day 42

joshs mind

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josh shuffled around, slowly blinking his eyes until they focused.

wonder what time it is?

ugh my head hurts

i need some water

he turned and blindly reached around for his water bottle. after many missed attempts to grab it, he finally got it.

he unscrewed the cap and put it to his lips

fuck

you're fucking kidding me

tylerrrrrrr

josh huffed and threw the empty water bottle across the room. he heard it clatter against the concrete.

owwww

i need a damn tylenol

where is tyler when i need him

he has to come soon

josh stretched before standing up and looking around for any bottle that might have some water.

sweet

he grabbed one that was about a quarter full and chugged it.

i still need some more

here he comes

josh turned to watch tyler open up the door and head down the stairs.

i'm really glad he's here

"goodmorning, how are we this morning?" tyler asked, setting down a water bottle and a banana.

he's my kidnapper

"bad." josh grumbled.

"why?" tyler asked.

"my head hurts." josh said.

it would be better if you weren't talking so loud

"wants some tylenol?"

yes please

"mhm." josh nodded, putting his arm across his eyes.

tyler mumbled something before heading up the stairs and quickly bringing two pills back.

"here ya go." tyler said, handing them to him and opening his water. josh looked at tyler while he chugged his water.

"josh?" tyler chuckled.

"hmm? oh it's empty." josh said, handing it back to him.

"i'll refill it." tyler said.

tyler returned with the full bottle and handed it back.

"anything else you need?" tyler asked.

"no i don't think so." josh grumbled, laying back down on his bed. tyler sighed.

"here, uh, you can come sleep in my bed." tyler said. "but, you have to take a shower first."

"thank you." josh said, tyler smiling. he unlocked josh and they made their way to the bathroom.

i shouldn't have to be 'allowed' to shower and sleep in a bed

but other victims don't get the same treatment i do, they get killed

would i rather be dead then be locked in a prison?

why don't i go ahead and give in since this is my life from now on

no, don't say that

"here's your clothes from last time i washed them." tyler said. he set them on the counter. "and towel here, uh here's a rag." tyler handed it. "i think that's everything."

"yeah i'm good." josh said stepping into the nice hot water. tyler nodded and stepped into his bedroom.

josh zoned out into the water hitting his skin.

i don't even barely remember anything outside of here

i haven't been here that long?

i lost count

whatever it doesn't matter, this is my home now

i wish i would stop saying that, it's not my home

i'm gonna get out of here

no i'm not

i don't want to

why don't it?

tyler's all i have

josh groaned frustratedly.

"you okay?" tyler asked, stepping in.

"yeah, i'm fine." josh said. tyler just nodded and walked back out.

i am going crazy

josh rubbed his eyes and finished washing himself.

he turned the water off. grabbing his towel and drying off before getting dressed.

he stepped into tyler's bedroom, him laying on his bed in joggers and no shirt while watching tv.

"oh." josh nodded. he awkwardly stood in tyler's room.

what do i do

tyler scooted over, signifying for josh to sit down.

"head still hurt?" tyler asked.

no

"yeah." josh nodded.

"alright, i'll let you take a nap." tyler sighed, going to stand up.

"you can stay." josh said, not wanting to be alone.

why did i say that

"alright." tyler said, resuming his position on the bed. josh crawled under the blankets and turned the opposite way.

he could easy kill me in my sleep

he won't

i could escape if he falls asleep

i don't want to. why?

my head hurts again

josh clenched his eyes to try and stop his brain and go to sleep.

it was hard to stop it.