- Time Skip -

After dinner without Lance and Keith, because Lance wouldn't leave Keith's side, I sat on my bed and finished reading the book Pidge borrowed me. Before turning the page I got ripped out of my thoughts from a knock on my door.

"Yes?", I asked curious.

The door opened and Keith entered. I put away my book and sat up. "Keith? Shouldn't you be in a healing pod for one more night?", I asked. He looked tired and not as happy as I remembered him a few hours ago. His cheeks looked like they were strained with tears. Did he cry?

"Where.. where is Lance?", I asked carefully. As soon as I said the cuban boy's name he sobbed and fell on my bed. "Keith, what happened?", I asked and pulled him into a hug. He sobbed against my shoulder and I stroked his head. "Please explain.", I softly whispered.

He took a deep breath and looked into my eyes. "I am in love with him.", he practically yelled into my face. I snorted a bit. "That's not funny. Why are you laughing?", He snapped. "I already knew that. Practically everyone knew that except for you two."

His face went pale and his eyes widenes. He looked adorable. "But that's not the problem..", he mumbled. I never saw Keith this hurt.. this sensitive.

"What is it then.", I asked.

Silence.

"Keith come on. If you don't talk to me, we can't solve the problem.", I told him. Still he wouldn't talk. His cheeks were red as apples and you could clearly see his emberassment in his face. This must be serious. I tried reaching out to him again, "Keith, if you don't tell me right now I am going to-

"I kissed him."

Whoa.

wHAT. oH MY GAD!

"Are you kidding me? Is this a joke? Don't play with me Kogane!", I warned him. He smiled a bit. "I am not. I am deadly serious. I kissed him.", He assured me. "And then? Did he kiss you back?", I asked carefully. I am expecting a bad answer, because why would Keith be so upset then? He swallowed, that means no. "Oh no Keith.. I am so sorry.", I began and wanted to hug him.

"He kissed me back.", Keith cut me off. "Wait. I am confused. That's good, or isn't it?", I asked perplexed. "That's when the bad part starts.", Keith smiled bitterly.

"He kissed me back and it was so .. amazing. I've never felt this love before. I mean yeah, I loved you Y/N, but I never thought that love for a person could feel this different. My love for you always felt like a best friend romance. But with him.. It's.. I don't know. I think I really, really love him.

And as I kissed him and he kissed me back I felt.. complete. Everything was alright for a few seconds...

- Flashback -

Keith P.o.V.:

Lance held me in his arms and told me something about his family back on earth. He doesn't know that I don't have a family. But it's okay, because seeing him this happy, talking about his mother and his many nephews and nieces. It warms my heart. He stroked my hair while he talked about the cuban beaches he used to visit every summer to see his grandparents. He told me the story of the first time he went surfing with his older brothers. His ocean-blue eyes shined pure happines through his brown, long eyelashes. With a sincere smile I listened to his stories and imagined a younger Lance, running over a beach with a big smile on his face.

The moment was perfect. And I didn't care that I could destroy everything. He must feel something for me? He wouldn't hold me, caress me, stroke my hair and tell me personal things about himself if I was just a friend... right?

"- and then Marco pushed me and I fell from my board. At first I thought I was drowning but then-"

I leaned towards him and pressed my lips onto his. They were a bit wet and tasted like vanilla. Probably his chapstick? At first he didn't kiss back. Quiznak! Oh.. Keith you're so stupid. Should I pull back??

That's when I felt his lips moving against mine. We found a perfect speed and synced as a perfect motion. To be honest, it was a bit sloppy but for my first kiss with Lance it's perfect. His hand on my waist made it's way to my cheek and lightly stroked it. Shivers ran down my spine and my body drowned in happines and warmth. I felt the connection between uns. How do his touches have this effect on me?

And suddenly he pulled back.

"Did- did I do something wrong?", I hesitantly asked and sat up. He wouldn't dare looking into my eyes. He sighed and rubbed the back of his neck. "No.. It was.. fine. It's just..."

He stood up. My heart broke. Why would he destroy moment like this. He enjoyed it as much as me, I could tell. I grabbed his hand and a, "Lance... wait!", escaped my lips. He froze in his movement as I grabbed his wrist to stop him from leaving. "Keith..."

"NO! Why are you going now? Didn't this mean anything to you?", I explained my feelings.

"Keith.. please.", He still wouldn't dare looking at me. That made me angry. Was I just a game? An easy, silly game? My sadness turned into anger.

"YOU KISSED ME BACK!? AND NOW YOU'RE LEAVING? THAT IS THE WORST THING YOU COULD DO! I ALWAYS THOUGHT YOU WERE AN ASSHOLE BUT I DIDN'T THINK YOU COULD TOP THAT...", My voice got louder. I didn't scream.. yet.

"Please, let me explain. You don't understand. I-", And still, Lance didn't turn around to look at me. I felt my anger rise and I stood up but I still held his wrist in my hand.

"OF COURSE I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU! WHY ARE YOU SO SELFISH? COME ON, LANCE! TELL ME WHAT ARE YOU HIDING! TURN AROUND AND FACE ME! LOOK INTO MY EYES AND TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK YOUR PROBLEM IS! I REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT PROBLEMS LANCE MCCLAIN HAS TO HANDLE!?", I yelled at him and it was something I really, really regret.

I noticed that I had crossed the line. His muscles were tensed and he trembled roughly. I wanted to apologize as long as it's still possible. I am hurt and my feelings took control over my mouth.

"Lance...", I broke the silence but he cut me off. 

"YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT MY PROBLEM IS, KOGANE? 

I'M NOT GAY!

I DON'T LIKE GUYS, ESPECIALLY NOT YOU! NOW GET OFF OF ME AND NEVER TALK TO ME AGAIN! WE ARE PALADINS AND BECAUSE OF THAT, FORCED TO WORK AS A TEAM. BUT WE HAVEN'T BEEN FRIENDS AND WE NEVER WILL BE FRIENDS! AND NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!", Lance snapped. 

He wrested his armsout of my grip and stormed off. And me?

- Flashback End - 

Y/n P.o.V.:

"I fell on my knees.. and cried. I feel so.. broken? I destroyed everything just because I can't controll my stupid emotions.", Keith sobbed infront of me. He ended his story about what had happened between him and Lance. I feel so sorry for him. "I am truly sorry, Keith.. I.. But I don't think Lance ment anything he said. I'll talk to him, if you want to..", I offered and hugged him. 

I heard a quiet 'Thank you' and felt a wave of tears against my shoulder.