to feel what he had always felt.
For years, (M/N) had loved Shouyou. He had realized that back in the middle of their middle school years. But he knew he had no chance once Shouyou and Kageyama got to know each other; they just had that natural spark. But now - now, maybe he had a chance?

'No, I can't think that way. That's selfish,' (M/N) thought. He looked at Shouyou and began to clean his tears away. "Hey, Shouyou, listen to me. You deserve better, okay? Don't cry, hun. You're too precious to cry," he whispered in a gentle voice.

Hinata nodded and hid his face in (M/N)'s shirt. "I wish I could have someone like you," he mumbled, following his words with a sniffle.

(M/N) perked up. "O-Oh.. well.. you could always rely on me!" He stammered. Hinata looked up with a curious gaze. "You could use me, as a... fill-in boyfriend, only if you'd want!"

"Why?" Hinata asked with a soft cough.

"W-Well," (M/N) scratched his cheek. He couldn't tell Shouyou the truth, that he had been in love with him for years; that'd probably ruin the ginger even more. "I'm your best friend, r-right? I'd do anything for you to be happy.."

Hinata blinked a few times, then nodded. "That'd.. be nice. T-Thanks (nickname)," he mumbled. He yawned and rubbed his eyes again. "Can we go to bed? I'm sleepy.."

"Of course," (M/N) replied. Hinata got up and changed into his spare clothes he left at (M/N)'s house, then laid back down. (M/N) gently eased him into a hug, the two of them curling up with each other. After a few minutes, Hinata fell asleep. "Good night Sho. I love you," (M/N) whispered as he kissed the boy's forehead.

A few days later, (M/N) walked Hinata to volleyball practice. Hinata looked at (M/N) and grinned. "I'll see you later!" He cheerily exclaimed as he jumped up to kiss (M/N)'s cheek.

"Yeah, see ya Shouyou," (M/N) chuckled. He kissed Hinata's forehead, then turned around and walked away to go home. But as Hinata went inside and (M/N) walked, he bumped into Tsukishima. "Oh, hey Tsukishima."

"Hey," Tsukishima returned dryly. He then smirked. "So, you made a move on Hinata, huh? How cruel. Right after his break-up? I get that you're into him, but that's just low."

"I didn't make a move," (M/N) responded, crossing his arms. "I'm just being a good friend to Shouyou. That's all."

"Sure, sure," Tsukishima scoffed. He started to head inside. "But I'm just going to tell you.. that this may not be the smartest idea you've ever come up with. Don't cry when your heart gets broken."

(M/N) replied, "I won't. I'm doing this just for Hinata. I know I probably won't.. I probably won't get him. But it's the most I can do for him right now. Goodbye."

He walked away, sighing softly. Tsukishima sighed as well and went into the gym, where the tension was thick. Hinata and Kageyama glared at each other from across the room, causing everyone else to feel awkward and tense. "You dumbasses. Stop trying to murder each other with your eyes and start practicing," Tsukishima coldly spoke up.
As everyone began to scurry around to practice, he looked at Hinata. "Good luck with (L/N)," is all he said before walking away to Yamaguchi.

"What does he mean by that?"

Hinata turned around, where Kageyama stood behind him. The shorter boy pouted and crossed his arms. "None of your business! I'm just hanging out with (M/N) more!" He exclaimed. With that, he turned on his heel and left.

Meanwhile, (M/N) sighed as he stopped at a familiar park. He had called up two old friends to meet with, and was surprised to find them on a bench already. "Izumi! Koji!" He called out to his and Hinata's old friends.

"Hey, it's been a hot minute (M/N)!" Koji grinned, standing up and catching (M/N) in a hug. Izumi giggled and joined in on the hug. When the trio pulled apart, Koji asked, "So what's up? Why'd you call us here?"

(M/N) blushed and awkwardly rubbed his neck. He sighed and said, "I.. I may have messed up," he admitted. Izumi and Koji looked at each other, and the three sat on the bench. "Shouyou.. he broke up with his setter. Kageyama. A-And.. I.."

Izumi frowned. "It's okay," he reassured his friend. "Take your time."

(M/N)'s lips trembled. "I suggested that I could fill in the hole in his heart," he whispered. Koji sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. "I just.. I just wanted a chance.."

"So you take advantage of him? And make yourself feel horrible in the process?" Koji spoke. (M/N) cringed. "(M/N).. we know you've always loved Shouyou, and you know we've always supported that. But.. hurting the two of you by doing this is isn't okay either."

"Even though Koji sounds a bit rough," Izumi piped up, shooting Koji a glare. "He's right. Think about it, (M/N). Sho's going to find out you're in love with him, then is going to feel guilty for leading you on. And you.. you're going to be heartbroken."

(M/N)'s eyes teared up, and he looked between the two friends. "Yeah, you guys are right," he whispered. "I.. I need to fix it, huh?"

"Yeah," Koji nodded. He put an arm around (M/N)'s shoulders. "What do you say we go with you whenever you're ready? We'll wait for you, hide somewhere. When you and Sho are done, you can come to us. We'll be there for you buddy."

Izumi nodded, and (M/N) softly laughed. The three hugged. "Thanks guys. That'd mean a lot to me," he murmured.

~~~

A few more days passed. (M/N) decided he'd do it today. He'd tell Shouyou the truth. He waited until Izumi and Koji were done with their club practices at their school, then the trio went to Karasuno. The sun had almost finished setting. "We'll wait here," Izumi said as he and Koji stood at the gates of Karasuno.

"Thanks guys," (M/N) weakly smiled. He walked to the gym, gently cracking the door open. "Uhm, excuse me," he quietly greeted the coach. "May I borrow Hinata for a moment?"

"Uh, yeah, I guess," Ukai shrugged. "Oi, ginger! You got a visitor!"

Hinata looked over and grinned. He ran over. "(M/N)! What's up?!" He exclaimed.

"Can we talk?"

Hinata didn't like the tone in (M/N)'s voice. He just nodded.

The two walked outside, then stood face to face. "So uhm.. I haven't been very honest with you," (M/N) murmured. "I want to say sorry, first of all."

"Huh? For what?" Shouyou asked, tilting his head like a puppy. "And what weren't you honest about?"

(M/N) took a deep breath. "Shouyou, I-"

"He's in love with you, idiot."

(M/N) froze. 'No. No no. This isn't how this is supposed to go,' he thought as he looked at the door of the gym. Kageyama stood there, arms crossed as he flashed an unimpressed look. "I-I-"

"What? No way!" Hinata argued. "(M/N)'s my best friend! He told me he was doing this to help me, you jerk!" He explained. Then, he looked at (M/N). "Right (M/N)?!"

(M/N) gulped and began to shake. Kageyama scoffed. "Look at him, you idiot. It's obvious. And you've just been using him to try and replace me."

"That's not true-!"

"S-SHUT UP!"

The volleyball players looked at (M/N), who was now nearing tears. "He's r-right, Shouyou," he whimpered. Hinata's hands dropped to his sides. "I've.. I've liked you for a long time. And I took advantage of you to make myself happy; I was selfish. I-I'm sorry," he blurted out.

Hinata looked between the both of them. Confused noises escaped his lips, but he couldn't form words. Why would (M/N) lie? Why would Kageyama expose him like that? How did Kageyama even find out? And had he been leading (M/N) on this whole time. "Y-You.. you both..!" He tried to yell. But more angry squeaks and grunts were all that flew out. "I don't wanna talk to either of you!" He managed to shout before shoving past Kageyama and going back into the gym.

"I hope you're happy," Kageyama said. Then, a pale hand grabbed him from inside the gym. "Huh-?!" He yelled as he was tossed inside.

Tsukishima poked his head out the doors and met with (M/N)'s eyes. He actually looked like he felt bad for the (E/C) eyed male. "I'm sorry. For both of those dumbasses," he muttered. (M/N) sniffles and shrugged. The blonde bit his lip. "Uhm.. take care of yourself. And.. let me know if you need something, or whatever."

(M/N) dryly chuckled and nodded. Tsukishima gave him one last small smile and nod before going into the gym again. (M/N) took a deep breath and began to leave. When he turned the corner, he saw Izumi and Koji anxiously waiting for him. Koji perked up. "Well?" He asked softly.

(M/N) smiled weakly as a few tears slipped down his cheeks. "I.. I did it," he said with a cracking voice. "And now.. I think Shouyou hates me. But t-that's okay," he added as he walked over to his friends and hugged them tightly. "B..Because.. because at least now, I'm not l-lying..!"

Izumi and Koji looked at each other and shook their heads with sadness, hugging their poor friend. He didn't deserve this. Neither did Shouyou. But (M/N) had spun himself into a mess he wanted to turn into a perfect fantasy.

And that, unlike in the fairy-tales, did not work in his favor.

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hahahaha IM SO SORRY THIS WAS SUCH A BAD ATTEMPT AT ANGST- IM GOING TO SCREAM
i just 👉👈 don't know how to write it- like idk this was weird- and I didn't know how to keep it going so I feel like it's very cluttered and messy
but !! i did try to note some tsukishima bits in there- perhaps a part 2, if i don't lose my mind by then?

also guess what bitch is going to make a haikyuu femboy hooters au book ✨

next up: tsukishima x chubby! male reader

(im surprised you guys like those so much!^^)