Is it too late to say what I've been feeling?
Although, it's my final hours
You may wonder, why I'm on this building?
Crying, I shake as I write this
Don't put flowers on my coffin

"I am so fucking lonely
That all I talk to is an empty room
Everyone thinks I'm happy
But behind closed doors, I wish for my time to come soon

They say the strong can lift themselves up after a fall
But after all, I am nothing but a worthless mess
I am weak, lonely and depressed
Nobody sees that, not unless
I fall to my death

All I want is hands to hold
Proving me wrong after everything I've been told
That I am worthy
I can share my story

I try to reach out, I really did
But when you left me on read
I realised, I'm not cared
And that really messes with my head

You wanna know why?
Because I tell others what I don't tell myself
I love you, I promise, it'll get better
I will make time for you, I will
I don't talk, not because I am awkward or shy
Because you won't listen, you won't respond
You won't even try

So when I'm falling, I'm drowning
There's nobody at the bottom to catch me
At my funeral, don't say
'If only...'

I gave you all the signs
The scars under my sleeves
The tears in my eyes
But you look away
And wonder why I died?

This is my cry for help
I have nobody to talk to
And I hate myself
For asking more
than I deserve
It's just one request

Catch me when I fall..." ---
By Azumi Naz