**** I finally found out who the model is that Ryker looks like! Her name is Starfucked, Kitty Carol is the photographer****

*Ryker*

It was around 8 pm when I started feeling well enough to move again, and when I did, I stood up and started dancing in between people, shaking my hands and hips, humming to myself and swinging my drink around.

"Leah, dance with me" I whined, grabbing at her arms. She rolled her eyes jokingly at me, muttering something about how I was in good form, before batting my arm away and telling me to sit down.

I huffed and poked her cheeks, whining about how she was no fun.

I looked around and grinned when I saw Ashley slouching on the couch.

I stumbled over to him and took another swig of Jack before setting it on the table, where Ashley quickly grabbed it and put it back in a different spot. Weird.

I gave him my best attempt at puppy dog eyes and grabbed his arms, tugging on them weakly.

"Ashley, dance with me" I whined, and he laughed before letting me pull him up.

By now everyone had moved out of the way and were staring at us with a mix of confusion and interest.

I pulled Ashley's hands to my hips and then I put my hands around his neck, hugging close to him and swaying back and forth.

"I love you Ashley" I mumbled into his chest.

He just laughed, saying "you're drunk".

"Completely" I grinned, pulling away and spinning until Ashley pulled me back to spin into his chest. I was a giggling mess by now, but I couldn't find enough sense to care.

By now CC was getting hyped up, and he jumped up and grabbed my arm, pulling me away and beginning to waltz with me. His version of waltzing at least.

I was snorting with laughter, being pulled this way and that by CC and Ashley.

"I am the best dancer ever, pick me!" CC squealed when Ashley pulled me to him yet again.

Luna was smirking at all of us, recording it on her phone, or simply showing it to someone on Skype. I grinned at her, laughing.

"Sorry to say it CC, but Ryker here's the best dancer hands down" Leah said, grinning and standing up.

"Hmm? You fla-fluh-flah....? Damnit, you flutter me" I slurred, grinning and throwing my arm around her.

She pulled her face away from mine and shriveled her nose up like she had smelled something bad, but gave me an amused look.

"Flutter? You mean flatter?" She said, smirking at me.

"Flutter? Who said anything about flutter? Fucking butterfly" I said, grinning and shaking my head at her.

She must be hearing things.

Leah just rolled her eyes and nudged my shoulder.

"Show them then" she said, and I looked at her confused.

She laughed, shaking her head, but I knew she seemed upset because her eyes were pained. I wonder what was going on with her?

She nudged my hips in a circle and I grinned at her, following her movements and letting her move me how she would.

"Okay, now...." she paused, pulling my shirt around my back and tying it so it was around my ribs.

I frowned at her, confused. She knows I don't like crop tops. She pushed my hips again and I grinned, getting the hang of it and beginning to dance by myself.

I closed my eyes and moved my hips in circles, doing little body rolls and getting lost in the dance.

When I was young, I used to pretend I was a belly dancer dancing for the royalty on special occasions.

Who knew I'd end up belly dancing for stupid sleezy middle aged married men. That's a far cry from royalty.

When I opened my eyes again everyone was staring like they'd grown a new head in the last five minutes.

"What?" I asked, crossing my arms, "was I that bad? That's not fair, it's been a while!" I complained, and Leah smirked, shaking her head.

"No, you're that good" Ashley said, and I bit my lip, suddenly shy.

"You haven't seen anything till you see Leah. She's the real dance phenomenon" I mumbled, sitting back down and laying my head in Ashley's lap.

Ashley took the hint and started playing with my hair, and I hummed in appreciation.

I turned my head and peaked one eye open to see Leah dancing with a smirk on her face. CC was trying to copy her, key word trying.

I grinned and pulled out my phone, recording it for a moment before putting it as a draft to Ryan.

It didn't feel right to just send it. Maybe I'd ask her later.

I grinned and must've closed my eyes, because soon I felt myself lulled into semi unconsciousness, hardly feeling Ashley's hands in my hair.

When I next opened them, everyone had calmed down, and it was 5 am. Everyone was still here. I shouldn't be surprised.

I was a bit sobered up by now, and I sat up wincing a bit.

"Please tell me I didn't completely embarrass myself" I whispered to Ashley. He just laughed at me, shaking his head.

"You just danced for a bit. You embarrassed us more than you" He said, giving me a smile.

I sighed in semi relief and lay my head in my hands, groaning.

It was high past time for me to go to bed, but I didn't want anyone to leave. I feel like when they're around I'm not so lonely.

Everything doesn't seem so bleak because when they're around it makes it easier to block out the voices, because I would fill my brain with their voices instead, focus on what they said to block out what I was thinking.

I smiled a bit, closing my eyes and taking a deep breathe before biting my lip and smiling.

Esha sat down next to me, smiling at me. I smiled back and leaned closer, intending on talking to her.

I was sure to keep my mouth pointed away from her in case I reaked too bad of alcohol. I probably did, I had gone through at least half of my 3 month stock. I can't even imagine how I drank all of that, Jesus.

"So Esha, you have something with Andy huh" I said to her, smiling secretively.

She paled a bit, probably embarrassed. "And you have something with alcohol. You probably need h-" she bit her lip and looked at me panicked.

"S-sorry! I didn't mean to - I shouldn't-" she said, and I smiled at her, reaching out and laying a hand on her shoulder.

"It's okay. You're right. I know I shouldn't drink so much, but I do it to forget. Maybe one day I won't have to, but for now...." I said, smiling stiffly and retracting my hand, holding it close to my chest.

"Anyways, you changed the subject. Don't think I didn't notice" I said, trying to lighten the dark that had fallen between us. Stupid me and my habit of making everything so fucking depressing.

"Well you shouldn't have, I didn't" she said slyly, shrugging.

"Yeah, you're not getting away with that. I want stories of fetus Andy, you're holding out on me I know you are" I said grinning, and she shrugged, giving me a secretive smirk.

"Come on, you have to-" I was interrupted by Pick Up The Phone playing - my ringtone.

Yeah, I still enjoy torturing myself, because I haven't changed it even though every second spent hearing Ronnie's beautiful voice makes me want to cry and claw my eyes out.

I picked it up, panicking a little when it read as an unknown number.

Was it Him? Oh god, He's escaped and He's found me, He's after me, He's gonna-!

"Are you gonna answer that?" Esha asked me, quirking a perfectly sculpted eyebrow.

I took a deep breath and nodded, raising the phone to my ear and pressing accept.

"Hello?" I said, heart hammering in a panicked frenzy.