When you are trying to write, read, do anything just quietly to yourself and someone needs you. Needs you to do something, see something...Sometimes just to read you something. It's fine. You do it and move on right? Well, what happens when the person constantly wants your help, by reading something or helping work on something and gets upset when you ask for silence to work on your thing? I don't mind helping her, in fact, I sorta got her into the writing she is doing now, so I feel like I need to encourage her to keep going. She is such an amazing writer. But sometimes, I just want her to SHUT UP FOR FIVE MINUTES AND JUST LET ME WRITE! I want to write MY stuff. I want to do MY thing for once. Just trust in yourself and I will read it through with you after I am done here. Please? I just want to cry I get so frustrated. 

So why, when she asks me if she is annoying me, do I say "No, not at all."? Why do I smile and say sure when she asks if she can read me her stuff? I am so tired and frustrated and just done that I could sleep for days. But She wakes me up and I get up, I help with her stuff while growing more aggravated that I can't do mine. 

I blame the living situation, but something tells me when I manage to move out with her and we each get our own rooms, that she will call me in from the next room, that she will get upset and say never mind when I ask her to come to me instead. That nothing will change from where we are now. I just. I love her to death, but I am scared I will leave her, or that she will leave me. I don't think we are as compatible as we think we are and it scares me.