**** Sorry guys ahhhhh it took forever. Don't question the picture, just enjoy it XD ****

It had been a few hours, and I know that Andy and Esha were going to leave anytime now. I didn't want them to.

All of a sudden it was like I was drowning and the only way to stop it was to keep everyone here, like maybe if I surrounded myself with a bunch of people then I wouldn't feel so..... much like I do.

I stood up suddenly and stood on the couch so everyone could see me and listen.

"Do you guys want to play a game?" I asked, rather softly. I didn't know what I was saying, but if it got them to stay then that's good with me.

Esha turned to me with curious eyes, and Leah and Ryan were too busy being cute fucks to notice. Damn it I ship them so much, I swear it's not healthy.

I realized after a few moments of awkward silence and staring that people were waiting for me to continue.

"Oh, right, um, do you want to play.........uh..........truth or dare.....?" I said slowly, shrugging to myself. I think I had even less of an idea of what I was saying than everyone else, but I went with it. Nobody objected it so I took that as a yes.

I plopped back down on the couch, my cheeks red with embarrassment. Already I was feeling so incredibly overwhelmed, but I didn't want anyone to leave yet.

I pulled my phone and called Luna repeatedly until she picked up. I spoke before she could no doubt pretend to yell at me for interrupting.....whatever it was that she was doing.

"Come over we're having a party thing. Bring Max and whoever. Wait, not whoever, don't bring Craig" I said, biting my lip.

I know that I said I had to let go of some things, but that man really fucking bugged me. And I feel like I took it to far to recover anyways.

"Yeah right like I'd do that. I love you to death but Craig kinda needs his jaw to be...not bruised so that he can sing to his full potential" Luna said, and I scoffed but didn't say anything.

We tended to avoid the topic of Craig, for good reason. It worked because neither of us tried to change how the other felt about Craig.

I hung up and threw my phone on the cushion next to me, forcing myself to not touch it so as to avoid stalking Ronnie until I cried my eyes out.

I'm pretty sure there was some scandal going on; fans were talking about a possible fight between Ronnie and Ashley, but I'm proud to say I haven't let myself look. I know I would eventually but I lasted a day so that was good with me.

Soon there was a knocking on the door and Luna came bursting in, Max close behind.

"Let's get this bitch started!" She yelled, and I laughed, running to her and hugging her.

I don't know what I would do without my Luna and Leah.... they truly were my angelic saviors.

I grinned and nudged Esha as we all got in a circle in the living room.

"Hey you're off duty, so no blabbing about what happens tonight in the magazine okay?" I teased, and she looked at me alarmed.

"I would never-oh, you're joking. Heh, right" She said, blushing cutely. I grinned as I saw how fast Andy had nudged his way past Max to be next to Esha, his thigh pressed closely against Esha's. I had to force down a squeal, seeing them sitting so close to each other even though there was plenty, well maybe not plenty, but enough room for everyone.

It was, in order, Esha, Andy, Max, Luna, Ryan, Leah, Ashley, and me. Just the right size to fit in our small living room.

I put an empty beer bottle-mine, of course, because Leah didn't drink beer- in the middle and spun it, watching it circle and circle and circle until it landed on Luna.

Luna smiled devilishly and looked at me. I gulped a little but smirked back. Danger gave me a rush. I kind of loved doing dares. Truths weren't as invigorating and there was always the possibility of having to admit a secret you didn't want out.

"Truth o-" She started, but I interrupted quickly. "Dare" I said confidently, biting my lip and tensing in excitement.

"I dare you to run down the hallways on this floor in only your underwear" She said to me, giving me a look that told me I could back out.

It probably helped that I had already downed a beer, a Mikes hard lemonade, and a shot of fireball, but I was completely willing.

I smirked, my stomach doing flips and my lips pulling up of their own accord.

I heard Esha mutter something about a perfect post, so I winked at her as I stood up.

"You can film it and write about it. Let's do this" I said, pulling off my shirt.

I thumped Ashley teasingly on the chest as I saw him fighting to keep his eyes on my face. I didn't really care much anymore.

As long as I didn't see anyone I didn't know staring at me so bared, I was okay with it. I was covered in scars but I was slowly starting to accept my body.

I pulled my pants off and then turned to see Esha with her phone out, recording no doubt.

"Let's do this bitchachos" I said, winking again before walking to the door. Leah looked at me with a mix of mutual thrill and confusion, but I just patted her cheek as I walked out the door.

I started running down the halls, grinning and laughing to myself. As I got to the end, I turned back and ran past the others, who had followed me.

That's when I noticed Max knock on one of the doors obsessively, until an angry old man came out, spitting and swearing.

I screamed in glee and we all ran furiously as he chased us, ranting about stupid kids and reporting us.

I made it to the apartment and furiously slammed against the door until Leah came and unlocked it, everyone following closely.

I got in and slammed it behind everyone, holding my breath and looking out of the peephole to see the old man stumbling around, looking at each of the doors, as if trying to see which one was ours.

He shoved his face against the door, and I had to hold back a scream as his eye was shoved into the hole, as if he could see in. When I saw him finally disappear down the hall I sighed in relief and laughed, turning to Esha and grinning into the camera.

"How about that motherfuckers?" I smirked, walking back to the couch and pulling my clothes on.

"You asshat" I grinned and punched Max on the arm. He shrugged wheezing a laugh, out of breath.

Crazy to think that that was only the first dare. This was my kind of game, no silly pre-game dares before the real ones came rolling in.

I sat down and smirked at Luna, biting my lip and squinting as I thought of a dare for her.

"Hmmm, I dare you and Max to stage a breakup in the main lobby" I said, and Luna grinned.

"Oh honey, we do that for fun" She said, and I nodded.

"And I run around half naked for fun. Esha's gonna film it and you have to pretend that its real for a few days and watch the fans blow up. I'm evil, I know" I said, laughing.

Luna grinned and nodded.

We went down and watched Luna and Max yell and cry at each other, complete with Luna storming out the door. It was a true masterpiece, and totally worth the effort of sneaking her back in through the back door afterwards.

The night went on like that, until the already glee-filled dares got even juicier.

By now Esha had stopped filming, and it was high time she got a dare.

It was fitting that Leah got to dare her, so I knew she'd get something as 'hard' as everyone's.

I admit that if I was in an anime I would've gotten a nosebleed when I heard Esha's dare.

Leah smirked at Esha and Andy - everyone in the room could feel the burning chemistry between them - and winked at me before speaking.

"Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to spend seven minutes in the closet doing whatever dirty fantasies you have in your mind" Leah said, and I shrieked a little.

Andy and Esha looked at each other, and easily got up, walking themselves to the closet and closing it behind them.

I sat there like a robot with rebooting systems before getting up and jumping on Ashley, squealing like a little girl and grinning stupidly.

Ashley looked at me like I was nuts, but soon enough he was running around the island in the kitchen making airplane noises while I shot a fake gun-my hand- at everything and made explosion sounds.

I swear we're not drunk.......

I think Leah was recording us, and Luna was definitely taking pictures.

Ryan was rolling around on the ground and Max was shaking his head at all of us, laughing.

He looked like he was judging all of us, that is, until Luna jumped on him and they got a little busy on the ground...

I don't know how long Andy and Esha were in the closet, but we didn't get them out at all.

Eventually Ashley and I collapsed on the couch.

Leah and Ryan managed to make it to the bed, Ashley and I fell asleep on the couch, Max and Luna were on the carpeted floor, and Esha and Andy were still in the closet, doing who knows what.

I smiled in my haze a little before snuggling my face into Ashley's chest and closing my eyes.