Au - Some may find this chapter distressing however hopefully by now yal have figured out suicide is mentioned throughout this book. And hopefully you don't feel too mentally unstable as I did write in the author note that suicidal shit would be included.

If you are mentally stable, feel free to continue as this chapter does mention Jimin's second way of dying. - The climax.

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"You see, suicide when a person isn't drowning can cause them to yell out in agony, but drowning, your lungs are on fire and unless you back out it's a very silent unnoticeable death." 

Mirror lady

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Jimin's POV

Tears blinded my eyes as I unlocked my apartment.

My heart was aching as I managed to unlock the door and stumble inside.

I slouched against the back of the front heavy door, my hands shaking and my knees buckling.

I closed my eyes tightly hyper ventilating as I coughed.

My stomach churned and ached.

I quickly ran towards the bathroom leaning over the sink to vomit while panicking.

Splashing cold fresh water on my face, I groaned looking at my appearance.

My mascara was dripping down my cheeks now in blank ink streaks while my eyes bulged red and puffy.

I grabbed a flannel sniffling before dipping it into cold water then washing off my make up.

I took a step back leaving the flannel covered in make up on the bench.

Then I proceeded to remove my suit and underwear as my hand shakily turned on the bath tap.

The bath was all white and was right beside my shower where I met Taehyung for the first time.

I shivered feeling the cold air around my body.

But I know the bath water will be cooler, this is because I didn't pay for hot water yet.

I took a deep breath and slightly yelped as I dipped my toes into the cold icy water before placing my whole foot and lower right leg into the water.

Then I copied with my right lower leg before sitting down surrounding my torso with the cold fresh water.

I gasped holding tightly onto the bathtub between my hands as I gently lied down inside the bathtub.

My chest was covered in water, right up to my chin as I kept my head out of the water while resting back on my elbows allowing for my legs to float touching nothing.

There was pure silence as I lay still.

Not even the sound of water circulating could be heard while my chest rose up and down in the bathtub.

White clouds of air surely was coming out between my pale lips.

More tears blurred my eyes when all I could think about were the people who I cared about.

Kim Taehyung: dashing always, the most charming smile, most beautiful golden brown orbs, most delicious thin rosy lips, deep ravishing voice and kind, caring friendly words.

Jeon Jungkook: Super handsome, nice pursed lips showing off a cute mole, most deep dreamy brown eyes, most annoying but weirdly trustworthy person I've ever met.

Jung Hoseok: Such a talented person with such delicious baking and out going spirit who I swear could make friends with everyone.

Min Yoongi: An asshole but yet he gave me his scarf so that I wouldn't get fired, his light blonde hair, strong shaving cream scent, raspy deep-ish voice.

Would they hate to see me the way I am right now? Most definitely.

But would they care from all the fakeness?

How could I not see Jungkook buying me a suit as though I'm using him, even for the amount of times we hook up.

How could I not realize that even though Taehyung wanted me to be with someone else, he just couldn't stand me be near anyone else because of our own shared feelings.

How could I not have realized that no matter what, Hoseok was Yoongi's friend first. Plus he's so friendly that he would be there for multiple people at once, supplying me with false hope for a best friend.

And Yoongi, promising him a date that I never intended on going on.

All fake.

But what am I now? 

Who am I now?

I am quite frankly nothing...

~ Flashback ~

Omniscient POV

"How does he do it? Can you at least tell me that?" Taehyung questioned looking at the lady in the mirror.

"The first time he breaks a vase while drunk and is tempted by the sharp glass," The lady told him.

"And the second time?" Taehyung asked feeling tears run down his cheeks.

"The second time..." She said pausing.

"He drown's himself" She stated.

Taehyung's stomach churned.

"Well that's easy enough to notice though right? I mean he doesn't seem to use the bath, go to a pool or sea." Taehyung mumbled.

"Yes but all your human has to do is say they are going toilet or to have a shower without you being aware of their mental state and it's possibly over," The lady stated.

"Or even if you aren't on good terms with your human you could so easily miss it," She explained.

"You see, suicide when a person isn't drowning can cause them to yell out in agony, but drowning, your lungs are on fire and unless you back out it's a very silent unnoticeable death." The lady snapped.

"Anyway's, best of luck." The women called as Taehyung's eyes widened in horror.

The sight of the women in the mirror disappearing quickly as Taehyung stumbled backwards slouching against the wall as tears filled his eyes.

Taehyung doesn't want to see the person he's madly falling for at this point die.

Not once, not twice.

But not too suicide.

Taehyung just wants to become Jimin's everything; his happiness, lover, carer and protector.

Only Taehyung knows he can't always be their for Jimin, he knows he needs to create a larger base of people to care for Jimin.

As he wants to do his best to avoid Jimin's death, maybe never even see it?

~ End of Flashback ~

Jimin's POV

I lifted one of my cold hands out of the water swiftly placing it over my mouth as I rested on my other forearm.

Then I let go placing my other hand over my nose as my head fell under the cold water.

The cool water surrounded me as my body tightened.

My hands begged too move from my face as my body knew I was suffocating... But I continued to let my hands suffocate me.

Leaving my eyes closed I removed my hands from my mouth and nose to let the water rush inside of me.

You may be wondering what having bad mental health is like, it is like you are drowning, except you can see everyone else around you breathing...

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(Reckon he's dead? -Yo, side note, I swear if BTS do an angel theme era (more in depth then like wings or blood sweat and tears stuff) I am gonna not b stable enough at that point... Like dressing them all in white and wings, gonna have a fit I swearrrr.

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