It feels like I'm drowning

In words

And in feelings

It's like someone is holding me

Underneath the surface

And I can't get out

Like it has me tied down

To the ground

And is whispering everything I've done

Making me remember

How much I hate myself

And what I do

And making me realise

Everything that is happening to me

Is all my fault

And there's nothing I can do about it

It felt like I was drowning

But now it feels like I'm already dead