do you ever.

hate someone so damn much, you want them to burn in hell in the worst possible way? please, please poof away and leave my life because I'm done with their shit.

every fucking time I can escape, they appear again.

I need you to suffer, feel my pain. I really hope you do, you bitch.
You have no idea, the pain you caused. The unimaginable suffering you brought upon others, because you'll do anything to make sure your life is sunshine and flowers.

I did terrible things and avoided the people who care.. engulfed myself in the internet because I thought, people I didn't even know the faces of were the solution to my issues. That if i acted like you weren't there, you'd just leave and everything would be okay.
how wrong i was, to think such idiotic things.

Seeing your face angers me so damn much. Your pure existence, makes me want to end my own. Now, people are starting to leave. Get it through your damn mind that you're hurting people and everyone can't bend over and kiss your damn feet.

I cannot describe the hatred i feel. it's unbearable, so unbearable i get sick to the stomach just thinking of you. Even writing this, my whole body is trembling with rage.

fucking fuck off already. Even now, even after i described how i feel, you still continuous put me down like i have no feelings.

i'm so terribly sorry i'll never be as good as you. So, very sorry. Sorry i can't have emotions. Sorry i'm not some puppet to be controlled at your likings.

you claim we're family? you claim we're close? please, don't even fucking start.

it makes me sick, to think i could hate someone so much. to the point i wouldn't care if something absolutely dreadful happened to you. I hate myself for that. That your actions could make me wish death on another.

two people, almost killed them selves because of you. and it's still not processing? what the fuck, goes through that mind of yours.

I almost felt bad for you, thinking that it isn't your fault. that maybe it's just how you are. Now things are different.

You are a monster. I bloody hate you. But i'll never be able to leave, because you're family, right?

this is truly a terrible thing to say, but i really do hope you suffer. get a taste of your own medicine for once. i know i could never bring myself to do anything to you, but karma always comes around in any shape or form.

this could go on forever. i could endlessly talk about my hatred and how inhumane you are. How crazy i was, not to the see the signs until now.

what i hope is that you get your shit together. you're a still a human being, beneath the bullshit you seem to be covered in. Seriously, you need a nice helping of therapy. Everyone does anyway. hell even i get therapy.

maybe you have some of your own issues going on, but that's not an excuse for anything you fucking do.

i deeply apologize, to my internet and real friends whoever read this. you honestly don't need to hear this, but i really need to express myself somewhere.

but if there was anyone i would wish to choke on their sins until they die.

it'd be you, my loving family member.

good day to everyone.