Yippee, my favorite Gravity Falls oc!
She's gonna suffer!

Okay, quick warning before anyone reads this:

This will get into some very internal, dark, and uncomfortable depths of this character
It will discuss topics some might be uncomfortable to some such as-
Self-harm
Child abuse
Racism
Ableism
Homophobia
Aphobia
Gender identity/dysphoria
Wars
Suicide
Child murder
Existentialism
Mental illness
Death fantasies
Religious trauma
And the like
This character is meant to be complex and conflicting in many ways and it is okay if you don't agree with all of her behaviors.
This analysis is meant to give insight into the deep and downright scary and dark parts of this character.
That is the point. She is meant to be complex.
However, if I do take constructive criticism as long as it is polite

"There's so much to do.
I'll never have the wherewithal
to do it all again."
- This is Ida's viewpoint, looking back on her life and saying that, if she could do it again, she wouldn't have the strength to.

"Or fucking do it all at all."
- A nod to how, even as a ghost, she still finds going through daily life as too much.

"I love you so much.
I don't wanna go but,
everybody knows this place is dying, as am I."
- This would be what Ida was thinking in her final moments, watching Bill panic and not knowing what to do.
- She finds the world hopeless and horrible, so it "is dying as [is she]."

"I might not get another chance.
It's such a careful dance, and"
- Her talking about how she views life, calling it a "careful dance." Methodical, cautious, and easy to mess up.
- Dancing was a hobby of her friends, Tammy Reen and Amy Christopher, so she's relating life itself back to her friends.

"I am such a fuck-up, if you only knew
that I am such a fuck-up."
- That would be her talking to the few people that care about her.
- She doesn't believe she is worthy of love, so she tries manipulating people into staying with her, as she's convinced she doesn't deserve love and doesn't want people to know.

"I've got one-hundred hours to rearrange the stars,"
- This relates to her inferiority complex.
- The reality of the 70s being that someone like her had to overachieve and over-accomplish just to be treated respectfully. Yet, she never was.
- So, to her, it's like she was told this impossible task- to "rearrange the stars."

"and I'm the worst mistake that God has ever made."
- She's a Christian (one of the sane ones, don't worry lol).
- From how her mother treated her, she believed that she was a mistake. That even her great, perfect creator made a mistake creating her.

"You integrate so fucking well."
- She's talking about Tammy and her own brother Ethan here.
- Despite all of them being biracial, Tammy and Ethan were treated much better because they had light skin.
- Meanwhile, people like Ida and Tammy's twin brother, Coby, were left in the dust.
- Ida is confused how Tammy and Ethan were so easily accepted.

"But I make lemons out of lemonade."
- Again, a reference to her overachieving performance, just trying to make do with what the world has given her, but it still ends up being sour and bitter.

"Blood clots and death cramps,
injections and leakages."
- Blood clots/Death cramps: Despite being assigned female at birth, she's intersex and does not have all female organs. She wishes that she can be more feminine, despite any pain that would some with it. She is AFAB transfem.
- Injections: She died before the measles vaccine, so she suffered from measles when she was young- which caused her to be very paranoid about health in general.
- Leakages: "Leaking," like tears or emotions spilling out in a time where mental health was not cared about.

"The election cycle and the tide."
- Election cycle: She grew up while the Vietnam War was still televised, which she watched when Donna wasn't around, being only seven when it ended. She grew a distaste for politics, which only furthered her morally gray hippie views.
- The tide: A symbol of routine change in life, something she's not used to- her life has always been chaotic and confusing.

"Aztec circles of the death of all deaths."
- Aztecs were highly villainized when she grew up, specifically in her education and upbringing. However, she herself has Mexican heritage and her father studied the Aztec Empire.
- Ida learned as much as she could about them and was fascinated by their so-called "love of death."

"But the beast refuses to die."
- When she researched the Aztecs, she had a fantasy of being a sacrifice to the Christian God.
- She thought she was a burden on His people and He'd be happy if she went back to Him.
- She saw herself as a monster. A beast.
- On top of that, even after she tried to kill herself, she still "refused to die."

"In your guts you know it's all destroyed."
- She knew what happened to the Dream Dimension.
- She knew that Bill did something terrible.
- She knew he could destroy her world if he so desired.
- But he didn't, all for her.
- He didn't destroy, at least for a while, because he cared about her.

"You could've had a boy.
If you had children now, you think
you might just put them down."
- She's talking to Donna.
- Almost spitefully taunting her for thinking she could've had another son. Out of pure anger at her mother.
- She got a daughter she hated instead.
- But she's still aware that Donna would've rather had her dead.
- That her own mother didn't care when she died.

"None of us belong.
Everything I do is wrong."
- Again, her inferiority complex.
- But now, she's taking it out on others, claiming that nobody belongs in such a crazy, hateful world.

"And soon there will be nobody left around."
- Existentialism.
- She's just prepared for the world to end.
- For all of this to be pointless.

"And in your blood, you know what's right.
And it your bones, you know what's wrong."
- She was raised in a strict Protestant household, where she was given rules instead of faith- which she later sought out herself.
- She knew in the superficial sense - her bones - that being friend with people like Bill (a demon), Jenny (an Asian hippie), Amy and Tammy (gay dancers), and Coby (a clearly biracial boy) was "wrong," at least in Donna's eyes.
- But she knew deep down in her heart (which pumps blood), she knew that they were still her friends.

"And in your throat, you know you're lying to kids."
- When she talks to the Pines twins, she's trying to convince them that what Bill did was justified because of the curse, despite him not doing much to stop the curse controlling him.

"And you know nobody belongs in this Hell."
- Ida was the one that came up with Weirdmaggedon.
- She decided that the world needed to unleash its chaos, being stuck in such a constrictive world.
- She decided that humanity wasn't worthy of control.
- But she was still aware there are innocent people that want good.

"And there is not a single choice left to make."
- She feels that Weirdmaggedon was the only control in life she had.
- To her, it was the only decision she was allowed to make- to encourage Bill or tell him to not.
- To her, allowing the world to fall was her choice and the only choice she'd ever be able to enforce.

"I am God's worse mistake."
- This is her guilt. Her spiraling.
- Her feeling of unworthiness for love, even love of her God.

"And you seem happy on the knife's edge,
but I just lick the blade."
- She was aware of Jenny's self-harm, but didn't know what to do, seeing Jenny as "happy" when she cut.
- But Jenny was on the "knife's edge," the sharpest part and where it would hurt her the most.
- Ida also dabbled in self-harm, but she was never able to go as far as Jenny, only "licking the blade."

"I've got one-hundred hours to rearrange the stars."
- Again, her feeling of impossibility.
- However, in this part, there is a closeness she wants to have to the stars. To Heaven. To God.

"And I'm the worst mistake your God has ever made."
- Now, she's calling out the hateful, unloving version of God that Donna put in her mind.
- She's recognizing how Donna twisted beliefs to suit an narrative to hate Ida.

"You seem to integrate so fucking well.
But I make lemons out of lemonade."
- Now, she's talking to Donna.
- Donna seems to "integrate" with her religion so well because she's made up what "God" thinks of Ida.
- Now, Ida is just making due with what there actually is in her faith.

"Blood clots and death cramps."
- Blood clots: Now, a reference to the way she died. Being stabbed. Her corpse's blood clotting.
- Death cramps: Now, a reference to when she was dying. Being stabbed in the stomach and that pain.

"Gluts and depressions.
The business cycle and the tide."
- Gluts: Her longing for comfort foods because of her stressful situations and autism, specifically carrot cake. Because of this constant want, some saw he as gluttonous.
- Depressions - Her depression spells that were never treated.
- The business cycle: The adult world she never got to see.
- The tide: Now a reference to her fear of deep water. The constant rise and and lowering of it, ever threatening and haunting.

"Concentric circles of torture wheels.
But the beast refuses to die."
- Her life with its ups and downs felt like it was going through cycles of torture.
Still, even after she was killed, her spirit refuses to die.
- She refuses to go to the afterlife- to judgement because she's scared. Because she still views herself as a monster.

"Atomistic ration behavior.
Invisible hand savior."
- These represent things that she feels she doesn't have.
- "Atomistic" or simple and "rational" behavior: She's autistic, and was often viewed as abnormal and strange, and she wishes her mind was simpler.
- Invisible hand savior: Having God's love.

"Fucking up your definitions even though it's life or death."
- She sees people messing up the real meanings of so many things about her.
- Autism: "She's an r-slur, a screw-up, and monster."
- Aroace: "She's a d-slur, unloving, emotionless."
- Biracial: "She's so unusual."
- Heterochromia: "She's a mishap."
- But even though people might find it easy or even fun to mess up these definitions just to hurt her, it could fucking kill her.

"Who fucking told you you were selfish?
Or even self-interested?"
- This would be Bill talking to Ida.
- He sees her for what she truly is.
- She's told she's selfish, yet she'd die for anyone who wanted her to.
- She doesn't even love herself, and it makes him wonder who would think she's even remotely concerned about hurting herself.
- Yet, like she sees him, he sees her through rose-colored lenses.
- She still can be selfish and spiteful, but he knows how ruined and broken she actually is and that her behavior isn't just that of a spoiled brat.

"Don't you think it matters when we wish our friends the best?"
- This is also Bill talking to Ida.
- Because of the idea of relentless politeness to even those she doesn't like Ida was raised in, she will wish mostly everyone "the best" even if she doesn't mean it.
- Ida wishes Tammy "the best" despite her jealous, out of courtesy and unsure if she even means it when she says that.
- So, Bill is questioning Ida if she truly understands that even she is unaware if she wants the best for Tammy, and is she understand about valuable the people who care about her are.

"And fuck, I'm not a Marxist.
I'm not a fucking Democrat."
- Back to what Ida's saying.
- She doesn't care for politics.
- She stopped viewing them positively during the Vietnam War and its aftermath, especially with her stepmother Lily and her half-siblings being Vietnamese.
- She was so young and lost her trust of authority so quickly.

"Because of all this bullshit, I'm not anything at all."
- She's literally dead, a ghost.
- She's nothing to the world.
- Time has forgotten her.

"All I wanted was a framework.
None of them can live here."
- She was just a child that wanted a happy life, a "framework."
- That second line is how she left the earth, what she thought of Gravity Falls.
- It was so cruel that no one could live there because of how horrible it was.

"There's nothing to believe in and there won't be until we fall."
- Her disbelief in the world and the good of humanity- that it will be its own downfall.
- In a way, in the AU, it could have been.

"And it's not all you, man."
- This is people trying to comfort her, trying to assure her that her situation wasn't her fault.

"You were just a kid once."
- Again, someone trying to comfort her.
- But it can never be done just right.
- They say she was a kid "once."
- Because she died in the early 80s, people expect her to have matured during the years she was dead.
- However, it seems she's only become more and more childish.

"God, I'm such a fuck-up.
If you only knew that I am such a fuck-up."
- She knows that people will never fully understand the extent of her trauma.

"I've got one-hundred hours to rearrange the stars.
And I'm the worst mistake your God has ever make."
- She's reaching for any sort of control.
- A chaotic beauty.
- Beauty because of the stars, and chaos because of how she'll rearrange them.
- Donna would find these urges sinful and wrong, but that just separates her and her beliefs from Ida's.

"I can't get the numbers right.
I can't fucking count because not one Goddamned thing is in its place."
- Typically, autistic people need things and their environment around them in a certain was, or it feels so terrifying and out-of-control that it causes them to meltdown.
- During meltdowns, many of their sense and impulses become very difficult to control and the panic is too much to handle.
- During these lines, it's resembling her meltdowns.

"Blood clots and death camps.
Gluts and depressions.
The business cycle and the tide."
- It's a loss of control and a realization of the horrors around her.
- The death cramps turning into death camps highlights the sheer disgust she feels from humanity's actions or "camps," realizing it as the source of her pain or "cramps."
- Last two lines mean the same as they did last time.

"You fuckers know it's all built on lies!"
- This highlights her frustration with people's ignorance.
- She puts on the false display of "justice" in her actions.
- And she's angry that others around her don't realize that this is made up of lies and manipulation to protect herself.

"But the beast refuses to die.
And so I guess, well, neither can I."
- This switches up the first line and how it's been used.
- At first, the beast was Ida- how she viewed herself.
- How she won't move one, despite being dead.
- Now, the beast is her trauma.
- Her trauma won't die, so she can't move on.