UNHAPPY - KUROTSUKKI

   athazagoraphobia is the fear of being forgotten or ignored and fear of forgetting.

   after kuroo had gotten the news of tsukishima not making it after his suicide attempt- he lost it.

   'what if kuroo forgot about him?' said the voices. 'no way!' said another. 'we love tsukishima !! there is no way in hell that we would forget him.'

   kei's family organized the funeral. everyone wore black and tears were pouring out of the eyes of loved ones. kuroo didn't cry. he couldn't-

   tsukishima said that when he dies, that he would like to be buried beside yamaguchi- right after tadashi broke up with the tall blond, he was hit by a car.

a hit and run.

the police never caught the killer, even though tsukishima was sure that they didn't even try.

kuroo knew that he was just a replacement until kei wanted to leave.

kuroo knew that he loved tsukishima more than the tall boy would ever love him.

tsukishima was the best thing that ever happened to him.

   even though the first time they met, kei poured a drink on top of his head, kuroo tried and tried to get the tall guy's attention.

   what if kuroo forgot their first date?

/flashback/

   kuroo shifted his weight from one leg to another. why wasn't the tall beanpole here yet? did he find out that kuroo wasn't actually friends with his boss? or did not even know who the heck was his boss? what if-

   "so are you going to actually go to take me on a date or what? just stand there and stare into space?" the tall boy said, surprising kuroo.

"hmm? oh good! you're here!" kuroo said, ignoring his question. "i don't think i actually ever introduced myself yet! my name is kuroo, and you are?"

"out of your league. "

"wow, your lucky you're pretty. " kuroo said quickly, he was used to salty comments because of a man he knew, daishou. kuroo's ex.

   the man did a 'tch', and, boy, did kuroo find it sexy.

  "let's just go to wherever you're taking me." the blond said.

/end of flashback mate/

   kuroo smiled at that memory. he remembered that it took him a good, two whole dates to get tsukishima to tell him his name. oh! and how kei was blushing really hard after-wards.

   kuroo remember when they went black friday shopping together.

   kuroo got lost.

   kei literally had to call security to find him.

   he was lost in a candy shop.

   kuroo remember that he would never see him again.

   ever.

   so, what if kuroo forgot? what if kuroo forgot about kei?!??

   the bed head panicked.

   he took deep breaths, in out, in out, in out-

   kuroo ran to the toilet, and let his insides come out.

   deep breaths were not working.

   tears poured down on his face, why did kei leave him?

   was he not enough?

   did kei forget the times and love they shared?

   anger built up within kuroo's body. 

   "i hate you," he whispered.

   "i hate you!" he said a bit louder.

   "I HATE YOU!"

   why was someone who was dead making him feel like this?

   right now,

   all kuroo wants to do is forget.

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oh dear

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