"I refuse!"

Lucy growled, glaring at Jellal, "You have no right to refuse! This is my gang and I am the leader, I will decide on what to do!"

"You will not create a gang war!" The bluenette cried out, grabbing her shoulders and holding them in a vice-grip, "You will not go there!"

"I will if I want to!" Lucy screeched, gritting her teeth, "Why are you so against the thought of me fighting? You've seen me do it a lot of times! I saved your fucking ass today and this is how you treat me? Don't be like this! Didn't you understand a word I said when I told you that I'm the police? You didn't, did you?"

Jellal closed his eyes and suppressed the urge to scream in frustration. He was just so frightened at the thought of Lucy fighting with different gangs. He didn't want her to slip away from his fingertips. He didn't want their relationship to end just when it started. That was how much he loved her. That was how much he treasured her. "I love you Lucy, I really do. I don't want you to just... I don't want you to fight when we're not sure about your chance of survival," He said weakly, opening his eyes to stare at her.

"God, Jellal, I'm already used to fighting. I will not die!" Lucy hissed, pinching the bridge of her nose, "I thought you understood me!"

"I do understand you, I really do," The bluenette whimpered, pulling her towards him and wrapping his arms around her. He felt her body tense up and he buried his face in the crook of her neck, inhaling her scent. "I'm just scared," He whispered and Lucy sighed as she ran her fingers through her blue locks.

The blonde heaved another sigh, "You shouldn't be scared, dude, you're a man."

"That's not even funny..."

"Alright, alright, I'm sorry," Lucy mumbled and she smiled softly, "If you're that scared of me dying, then why don't you just go to the ball with us, it'll be fun."

"I still don't feel good about this ball," Jellal mumbled and he placed a soft kiss on the side of her neck, "Can't you just leave the matter to your gang?"

The blonde exhaled, "I'm not that selfish, Jellal."

"You're too selfless then," He mumbled and bit her earlobe, "You know I love you, right?"

"I know, I know you do," Lucy whispered and she bit her bottom lip, "But I love my gang as well..."

Jellal gulped and he tightened his arms around her, "If you were given a choice, who would you pick. Me?" He leaned back to stare into her eyes, "Or your gang?"

Lucy shook her head and she gritted her teeth as she lowered her head, fists clenched. "I..." She paused to inhale a sharp breath, "I d-don't know..."

"What do you mean you don't know?" The bluenette cried out, curling his fingers in her yellow tresses and leaning his forehead against hers, "Why?"

The blonde closed her eyes, "I love you Jellal, I really do but... I love my gang too and I can't let it go. My mom passed her position to me and I treasure it very much. I hope you understand Jellal, I really do love you but-"

Jellal burst out laughing as the tears fell down from his eyes. Lucy blankly stared at him and he continued laughing, tears streaming down his cheeks. It was pointless, Lucy could see through his act. Why laugh when she could see the pain in his eyes? Why? She wanted to reach out and wipe away his tears but her brain wasn't cooperating with her and her arms remained still by her sides.

The bluenette chuckled, "Funny how you'd pick a gang over your boyfriend."

"I thought you'd understand!" Lucy shouted, trying to pry Jellal's hands off her. She landed on the couch behind her and she gritted her teeth, "You said you would understand me!"

"I understand you!" Jellal yelled back, laughing as droplets of tears fell from his chin to the floor, "You think I don't? I chose to love you, Lucy. And right now, believe it or not," He laughed through a smile, "It actually looks like you're pushing me away."

The blonde's jaw dropped, "B-But I'm not pushing you away!"

"Oh really?" The bluenette asked, raising a brow, "I gave you two choices, you couldn't pick one. It looks like you were going to pick your gang and push me away."

"You've got it all wrong! If you just listen to me-"

"I listened to you for so long! I listen to how you murmur about the fact that everyone's annoying, how you love the rain, how you treat your gang, your laughter, your silence, your retorts, your comebacks, your insults, your anger, your smugness, your voice. I listen to everything you say and here I am, trying to tell you how I feel but you just..." Jellal sighed, "It's not easy, Lucy."

"My gang is my family! I can't just leave it behind!" The blonde cried out, her hands curling into fists, "They're my responsibility, Jellal. They're my only family left! My mother and father are gone! They are the only memories my mother left to me. I can't just pick you and leave them behind! I'm not that selfish, you know that."

Jellal pressed his lips together and he lowered his head, "You're... heartless..."

"I'm not heartless! I care for them and you!" Lucy shrieked and clutched her hair, "Can't you see that?"

"I can see it!" The bluenette snapped, "But if you're just going to leave me alone then so be it!" He laughed, "Well? Who are you going to pick?"

"It's fine, never mind. I'm going to go," Lucy murmured and stood up. She grabbed her jacket and keys then stared at Jellal one more time. "Forget about everything. And to think that I thought we would have a happy ever after..." Lucy whispered sadly and sighed. She left the room and when the door shut, Jellal's laughter went louder and louder.

When he heard the sound of Lucy's bike, he dropped his facade and cried. He leaned against the wall and he slid down to the floor. He pulled his knees close to him and buried his face lower, and lower.

"I don't deserve you."

He sniffed and smashed his fist down on the wall. "I DON'T DESERVE YOU!"

He cried harder and grabbed his hair.

"I don't deserve such an admirable woman..."