Jin's POV

It's almost a month and everything is back to normal I'm working atain and doing all the things I do before.
After that confession with Taehyung, to be honest I was quite surprised that he accepted me. I thought that people like me doesn't have any chances at all after what happened, but Taehyung made me feel otherwise. He is constantly with me and supporting me. He also admitted that he already knew even before I told him. He said that Namjoon told him and that ge also found my diary.

I was grateful to him because of all of the understanding he has given me these days. Also Yoongi and Hoseok, they become my support system. All of them. I was lucky I had them. I can never ask for more.

Taehyung and Namjoon is also working on finding those guys who did horrible things to me. So far there's still no progress. We also trying to fing 'kook' I cannot remember his face clearly but I know that if I saw him I'll recognize him. I was really thankful to him, if it's not for him I had probably died out there. Maybe he is a good person. I don't know. But I'm really grateful.

Regarding to me and Taehyung's relationship, we are really in good terms. He is very attentive and caring. I really appreciate it. Though sometimes I think he is too much, not that I hate it, it's just I'm not used to him caring for me like that. He is living with me now. He said that if he leaves me alone, I might be gone again. I laughed at him at that time but I know deep downI needed this. His presence calms me down and somehow I feel safe when he is around.

But sometimes, I feel guilty because I can't return everything he gives to me. I know he's a man and he has needs. And I feel really really bad for him because the last time we tried, I ended up trembling and crying my eyes out. Even though he never pressure me to things like that, I just can't help myself to think that I am not enough. He assured me that he will wait. I remembered what he said to me then:

"Jinnie, I can wait. It's not about sex. This is not about me alone. I love you and that's enough. Being with you is enough. Don't think I I'll leave you again, I'm not gonna do it. I'm not dumb enough to commit the same mistake twice."

I was really touched that time. But still in my mind, I have these thoughts: "What if I won't be ready at all? What if I'll be like this for the rest of my life?"

My head hurts thinking about all of these. I think I need help.

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After hours of thinking about things, I got ready I took a leave for today because I have my check up today. Lately, I have been feeling nauseous and sickly, for example, I don't have the appetite to eat or I'm very picky, which is unusual because I like everything. And Everytime I eat I'll just throw up after. Plus I get dizzy all the time. Maybe I got an infection, so I decided to ask the doctor. It's been going on for a while now so I'm quite worried.

I'm going alone since Taehyung is at work and I don't want to disturb him. The doctor did run some tests to me. After quite some time he called me in.

"So, Jin, can you tell me what are you feeling lately?"

"Well, lately, I always throw up and get dizzy I can't eat properly. Also I always feel the need to sleep. My body feels heavy I feel like fainting any moment."

"I see. Well, that's normal for your condition."

Here's the moment of Truth. What disease could this be?

"I won't die right? I mean, it's not critical?"

The doctor chuckled at my question. Why is he laughing at me? Am I over reacting?

"No you will not die. You're just pregnant. No worries."

What?

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Hi!! I missed you all! Sorry I'm not updating everyday😭😭 school officially started so my schedule here in Watty is quite messed up. But I promise this weekend I will do my best. ❤️🖤