Shiva's pov.

I looked at Anita and then again said

Shiva - mujhe baat krni Ha..

She looked shocked for a second but then composed herself while I looked at the sky and spoke..

Shiva - ye sach ha ki main disha ke liye taiyaar hoke nhi aaya tha , aur naa maine disha ke liye khud ko badla ha..
Jante ho maine hamesha se yahi ek baat sbse suni thi ki Shiva junglee ha , gawar ha , padthar dil ha, pr mujhse kabhi is baato se farak nhi pada tha aur agar pada bhi hoga toh mujhse ehsaas nhi hota tha kyuki main hamesha ye soch ke dil behla leta tha ki jisse samajhna hoga wo samjhenge.. Jisse pyaar krna hoga wo karenge..
Aur krte bhi the meri family mujhse bht pyaar krti thi unke liye mai aankho ka Tara tha..
Is liye mujhe ye baatein effect nhi krti thi , pr jb meri shaadi hui raavi se aur jb main ye sunta tha ki raavi better deserve krti ha , raavi ki zindagi barbad ho gai toh mujhe ye baatein bht hurt krni lagi..
Pehle mujhe bhi samajh nhi aata tha ki kyu akhir Kyu achanak se mai hurt ho rha hu is baat se ye toh main hamesha se sunta aa rha tha phir kyu..
Pr baad main mujhe samajh aaya ki mujhe wo baatein effect nhi kr rhi ha un baato ko sun ke raavi ka chup rhna wo effect kr rha ha..
Kai baar aisa hua tha shaadi se pehle bhi aur shaadi ke baad bhi jb raavi ne bhi mujhe junglee , zahil , gawar bola tha , jb wo.dev aur krish ke saath milke mere kapdo ka ya mera mazak udati thi. Toh mujhe lgne laga ki log sach khethe the raavi ki zindagi barbad ho gai ha..

Aisa nhi tha ki maine koshish nhi ki thi rishte ko sambhale ki..
Dheere dheere sath rhte rhte hum.samajhne lge the ek dusre ko , ladte jhagarte hi sahi pr hum ek dusre ko.apna rhe the... Dheere dheere hi sahi pr hum ye rishta apna rhe the, wo dheere dheere mere dil main meri.zindagi main jagha bana rhi thi , Main bhi try krta tha , sach kahu toh us din khandhar main jb maut hamare sir pe naach rhi thi naa aur maine raavi ko almost kho diya tha tb samajh aaya ki ,ye raavi bht pehle mere liye mami ki behen ki beti se bht zyada ban chuki ha..
Us din ussi atakti saaso ne mere atakte dimag aur dil ko khol diya tha..
Us din se main raavi ko khone se darne laga tha , usse jhagra krna band krne laga tha , us din jb usne pucha ki main hamesha ki tarha mami ka gussa us pe kyu nhi nikal rha hu toh mujhe samajh aaya ki main galat tha..
Bachpan se mere pass raavi ko hate krne ki koi wajha nhi thi , pr mami ka gussa nikalne ke liye main usse jhagre krta tha..
Is liye maine socha ki main apne aur mami ke jhagre pe zindagi bhar ke liye tala laga du..
Mujhe mere maa ke kangan chaiyea the is liye maine us din wo shart rakhi thi taki mami mujhe wo kangan de de aur main usse wo naye kangan de saku..
Pr us din bhi baat kaha se kaha Punch gai thi..
(I chuckled slightly remembering that day )
Jb maine raavi ko mere liye Terrace pe se kudne ko taiyaar hote dekha naa toh mujhe samajh aaya ki maine kitna galat tarika Chuna tha ye SB krne ka..
Sach kahu toh raavi ne har mauke pe mera saath diya tha wo kangan wali baat ho ya jeera kand main bina kuch puche mujh pe vishwas krke mere saath wapas yaha aane mai..
Us waqt sbne mujhpe vishwas kiya tha ,pr sabne ek baar mujhse pucha bhi tha ki maine ye kaise kr diya
Pr us ne us ne mujhse kuch nhi pucha , chup chap mere saath yaha chali gai , mujhpe vishwas kiya..
Aur ye baat mere dil main Bath gai..
Main Us khandhar ke incident ke baad se raavi ke liye jo feel krta tha naa wo mujhe us din samajh aaya ki wo kya tha , Us din reception main , wo hamara saath main dance krna, wo SB mujhe effect krne laga tha , uski smile , uski ankhe , uski betuki baatein , uska gussa , uski zid , haar ek cheez se mohabbat hone lagi thi mujhe , Raavi se mohabbat hone lagi thi...

Author's p.o.v

Shock was what Anita was feeling..

As shiva completed speaking he looked at Anita who felt as if she would faint any moment..

The fact that shiva loves raavi was too much for her to take..
He has always been someone who said that he hates her , did most of the thing which showed he hated her and now here she gets to hear something she couldn't even imagine in her dreams..

Yes she did feel there was something between them but she never gave it a thought..

As she brought herself out of her shock and analysed everything he said she realised that all he has felt and has been feeling since long time..
She never knew that all those words which people have thrown at him , all the times, when even raavi became a part of that teasing unintentionally use to hurt him so much..
It was all a shock for her a big shock..

She came out of her thoughts when she heard shiva speaking again..

Shiva - Pr khethe ha naa koi koi sach apko apki zindagi ka aina dekha jata ha..
Mere saath bhi yahi hua tha..
Raavi ki dost sneha ne mujhe us din mera sach dekha diya tha..
Main is baat ka sapna dekh rha tha ki raavi se baat karunga, usse puchunga ki kya hum apne rishte ko ek chance de skte ha ,kya hum is naam ke rishte ko shiddat se pure dil se nibha skte ha .. pr mai bhool gaya tha ki main wo hu hi nhi jo raavi ko chaiyea tha.. Main bas ek compromise tha uske liye , wo compromise jo usne apne mausa pa ke liye kiya tha..
Us din sneha ne kuch galat nhi bola tha ya kuch aisa nhi.bola tha jo main jnata nhi tha
Pr us din un baato ne mujhe ek sach se rubaru krwa diya wo sach jo main kahi na kahi raavi ke liye apni akad ya apne gusse ke peeche chupata rha tha.
Main janta tha ki main raavi ke layak nhi hu , aur ye ki mami ho ya somnath ke log ya uske dost SB sahi the main raavi ko deserve nhi krta tha..
Kaha wo ek padhi likhi ladki , kaha mai wo jisne padhai chod di thi ,kaha wo somnath ki sbse khoobsurat ladki kaha main tel masalo wala ladka , kaha wo jiski zindagi rangeen ha aur kaha main berang zindagi jeene wala...
Hamara koi Mel nhi tha..
Aur toh aur kaha mai wo tha jisse wo kabhi pyaar nhi kr skti thi kyuki usse mere bhai se pyaar tha..

SB hamesha se jante the ki raavi ne dev se pyaar kiya ha , pura somnath is baat ka gavah ha..
Main bhi jnta tha pr us din jb maine uski diary padhi toh laga ki jaise kisi ne dil pe khanjar chala diya ho..
Ye ehasaas ki wo ek dev ke jaisa pati chathi thi , usse dev jaisa gentlemen chaiyea tha padha likha ladka chaiyea tha aur sbse zaroori baat ki usse dev chaiyea tha in baato ne mujhe tod diya tha..
Main apni hakekat se wakif tha pr uske bawajood mujhe ye SB baatein hurt kr rhi thi kyuki main usse pyaar kr batha tha..
Main hamesha se uske life main ek devil raha hu , aur ye main jnta hu ki main kabhi uska Prince charming nhi ban skta hu.. Is liye maine usse khud se dur krna suru kr diya , main nhi chatha tha ki wo aab aur apne life mai compromise kare..
Is liye main chatah tha ki wo khud hi mujhe chod ke chale jai , hamara rishta tod de..
Main Janta hu ki wo mere saath khush nhi thi , main jnata hu ki wo mujhse bht behtar deserve krti ha.. Main janta hu ki mai. Perfect nhi hu aur uske liye koi perfect insaan chaiyea jo ki main nhi hu..
Main is baat ke saath zindagi kaat skta hu ki log mujhe junglee zahil gawar bolte ha pr is ke saath nhi ki mujhse Jude hone ke karan log raavi ko ya toh sympathy dete the ya mere karan uski insult krte the..
Wo sympathy aur insult nhi deserve krti ha , wo.respect deserve krti ha jo mere saath rhe ke usse kabhi nhi mil sakega..
Mujhe bas dard is baat ka ha ki Kyu , kyu log mujhe jahil , junglee samajhte ha , kyu log ko main khatakta hu , kyu Raavi ko.dev se pyaar hua mujhse nhi , kyu koi mujhe samajhne ko taiyaar nhi ha..
Kyu logo ko lg rha ha ki main takleef mai nhi hu ki Main khush hu ye bs ke kr kyuki aisa ha nhi..
Sbko lgta ha main bin baat aisa kr rha hu pr main kaise batau ki ye baatein mujhe hurt krti ha , kaise batao ki main in baato ko itna sun chuka tha ki mujhe wo mera sach lgne lagi thi..
(He paused for a second and then looking up at the sky said )
Kyu upper wale ne hamari kismat aisi likhi thi?..
Main usse pyaar krta hu , pr main cha kr bhi usse ye pyaar nhi de skta hu kyuki main uske layak nhi hu...

As soon as shiva said the last line , his tears started streaming down his eyes

Anita looked at him in pain and hurt...
She has been knowing this boy since his childhood and never , never she has found him this broken and hurt..
She knew he didn't deserves this pain.
He didn't deserve the words that was thrown at him..
He didn't deserve any of these..

She herself was a victim of being manipulated by people , thought it was her own fui but she did got manipulated and did something she still regrets..
Because of believing someone's else words she has lost her two good friends..
So she knew how badly words can effect a person..
Physical pain has a cure but mental pain its very hard to cure and specially if that mental pain occurs by listen to something about ones own self..
Thats was the case with shiva , he was in mental pain listening to the Same things from childhood and till now has taken a troll on him and it was evident..

Anita calmly placed her hand on his shoulder and said

Anita - main teri baat samajh skti hu shiva , tune kya feel kiya ha wo bhi kahi na kahi samajh skti hu..
Main khud fui ki baato main aake apna rishta todne ki galti kr chuki hu..
Mujhe is baat ka bht regret ha is liye nhi ki mujhe gautam pasand ha.. Nhi is liye kyuki wo galat tha , is liye kyuki us cheez ke karan maine apne do dost aur unka saath kho diya..
Main wo.shaadi bhi kahi na kahi is liye hi kr rhi thi kyuki fui ne suna suna ke mere dimag main baat bhar di thi ki main is ghar pe raaz karungi wagara wagara..
Mujhe lagne laga mai gautam se pyaar krti hu pr aab samajh aata ha ki jo.hua aacha hua kyuki mujhe gautam se pyaar nhi tha aur agar shaadi ho jati toh wo.gautam ke saath galat hota..
I know jo.kiya wo bht galat tha aur koi bhi explanation isse theek nhi kr skta ha..
Pr janta ha shiva mujhe sbse badi regret kya feel hoti ha ?
Ye ki maine kisi aur ki baato ko sach maan liya tha , aur ye sb kr diya..

Tune bhi kisi aur ki baato ko apna sach maan ke raavi ke saath apne rishte ko tod diya..
Maine tera dard samajh rhi hu, bhale scenarios alag the pr uska base ek hi ha hamare case main.. Dusro ki baatein is liye puch rhi hu..

Ek baat bata kya raavi ne kabhi tujhe kaha tha ki wo tere saath is rishte main khush nhi ha ?
Haa maan skti hu ki shaadi ke turant baad aisi baat hui hogi pr uski bhi wajah thi , uska dil Toota tha , aur Upper se usse ye lgta tha ki tu usee marta chod aaya tha..

Pr kya sach janane ke baad , ya saath rhen ke baad usne kabhi kaha tha ki wo is rishte ko nhi manti ha ya wo khush nhi ha..
Kyuki jb hum haveli gai the tb usse dekh ke Aisa nhi lgta tha ki wo hurt ha ya dukhi ha.. Infact wo khush nazar aati thi
Wo wapas apne purane wali Raavi zone mai jaa rhi thi.. Aur uski wajha sirf tum the...

Shiva main ye nhi khe rhi ki tera jo daar tha wo galat tha nhi tu apni jagha sahi tha pr us daar main raavi ki aisi insult krna uske character pe ungli uthana kya wo sahi tha?
Kya usse bina baat kiye hue , bina puche usse divorce paper dena wo sahi tha ????

Anita asked looking at shiva who looked at her in pain..

The end.....