Chapter two

I stared at the ceiling for a long time, hearing the ticking noise of the clock in my room.
Tick Tock Tick Tock.
Had I had dreamed everything?
Tick Tock Tick Tock.
Will he really be there?
Tick Tock Tick Tock.
What will happen if I have a break down because of the new dose of my pills?
Tick Tock Tick Tock.
What illness does he have?

I sighed, sitting up and looking at my hands.
I'm still not afraid to die... But one of the byeffects of my pills is depression. Kinda ironic if you think about it. As if the brain tumour isn't enough.

So sometimes I'm asking myself, why me? Why did God chose me out of over 7 billion people? Or now I'm asking myself, why does this beautiful, adorable, always smiling and laughing guy has the same fate as me? Or nearly the same?

I snapped out of my thoughts, when suddenly a nurse came into my room. "Good Morning Matsukawa-kun. Here your breakfast and the increased dose of pills. Kimizuki let us know." She smiled as she put the tray onto my lap. "Yeah... Thanks." I mumbled as I took my pills, swallowing them with a sip of water.
"And...uhm...Do you feel better?" She said, looking a bit cautious. I rolled my eyes, starting to eat my meal. "Yeah yeah, as long as I ain't dying." I wanted to make a small joke, I know it doesn't sound like one. The nurse didn't get it either and looked shocked at me. I let out a sigh, continuing to eat. "Well...I'll let you alone..." She said, as she left.
That's why I like Kimizuki much more. She's not like that, maybe because she's doing this job for over 35 years. But oh well, I'm drifting off.

As I finished my breakfast, I stood up and went to the small and tight room they call bathroom here, to wash my face.
I raised my head a bit, looking into the mirror. How did he know, that I was lying? Or that I felt pain? My face looks always the same. Everyday. Many told me this before, so I'm not just self-pitying myself. God damn it, I shouldn't think about it too much.

I went back to my room and changed my clothes. Mhm, gotta have to go to my place, I don't have clothes anymore. I looked at the clock. 10 am. I didn't know when we were meeting, but I went outside anyway, because we met each other around the same time yesterday. "Bye, Matsukawa-kun!" The nurses said smiling as I left the hospital. I didn't even had to search for him. First of all, I smelled the cigarette smoke and second, he was wearing neon green pants with light blue dots, a pink pullover with some holes in it, purple shoes and again the same beanie, but this time the pompoms had different colours.
I went to him and again, smiled a bit, what apparently shocked him. "Wow you're smiling! That could be like the hot topic in a magazine!" Strawberry smirked as he finished smoking his cigarette.
"Aren't you overreacting?"
I shook my head, but he only chucked a bit. "No I don't. Now let's go to the amusement park!" He snuggled up to my arm, starting to go like that in the direction of the park. As people saw us like that, you could hear they were talking no good about us. Some girls would giggle at Strawberry's clothing style, elder women, that he was cuddling with my arm or some men would look at us disgusted. But he apparently couldn't care less about it, and neither could I. But what was more on my mind was my brain. I can't go on any rides, it could literally kill me. So how do I say this to him?
"Hey, are you good at shooting?" He looked up to me, smiling. I fell even more for him, he's just too handsome and adorable. "When I was young I was pretty good, I don't know if I still am." He started to laugh loudly, everyone who stood near us looked at him. I am in love with him.
Suddenly he had to cough, hitting his chest with his fist. "Sorry, chocked on my own saliva." He said, calming down. "Mhm...But why were you laughing?" Was my only response.

Gonna ask Kimizuki, which illness shows these kind of symptoms. "I had to laugh, because you sounded like an old gramps." He snickered and we both went to a shooting booth. "I'll begin!" He smiled brightly as he gave the owner of the booth some money, taking the gun after it. I watched him, as he started shooting, he wasn't really good though. As he finished, he only got a small pen and a rubber. "Oh man..I wanted this stuffed teddy..." I sighed. "Wait a sec..." I mumbled as I asked the owner how much it would cost, to win this bear. I gave him the amount of money and took the gun. Tumor, don't you dare act up. I took a deep breath and started the shooting.
I won the teddy and gave it to strawberry, who cuddled it happily. "You're really amazing!" He kissed my cheek, what made my head flush bright red. "Yeah..." Strawberry snickered again, taking my hand and going further trough the amusement park. We stopped at some candy booths or those booths were you have to fish some plastic toys. We had to buy a bag, to put all the candies and toys in it. "Let's take a ride on the ferris wheel!" He said excitedly, eating some cotton candy. I nodded, going with him to the big wheel and sitting in one of the cabins. I was so glad, that he didn't want to go on any rides yet.
As we were on the highest point, he pressed his hands and face against the pane. "Whooa, look Mattsun! Everything is soooo small!" I felt how I had to smile again, still looking at him. "Yeah... The sight is beautiful..." I mumbled, still looking at him. He turned around, facing me. "Ugh. You're such a charmer." He chuckled and gave me a small peck. How do I deserve this perfect strawberry?
As the ride was over, he snuggled up to my arm. "Mhm... Let's go to the Horror House!" He looked up to me, smirking. I nodded. "Yeah sure why not." As long as we don't go on any rides. But I have the feeling, that he knows that I can't go on any.
With one arm, he cuddled with the teddy bear and with his other arm, he cuddled with my arm. "Don't you dare to scare me or letting my arm go!" He said serious, what made me chuckle. This was the first time he was serious.
We both went through the Horror House and with every puppet or jump scare, he would shriek like a girl. I pulled him closer to me, trying to choke down a series of chuckles. He's so adorable. How often did I already think that?
As we the torture, he breathed relived.
"Man, that was friggin' scary! God I thought I would die in there!" He sighed, letting my arm go. "Yeah, it was really scary..." I mumbled. Strawberry rolled his eyes and shook his head. "I know that you weren't scared at all." He started to pout. I couldn't handle this, my cheeks flushed red and I secretly took out my phone, taking a picture of him.
"Did you really just take a picture of me?"

No I didn't!

"Yes I did." Are you serious?!
He looked at me for a while and then had to burst out laughing. "Oh God, I love your honesty!" He laughed, whipping his tears away.

We spent the whole day at the amusement park, without going on any rides. He didn't even ask me if I want to go on one.
"Hah...That was fun!" He smiled brightly, yawning satisfied. I looked at my phone. Good, I still got a little time before I have to take my pills.
"Yes, never had as much fun as today."
I wasn't lying, I never had more fun in my life, then with this cute and dorky strawberry. We both went apparently to his apartment. After a while, he stopped in front of a high-rise. "So, that's my place. Thanks for bringing me." He smiled, taking the bag from me, with the things I had won for him. "As a charmer I have to bring you to your apartment." I took his hand, kissing it. I saw this in a movie once. He looked at me, blushing a bit. And suddenly he started to act weird. "Yeah uhm..." he pulled his hand away. "We will meet us tomorrow afternoon, kay?" He didn't smile, didn't even look at me. I was a bit confused, but nodded only. "Sure thing." He hesitated for a brief moment, but then went inside, closing the door behind him. I sighed, going back to my place.
What was that all about? Was it because I kissed his hand? Did he thought I could infect him like this? No, otherwise he wouldn't have kissed me. Did I do something wrong? Or was it because he had to blush?
I am over thinking this.
As I reached my flat, I went inside, taking out my shoes and swallowing my pills with a sip of water. I went straight to my bed, laying down. I took my phone, looking at the picture I took of him.
Again, I felt how I smiled, stroking softly over my phone's display.
"Oh man...Completely fell for you, Strawberry." And then, I fell asleep

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"Hey Kimizuki, can you do me a favour?" I started to pack some of my clothes into a sports bag while talking to my favourite nurse. "Well, I have a question...If someone has the symptoms, spasmodic coughing and a hoarse voice, what most likely illness does he have? Think of the worst case." Kimizuki hesitated, I heard that through the phone. "Yes it's for my friend... C'mon answer me. No my friend hadn't answered it yet...Kimizu-" She hung up. I stared at my phone for a long time, then snapped out of my thoughts. "What the heck...?" What was her problem? Should I google it? But if Kimizuki is reacting like this...
I sighed a bit irritated, going outside with the sports bag.
Today we were meeting at afternoon first, so I had plenty of time. What should I do? I went to the hospital. "Hey, the doctors increased my dose and I wanted to go buy the new medicaments. In need of the prescription for it."
The nurse looked at me a bit emphatic and nodded slowly. "Kimizuki-san let us know... I'm sorry for you, here the prescription." She gave it to me, smiling, again empathic. I took it and rolled my eyes, without saying a thing to her, going outside. God damn it!I hate this look! It's nothing bad, just increased my dose a bit!

I went to the pharmacy, buying the knew medicaments. I talked with the apothecary a bit and then went back to the hospital. But what I saw, shocked me a bit, so I hid myself behind a tree. Strawberry was walking inside the hospital, he didn't look good, his face was pale, he had dark circles under his eyes, his face was grimacing in pain and he wore a big scarf around his neck, slightly coughing in it. What in the world...? I tried to calm myself down. He could have only a small flu, nothing special... Or he's just has pneumonia, but not in a dangerous way!
I secretly followed him.

He wasn't at the reception anymore. Breathing out relived, I went to the reception, where the nurse was sitting, which I was just speaking to before. As she saw me she smiled at me, without being mad that I just ignored her couple of minutes ago. "Hey uhm...Was here a pink haired guy with a weird taste in clothing style?" I was really nervous, but apparently I hid it good. "Yes, he was. Why are you asking, Matsukawa-kun?" Oh God this smile of her, she kinda pisses me off.
"Why was he here? Does he want to visit someone?" I want to know it. I have to know it.
"I'm sorry Matsukawa-kun, but I can't release any information of our visitors nor patients." She said, looking honestly sorry. I let out a sigh. That means I have to wait until he tells me about it...
I went up to my room, putting the sports bag on my bed. I felt kinda... Nervous? The feeling, knowing that the person you fell in love with is here for a medical check up makes me really nervous. I decided to just stay in my room, until afternoon, where we would meet each other again. But I couldn't stay still, I was walking through my room, thinking about him. He's here, because he's not feeling well. Because he has an illness. I sighed, laying down on the bed. Should I go? Should I search for him? Or should I just stay here, waiting for him?

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Heeelloo^^ here is chapter two and it's going to be 3 to 4 chapters T^T I'm sorry >.< hope you don't mind though...
And as always, I hope you enjoyed reading it^-^♡

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