(y/n) - your name

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"How long has she been like this?"

"3 weeks..."

"Loki's been sitting here every day. Won't budge, won't move..."

"And him?"

"That's his brother."

"What's wrong with him?"

"Oh, he's pissed. He thinks he failed, failed his brother, failed his sister-in-law and their child."

"They're married and they had a kid?"

"Yeah... Sucks doesn't it."

"Her ring hasn't deformed with her body."

"No... the only sign we have of (y/n) amongst the dark inky void of her body."

"She doesn't even have a body... it's just a shadow with a face..."

"Loki, you need to eat."

"I'm not leaving her."

"You practically live here, you need to get out-"

"-no."

"It's no use, you have been trying to get a response from her mind for months and nothing."

"You take that back this instance!"

"Loki-"

"-you don't understand! None of you do! She saved me! Again! Twice! And I couldn't do anything to save her! Not even once! I couldn't even save our baby..."

"Loki... I'm sorry."

"Me too..."

"I miss her."

"We all do Reindeer Games."

"I miss her so much."

"I know... but it's been 4 years... we need to let go."

"Thanos is going to pay!"

"Brother! Stop! We don't even know where he is!"

"Thor, I can't reach her! I don't even hear her! He needs to pay for what he's done!"

"Come here."

"She's fading away Thor... I'm losing her... I can't lose her too. Not her..."

"I know brother."

"Somethings changed."

"Nothing's changed Loki-"

"-just look!"

"She's turning her head as if she hears us."

"Our words are echoing as well in her mind. She's listening!"

"She is!?"

"Do you think (y/n) is in there?"

"I want to keep trying. She's my wife and I'm going to bring her back."

"Hi darling..."

"Of course, you can't reply back... I was hoping for a miracle though."

"It's been 5 years love - you used to call me that."

"The world has been devoured in darkness since that day in Wakanda... of course I don't blame you, Thanos did this to you. You just lost control."

"I love you..."

"I... I haven't said this to you since our battle against Thanos and I'm sorry. I should've told you every day even if you can't hear me."

"You're hurting me (y/n), please tell me you love me back."

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

I look over at the man that pleaded his love for me, crying endlessly into his hands as he kneeled in front of my cage container. All I could feel was his pain and misery but beneath it all, I could feel his love for me. I felt so miserable that I couldn't stop his crying, couldn't stop his pain. All I wanted to do was hug him.

I love you.

The man looked up at me in surprise as he stopped crying, quickly standing up. He stood in front of my container as I floated closer to the glass, raising my hands to press against the cold material.

I love you.

I repeated to him and I could feel happiness bloom inside him and I was overjoyed from the fact he was happy.

I love you Loki.

I say a name and I recognise it as the man's name as he burst into tears of joy. He suddenly runs off to flip a switch and the alarms ring out, turning everything red.

"Loki!" a couple of people suddenly run into the room and they gasp to see me free, my shadow slowly seeping across the floor towards them and they quickly take a step back in fear.

"You know what happens when you touch her!"

"(y/n), come back to me. Please." I look at Loki and he holds my face, wincing in pain as his hand slowly decays. I lean my head in his hand, a green aura running through me and I shriek like a banshee as buried memories rip forward to the surface. "Come back to me." Loki leans down to kiss me and my mind goes into haywire, remembering him, remembering the avengers, remembering the hospital, remembering everything.

"Loki..." I sigh out as I kiss him back, my body slowly turning back to its natural colour. The darkness seeped back into my body as it started becoming solid, Loki catching me on my new formed legs as he deepens the kiss. "Oh, Loki..." I whimper, crying softly as he pulled me to his chest, hugging me tightly.

"You're back, you came back." He leans back, leaning his forehead on mine as he cried. "You came back to me."

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." I cried out as I hugged him tightly, peering over his shoulder to see Natasha, Steve and Thor crying as well.

"(y/n)!" They all jump on me, hugging me tightly.

"You're going to turn me into the fog again if you crush me any longer." I gasp out and everyone lets me go but not Thor. He holds onto me like a lifeline.

"I didn't fail, oh gods I didn't fail you."

"You could never fail me Thor." He laughs happily before setting me down on my feet. I stumble to my knees and Loki quickly catches me. "My love." I whimper, seeing the multiple streaks on his face from crying. I reach up to touch him but I stop, noticing my right arm was black and I take a step back. The death stone was permanently lodged on the back of my hand, the darkness creeping up until my elbow like living vines that moved across my skin.

"Your hand..." Loki frowns as he sees my left hand and I lift it to see that it was shattered when Thanos ripped the light stone from me. My hand were floating in pieces but were somehow still tethered together by an invisible string.

"I won't be able to feel you..." I look up at Loki sadly.

"That's not the only thing that's changed..." Steve mutters out and I walk out of the containment room to find a mirror, stumbling back from the hideous creature staring back at me. My hair was now pitch black, a shadow that swayed above my head as my eyes glowed white against the dark streaks that crawled over my face and my body beneath the black dress that draped over the floor.

"I'm a monster..." my hands shook at this revelation and I look out the window to notice the pitch-black sky despite it being 1 pm. I walk outside despite the others calling me back inside. "I did this..." I look at the 4 avengers and they all frown. I grit my teeth and raise my right arm, the stone glowing and the darkness smothers the whole right side of my body as I rid the world of the endless night I trapped them in. I cry out as I suck in the fog that clung to the earth, streaming into the dark stone and I try to control the darkness to not overtake me again.

"(y/n)!" I felt calm spread over me as Loki held my shoulder, the blue sky finally returning as the darkness shrunk back down to only my elbow. Loki quickly holds me up as fatigue hits me.

"You need to rest (y/n)-"

"-no. Show me what happened after I lost control."

"We shouldn't-"

"-show me." I cut Steve off and he sighs in defeat, Loki helping me walk into the meeting room and putting up the holographic video of the last few moments of the battle in Wakanda. 

I watch with my lips pursed, everyone screaming out for me as my body disintegrated and turned into a shadow. I just hovered in the air, the earth around me slowly decaying and turning grey as I sucked the life force out of everything. Some of the Wakandans tried to touch me, to move me but they all quickly turned to dust. I just hovered there, turning the blue sky into an endless night sky as the Wakandas tried to figure out how to stop the decay.

Time zoomed by quickly, days, maybe weeks, maybe even months went by and Tony had managed to build a containment for me. They built it around me using the iron legion, trapping me inside until they could move me back to the compound.

"Did I hurt anyone else?" Thor shakes his head but I knew he was lying. "Who did I hurt?" The 4 avengers look at each other.

"Danvers said that you managed to swallow hundreds of planets into a void..." Natasha whispers and I stand there frozen.

"Did she... did she manage to bring them back...?" She shakes her head no. "I-I can't - I shouldn't be here-take me back to the container-"

"-I had tried, for 5 years, to be able to bring you back and I won't let you slip away from me again." Loki moves around me to hold my face but I flinch back from his touch. I could feel his wave of sadness but I shake my head.

"I'm a monster. How can you still love me after everything I've done?" I shake my head, stepping away from Loki as he tried to get closer to me.

"You are not a monster. You would never be a monster, just like you said I was never a villain. You never did this on purpose." Loki mumbles and I shake, trying to hold back my tears. "I love you (y/n). No matter what happens, I will always love you just as you have always loved me." I look at Loki and I knew he meant it as I felt his love for me. I stand in place, letting him slowly inch closer to me to hug me again and I sag in his warmth, missing it more than I realise.