*Still Ashton's POV*

I walked towards a crying Maddie. I sat down next to her and asked, "babe, what's wrong?" I started to grab her hand from her face and hold it, but she took it away from me and turned away from me. I was shocked. I walked to the other side of the bed, and she turned again. I grabbed ahold of her waist and she tried to wiggle out of my grasp, but I turned her towards me and asked, "babe, why are you avoiding me? Are you mad at me?" She shook her head no, and I crouched down next to the bed. "So why are you crying and avoiding me?" I whispered.

"I-I, I'm," she was stuttering, "th-the the, um"

"What Madds?"

"The-the baby" she cried and held her stomach. My heart stopped. The baby, no, not the baby, please!

"No, Madds, not the baby," I didn't want to hear her say it.

"Ashton, we lost the baby," she cried more and more, so I pulled her head into my chest. I cried onto her head. This can't be happening.

*Maddison's POV*

I started crying like crazy, so Ashton pulled my head into his chest. After a minute, I felt tears on my head. Ashton was crying too. I pulled my head out of his chest, looked at him, then i put my head back in. He rested his chin on the top of my head. I felt his head move from off of my head, so I looked up at him. He pushed my head back into his chest, but I turned around and again, Ashton pulled my head into his chest.

*Luke's POV*

The nurse told us that we were allowed to see Maddie now, so Calum, Michael, Talia, and I headed back. We got to her room. Calum, Talia, and Michael stayed outside while and I went in and saw Maddie crying into Ashton's chest with Ashton crying onto the top of Maddie's head. This wasn't normal. Something was wrong because I never see Ashton cry. I walked towards him and he mouthed something. I tilted my head telling him I didn't understand. He mouthed it again. "The baby" he had mouthed. Maddie put her head up, but Ashton pushed it back in. I understood and started walking out, but Ashton gestured me to come back in. I walked in and sat beside them. Ashton turned Maddie around, then she saw me and threw herself onto me then continued crying. Ashton walked out of the room and Maddie looked up for a second, then put her head back on my shoulder.

*Ashton's POV*

I turned Maddie around so she saw Luke. When she did, she hugged him and I was able to go out to the other boys and Talia and tell them. I knew they were there since I saw them peek in. I wiped a tear away, and walked out the door to see Michael, Calum, and Talia waiting in the hallway by the door. Michael must've noticed my eyes were puffy, because he asked, "lad, were you crying?"

"Yeah, I was" I said.

"Is it Maddie?" Talia asked.

"Kind of.." I hesitated telling them, "it's the.. the baby" I almost started crying there.

"Oh my god, Ash, I'm so sorry" Talia apologized while Michael and Calum stood there, shocked.

"It's not your fault, Talia." I said, and she replied with an "okay" before walking into Maddie's room.

*Talia's POV*

Maddie and Ashton lost their baby. This must've killed Maddie to hear. I finished talking to Ashton then walked into her room. She was crying over Luke's shoulder, and she still had the IV in her, making it harder to hug him. She looked up, hearing me coming, and looked at me, then opened her arms towards me. Luke backed out of the room while we were hugging, and I whispered to Maddie, "I'm so sorry" "it's okay, Tals. I'm okay.." She was crying.

*Maddison's POV*

(Warning: Self-Harm. If you don't want to read, you don't have to)

The day after I learned about the baby, the hospital sent me back on tour with the boys. I was on the tourbus with them, and it was a little past midnight. I got out of my bunk and walked to the washroom with my 'beauty products' bag. I stood in the tiny washroom, closed the door, and sat on the toilet with my bag on my lap. I got out my razor that I hadn't touched for over a year and a half. That's how long I had been clean. I couldn't handle thinking I wasn't pregnant anymore, so I put the tip of the razor on the left side of my left hand. I pulled the razor toward me, slowly, and a little blood trickled down my arm. It hurt worse than I remembered. I put the razor on the right side of my right hand, and again, I pulled back towards me, and when I was halfway through, there was a knock on the door, causing me to drop the razor. Ting, ting, ting. The razor hit the floor.

Ashton heard, because he asked in his sleepy voice, "what was that, babe? Something hitting the floor.. Are you okay?"

He started to open the door as I picked the razor back up. He saw it. He saw me with the razor in my hand, but I closed the door on him. He was pushing the door with all his might, but I was pushing back. Finally, he won, and he came in and looked at me. He just stared at me. He was mad at me. I still had the razor in my hand, and tears were brimming my eyes. I sat the razor down, and hugged Ashton. I just hugged him.

"Babe, it's okay. We'll get through this, alright?" He knew that this was about the baby. I was crying even harder now. I removed my body from his, and held out my wrists.

"Madds, we need to clean that up," he said to me, and I responded, "so you aren't mad at me?"

"Of course I'm mad, Madds, but I know why you would want to, so I'm not as mad.." He started as we were washing my wrists off, and I thought he was finished, but he mumbled something. I heard, "if I had my razor here I would've cut too.."

"What, Ashton?" I asked and he responded, "I used to cut, okay! I said that if I had my razor here, I probably would've too, but since I'm almost two years clean, I didn't bring it"

"Why did you cut?"

"I, um, I was bullied at school for.." He stopped.

"For what?"

"For liking you.." He said quietly.

"Really?" I asked, then quietly admitted, "same here.."

"Really?" I nodded my head.

"We were both bullied for liking each other, and now we're dating. Take that, mean jerks" Ashton laughed at my comment.

We put hydrogen peroxide on my wrists which made them burn. It took all the germs out of my cut anyway. We finished cleaning my hands up, and then went back to Ashton's bunk and fell asleep, cuddling.

(Self Harm Over)

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The next afternoon, we were at the arena once more, and I was sitting in the dressing room right next to Ashton. He was sitting at the end of the couch, and I was sitting right beside him with my head resting on his shoulder. His arm was wrapped around me, and we were sitting there, talking to the Calum and Talia. Michael and Luke were off FaceTiming Saige and Katie. I jolted up from being on Ashton's shoulder to sitting straight up.

"What's wrong, babe?" He asked, but I had the urge to puke, so all I did was run to the washroom, Ashton following me.

Like the last time I puked, Ashton was right behind me and pulled my hair out of my face. Calum and Talia came to the washroom and saw me puking into the toilet. Talia looked concerned and crouched down beside me.

"Are you okay?" Talia asked.

I just kept puking. Hopefully that answered her question. I sat down, hoping I was done, and Ashton looked at me, worried. It was quiet for a minute, then Ashton broke the silence by asking me, "I wonder what that was about?" But it wasn't 'that' because I continued puking. He started to rub my back once again, and Calum and Talia then left after giving me a hug. Ashton turned to me and asked, "babe, what did the doctor say when he told you about the baby?"

"He said that he couldn't see anything" I told him.

"Do you think they might've made a mistake?"

"Are you saying you think I'm still pregnant?"

"Mhm"

"You want to go see?"

"After the show, okay?"

"Okay"

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Ashton finished, and ran off stage, running to me, and picked me up bridal style. He kissed my cheek, and put me down. He turned around, allowing my to jump onto his back. He grabbed ahold of my thighs, and we ran out, running to the car. I stayed on his back the whole time, and Ashton opened the passenger side of the car and turned around, letting me climb off of his back, and into the car. Ashton then walked around the front, got into the car, then said, "let's go see if you're still pregnant!!"

It was like dating a five year old, dating Ashton. He would give me piggyback rides, and he would say, "let's go see if you're still pregnant!" like it was an adventure.

The whole way to the doctors, Ashton was humming something. I liked seeing him this happy. We didn't know if I was still pregnant yet, but he was happy there might've been a chance that I was. We walked in the doctor's office, and one of the nurses took me back into a room, then had me lay down on the table. She asked me to pull my shirt up, revealing my small bump that hadn't gone away, another reason I was suspicious. She put the cold gel on my stomach, then looked at the screen.

"Hmm.. You're still pregnant, congrats! Hear that? That's the heartbeat" She said, looking at the screen then at Ashton and I. I liked hearing the baby's heartbeat.

*Ashton's POV*

I smiled, listening to my baby's heartbeat. Then I said, "So, the doctors made a mistake?"

"No, they did not. You were pregnant with twins, then miscarried one. I don't know how the doctor didn't see this baby. Didn't you know you were pregnant with twins?" She told us, then we shook our heads no.

Maddie started crying, and I wondered why. I held her hand, then asked, "babe, what's the matter?"

"I'm just so happy, Ash.." She was crying happy tears not sad tears.

I was holding her hand with one hand, then when the nurse cleaned off Maddie's stomach, I put my other hand there. We were way happier. This was way better for us. Not just me and Madds, but me, Madds, and Baby Irwin.

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That evening, Maddie and I were laying in my bunk on our sides, facing each other. Maddie was playing with my fingers like usual. She liked to play with my fingers. I was looking at her while she was playing my fingers, and it looked like she was really concentrating. I just laughed. She looked up at me and said, "what?"

"You look like you're really concentrating on playing with my fingers, there" I told her.

"Yeah, I am.." She was sarcastic.

"What should we name the baby?" I asked, and Maddie looked shocked

"Ashton, I'm only almost eight weeks"

"I know, but I want to think of a name"

"How about, first, we think of 5 girls' names, then see if we have any in common, then we'll do boys' names"

"Okay. Sounds good"

I thought, and came up with 5 names. I asked if Maddie was ready, and she went first.

"I thought: Chloe, Lily, Brooklynn, Charlotte, or Kaylee. I like those names"

"I had Ella, Brooklynn, Emma, Mia, and Sophie"

"Brooklyn"

"Yep. What about a middle name?"

"I don't know"

"How about your middle name? Brooklynn Paige Irwin? Sounds cute"

"Yeah it does. Now what about a boy?"

"Hmm.. Noah, Owen, Carter, Andrew, and Colby" I didn't have to think much.

"That was fast.. Um.. Connor, Colby, Dylan, Alex, and Jackson" she thought a little longer than me.

"Colby"

"Yeah" she agreed

"I like that name"

"Same here. Now a middle name," she paused, "how about yours? Colby Fletcher Irwin? Cute!"

"Madds, I hate that middle name, I don't want to give it to my kid"

"Ashton, it sounds cute. We're going with it" well okay, then. I thought it was my child too.

Brooklynn or Colby Irwin. Both cute names. These were names for my child that I, what sounds weird, created.

"Ashton, where are we going to live? I don't want to live with either of our mums because just, it would either be Anne Marie, Lauren, Harry, you, the baby, and I or my mum, Danielle, sometimes Logan, you, the baby, and I. That'll be a house full" Maddie explained to me.

"Don't worry about it, babe. I'll buy us a huge house that only we will live in. Not our mums, not our siblings, no one but us and our baby" I promised her.

"That would be amazing, Ashton"

"Oh, it will be, babe" I smiled.

Maddie was now laying on her back with me still on my side. She was on her phone, and my arm was over her stomach. Suddenly, her eyes got real wide, and she dropped her phone onto her chest. She started crying a little. I looked at her and said, "what, babe?"

She said nothing, just gave me her phone and up was Twitter. Everyone was saying, "omg Maddie is pregnant!" "Maddie is really pregnant!!" "Omg! I just heard that Maddie, Ashton's girlfriend is pregnant!". The hashtag #madshtonispregnant was trending. This was terrible. They knew. Everyone knew. All of the fans. The whole world. This isn't happening. How did they know, though? I didn't want to tell anyone for a little while, especially the fans. I handed her phone back to her and put my arm around her. I pulled her closer to me, kissing her forehead on the way.

"Babe, it's okay. They aren't hating on us. That's good" I told her.

She shoved the phone back in my face and said, "scroll down"

I scrolled down a little then saw, "#madshtonispregnant what the fuck is this?" "#madshtonispregnant really ash? Wow.." "Oh my god... #madshtonispregnant um, what kinda shit is going on?" "#madashtonispregnant wow, Ashton, you could do way better..". I pulled Maddie in closer, then put my hand on her stomach. "Babe, we aren't gonna let these rude fans saying stupid things to us just because they are jealous, get between us, and especially between us and the baby, will we?" I asked her.

A tear ran down her face, and I wiped it away with my thumb. I left my hand on her cheek. She grabbed my hand after a while, and started playing with my fingers.

*Maddison's POV*

"Babe, we aren't gonna let these rude fans saying stupid things to us just because they are jealous get between us, and especially between us and the baby, will we?" He asked me. I then realized that the fans hating on us just made our relationship stronger, yet I was still crying. Ashton wiped my tears away with his thumb, and left his hand on my face. I grabbed his hand and started playing with his fingers. I let go of his fingers, and his hand traveled down to my stomach. He rubbed my stomach, then kissed my stomach. He smiled at me and I grinned back. I kissed him just to wipe the smile off his face.

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Hello!!! Hope you liked it! Did you expect her to still be pregnant? Do you like the names Brooklynn and Colby? Remember to vote and comment!! Also, I hope you guys have or are having or had a Merry Christmas!!!