You never were the type to be caught between two options. It was either right or left, it was either the vanilla or the strawberry ice cream, yellow or blue. You truly never had one single problem with choosing.

Not until you found yourself in the "clichest" situation possible. Caught between two guys, completely different, and as if the universe wasn't already too unfair to you, they were twins.

You couldn't be any more of a mess, it was your senior year, things have never been so stressful, and they had came just in the perfect time, and by that I mean, the perfect time to help you destroying your life. I'm making an exacerbated description at this point, but that was how you felt anyways.

The final choice could've been obvious to many, even if they had their adversities between themselves at that topic, but to you, it was simply impossible.

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"H-hey, (Y/N)," Will weakly said, silently showing up from behind, while you opened your locker, and smiled to yourself.

"What's up, Will?" You answered grinning.

"N-not much, a-actually... Uh, a-are you still u-up to l-lunch?" He awkwardly asked. You nodded.

"Sure! I'll meet you after History class, ok?"

"Y-yeah"

"Great! See you there," you have convinced yourself it wasn't exactly a date. Mostly because, not mattering how much you could, truly, love that Will Cipher boy, being on a date with him would be awfully awkward. Yeah, it wasn't a date. Just two, really close, friends hanging out during lunch time, with no one else with them.

You headed to History class, which honestly wasn't so bad, you loved the Professor, he was the nicest adult you've ever came across in your life. You took your usual seat. Right behind you was one of your other friends, (she/he) wasn't exactly a person you'd normally become friends with, but after realizing you had all classes together, you two came to accept the fact that there was no way to not have a friendship growing there.

(She/He) knew pretty much everything, or at least almost everything, about you. Including what (she/he) liked to call, "The Cipher Problem", you always found that a quite dumb name, but didn't bother enough to tell (her/him) that.

"Soooo, I heard you have a date with Will today?" (She/He) said, leaning into your direction during class, and immediately making you stop taking your notes, to pay attention to your conversation. Which was, by far, more interesting than studying the World War One.

"It's not a date, come on. It's just us hanging out together, like friends"

"Alone. Out of school. Far from his brother~"

"Oh, shut up! You make me sound like a terrible person for hanging out with only him. He asked me if it could be only the two of us, it's not a date"

"Whatever helps you sleep at night, dude," your friend said laughing a little. It wasn't exactly a laugh, it was truly the sound of one hundred goats getting hit by a truck at the same time. Yes, it wasn't nice to the ears, but you found it somehow funny.

"Don't you have other things to worry about?" You asked, pretending to be annoyed by the attention, and crossing arms.

"I lost control over my own life, so I'm taking care of yours"

"You're a terrible person, why am I even your friend?" You laughed.

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"(Y/N)!" A different voice called you when you got out of History Class. It wasn't Will's, that's for sure. It wasn't as quiet, and calming, though it reminded you of him somehow. Oh, yes, sure, you were surprised you didn't recognize it quicker, no one else would run around the halls of school screaming, not giving a single shit about the other people there.

"Hey there, Bill!" You yelled back, turning around. That was when you realized it could only mean shit.

"What are you up to?"

"Oh, not much"

"Free to lunch?" He asked smirking.

"Uh... Not today, I... Yeah, maybe tomorrow? What do you tell me?"

"Oh," he made a pause, suspiciously looking into your eyes, and seeming to understand everything quickly. "Sure," he sounded way more annoyed than ever, and dared to walk away without even saying goodbye properly. You sighed, hoping things wouldn't get bad.

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That lunch was one of the best moments in your life. But it didn't help you at all, in fact, it made everything quite worse.

You loved Will. He had the most calming voice, eyes, hands, pretty much everything about him was calming, and relaxing. You could finally feel away from all the issues of the universe when you're with him, as if everything vanished, and it was just you and him, living a nice life. As if the world was a perfect place, where everyone was equal, and no one had to worry about anything.

Being with Will was like a shining day after a terrible storm. The bad things were slowly being left behind, until everything was a shiny blue sky. When everyone could sit down and enjoy their lives, with no one else on their way.

Will Cipher had the power to suddenly make everything feel better. Maybe it was the way he laughed of your stupid jokes, or the way he had the cutest smile to be seen, or his eyes. It could be a lot of things, and you didn't bother discovering what it was. You liked the butterflies, the certainty and the relaxing feeling he gave you.

Will was like a lullaby. Calming, the nicest melody that anyone could possibly hear, it could cure any anxiety, or panic attack. He was your safe place. Like a song with the greatest singer, singing along the sweest violin, while you drank a hot drink, on a winter day, the fireplace on, and everything was quiet, finally in peace.

It was, surely, a calming, sweet kind of love. You loved everything about it. Your idea of Heaven was something alike to what being near him was. No problems, no lies, nothing bad could ever reach you.

And then there was Bill. Holy Jesus, how you loved Bill. There was some sense of insanity in him, and you knew you couldn't care less about it, in fact, you loved it. You loved how he could not care, but yet, care too much.

He was that one book you know you shouldn't read, because you know it will probably fuck your mind up, but still, you ignore it and go for it. Like riding a roller-coaster. Falling in love with Bill was discovering feelings you didn't even know existed inside you. You've probably found out more things about yourself while falling in love with him, than you had ever did.

Being with him was far from giving you any relaxing feeling, when you're at his side, you feel like you can change the world. Sure, the world's not perfect, but side by side to him, you two can. You two can make the world a better place. And you love that feeling so much. Maybe you weren't made to have the perfect nice life, maybe you were made to fight for the perfect life, maybe you were made to live in that roller-coaster.

Bill was the feeling of starting a revolution. It was scary, but still, you wanted to jump right in. It was like listening to the best drummer in the universe. It was loud, it was hard to understand sometimes, but still, you loved the beat.

He seemed to be the only person in the world able to pull that smirk. Holy hell, you had no idea of how you felt about that smirk. He was the only person in the universe that could make you feel like you were everything, like you were able to do every single thing possible, that you were going to be someone, not mattering what you chose to do of your life.

Although every time you were near to think he was the one, because he was the only one capable of making you feel so incredible, you'd realize how much you would miss Will's calming voice, and how much you'd, sometimes, miss the perfect quiet life you could have at his side.

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I love writing about feelings, anyways, just go to the next chapter, people, it's going to be the second part. (It's just actually: If you chose Will and If you chose Bill)