Hopefully this will be the last chapter on this story. This is also a song fic all the oooooooos will be probably like transitions

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PoV: Grian

I woke up.

Cold sweat ran down my face like water falls.

I sat up and looked at my hands.

'It's just a dream'

I wipe off the sweat that was pouring down from my face when I realised I was crying. The tears were streaming uncontrollably down his face.

Often I am upset

I started using the breathing tactic that Joe recommended me; breath in for five, keep for seven, breath out for eight. Slowly but steadily the tears stared to go under control. I got up from my bed, dressed up and glanced at the clock; 8:30. I better start my day.

I have my breakfast, alone, start working on my project, alone.

that I cannot fall in love but I guess

My thoughts were driving me crazy; I hadn't seen anyone, and I mean anyone from this morning. I look up at the tab list and see everyone online.

"that's weird." I think allowed, "why didn't I see anyone yet?"

My thoughts trailed me off to a path about the hermits. Soon, it turned left, I went dow the path of fears of being alone.

This avoids the stress of falling out of it

I decided to declare a meeting for discussing the next plans for Boatem Inc. After roaming around for a bit, I found Mumbo and Iskall talking.

"Oh yeah, he is so annoying!" -Isakll

"I had to live with him for already the third season!" -Mumbo

"Mumbo? Iskall?" I said on the verge of tears. I pretended like I never heard the conversation. Mumbo gave Iskall a questioning look.

Are you, tired of me yet?

"Iskall, did you hear something?"

"No, why did you ask?"

"I could have sworn I heard the little brat." Mumbo looked around, his eyes never met Grian's though, "I'm surprised he has the audacity to even be in the server."

"You're right. If we new how much trouble he would be, we wouldn't have invited him."

I ran back to my base as fast as I could. Tears were streaming down my face. I burst through the door, and crash onto my bed. I opened up a drawer and pulled out an old photograph of Taurtis and me on EVO. I held it tight in my hands, not wanting to let go of the memories of his real family. Of people who could actually understand me, of my real friends.

I'm a little sick right now but I swear,

My finger tips brushed through Taurtis' face.

When I'm ready I will fly us out of here.

There was silents. The only sounds that could actually be heard was my quiet sobs. I heard a small voice in my head;

"Grian. GRIAN. Grian! GRIAN! WAKE UP!"

The voice got louder and ,eventually, my eyes went dark though the voice continued.

My eyes shot opened. I saw a moustached man shaking me. I saw the worry in his eyes and voice.

"Oh thank god Grian you-"

"But you don't care about me. Why would you even pretend?"

"Pardon me?"

"You said 'I hate living with that little brat'". Tears were rolling down my face, my breathing was uneven as well. It became harder and harder for me to breath.

"Grian, I would never say something like that! But now, copy my breathing." I did as he said. It was harder than the first time but eventually, I could breath as a normal person.

I'll cut my hair

My mind raced to the time when I had cut off my hair because of a dare that Taurtis gave me.

Too make you stare

He didn't expect me to do it and we laughed like dying hippos on a party. This put a huge smile on my face. I closed my eyes and tears roll down my face. I heard a sigh next to me and realise that Mumbo never left the room.

"Grian, can I ask you something?

"Yes......" I was starting to realise I don't have my binder on.

I'll hide my chest

Mumbo took a deep breath.

"Why did you run away yesterday and not show up for the next hours and when I come to check up on you were crying in your sleep?"

But I'll figure out a way to get us out of here

"It was...just a nightmare." I look away from Mumbo. I cover my chest with my blankets.

"Did I upset you yesterday?" He asked me after a while of sitting in silents.

"no, you just broke something." I say, "It was an accident and I know you would never do that on purpose." I added quickly as I realised I might have added even more guilt on his shoulders. He sighs again and says something I will never forget.

"So ummmmm, when were you going to tell us?"

"Tell you what?" I asked. My voice was trembling a little bit with fear.

"About you being well, a girl?" he said examining my sate. I was trembling with fear of what might happen next, "of you being a Watcher as well." He saw that I was starting to cry again as hugged me tight. I sobbed into his suit, subconsciously knowing that I was making it wet and dirty.

"Grian, if you ever thought that we would abandon you just because you are a girl or a Watcher, well then your are very wrong." He tried to calm me down, I was relived to hear that he doesn't hate me, "you are one of the best friends a person could ever wish and I think that everyone who doesn't know you are missing out on the finest things in life!" he proposed. I started to laugh and sob at the same time.

"Turn off your porcelain face" He sang to me.

"I can't really think right now in this place, theres to many colours, enough to drive all of us insane." I sang back. We stopped hugging each other.

"Are you dead?" I continued to sing. He looked up at me in confusion, "sometimes I think I'm dead. 'Cause I can feel ghosts and ghouls wrapping my head. But I don't wanna fall asleep just yet." I finish. I got out of bed. I noticed how he was trying not to look at my chest, this put a small smile at my face. I go to the bathroom and look in the mirror.

My eyes went dark

I was covered in complete darkness.

I don't know where

Six figures start to appear in front of me. I can't really pin point their faces though.

My pupils are but I'll figure out a way to get us out of here

One face came clear very quickly.

"Taurtis?" I asked. I could not believe that he is here.

"Hi Grian!" He stood by my side. Soon the other five shadows came clear.

Poultry man, me dressed in Tautris' cloths, me dressed in Ykis father's cloths, a Watcher me and.....

Someone who I didn't see in a long time.

A girl with sand-blond hair that reached up to shoulders. She wore a grey skirt and Had a red jumper.

Saphire.

I realised that they were all what I am, tho I could never really see me in these bodies.

I don't know who I am anymore.

Get a load of this monster.

My head shot up to the people in front of me.

He doesn't know how to communicate.

I realised that they were talking about me.

His mind is in a different place

"Will everybody please give him a little bit of space?" Taurtis stepped up for me. My eyes started to water. I never wanted to become any of these people but yet here I am.

Get a load of this train wreck.

The Watcher spoke while the others laughed; I continued to cry.

His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet

"But little do we know, the stars welcome him with open arms"

A different voice spoke. It was soft and the voice that I actually wanted to hear right now.

I came back to my senses. Mumbo was hugging me from the back, the only other person in the room was Taurtis.

"Time is slowly tracing his face." He sang.

"But strangely he feels at home in this place" I finish. He disappeared in thin air.

"Grian, are you alright?" Mumbo asked me, breaking the comfortable silents.

"yeah, I think I am."

"If you don't mind, can you please tell me your story."

"Ok." And we went into my bedroom. I had to change so Mumbo went out for a bit.

After 2 hours I told about myself more than I ever did in my entire life. Mumbo was very accepting of me and even told me he was proud that I made it through the story without crying. I don't know if that is an insult or a compliment.

Soon, by soon I mean later that day, I told everyone else my story. Like Mumbo, they were very accepting.

"Do you still want to be Grian?" iskall asked me.

"Yeah. I probably will be still Grian."

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