The heroes were kind and let me stay with them for the night only mainly because I didn't had anyone that could have picked me up from the hospital and they thought that I would try something funny again.

Can't blame them! They were right. I would have. Only that there was a hero in the room that would have prevented it and the hospital room being on the first floor. Can't die this way. It would have only hurt more!

Yesterday after they brought me to their home, they showed me the guest room and as soon as I let myself fall on the bed thinking how I could escape from them, I fell asleep. It was so soft, I couldn't resist resting my eyes. I didn't even realize how tired I was. To be honest I didn't sleep much and when I do, I get Nightmares. This time it was peaceful and I enjoyed it. The first time in a years.

I was up early and went to the kitchen.

Hmm... What should I do for breakfast? First of black coffee for the sleep deprived hero and his son. They both looked like they need it yesterday.

I didn't really spoke much. Not to the hero nor to their adoptive son Hitoshi Shinso. He was the same age as me and they thought that I had a quirk. As far as I know all they knew about me was my name, my address and my phone number.

*Sigh* why couldn't I have died the first time I tried?

I finished making coffee when I decided to look what they had in the fridge and cabinets in terms of ingredients. There was not much I could do with what there was, so I decided to make pancakes. The recipe was something I came up with and didn't need a lot of ingredients. They won't even let someone gain weight. I researched how to make them and then just tried a couple of things out. All this was done by me to please my mother but she never recognized my hard work.

As I was finishing making them, I turned around and went to place them on the dinner table. Next, I searched for some plates and mugs to prepare the table.

Present Mic: Ah, this smells delicious!

Not hearing the hero enter the room, I was startled and let go of the plates I was holding. They fell down and shattered.

Me: Oh my god! I am so sorry! I didn't mean to do that!

I bent down and began picking the piece up hastily while being careful.

Present Mic: Don't do that little listener! It's ok! It was my fault. You didn't saw me and I scared you visibly.

It was true, as soon as I heard his voice, I not only let go of the plates but also jumped back.

Not listening to what he said I continued to pick the shards up. Mic then came to my side and took my hand. He then pulled me up and into a hug. This was so unexpectedly that I froze.

Why is he hugging me?

Present Mic: Everything good now?

I looked at him wondering what he meant.

Why was he hugging me all of a sudden and not punishing or screaming at me. Even his quirk was not active. There was no danger coming from him. Why? It was my fault!

As I was wondering why he was doing such a thing, reality hit me.

I jumped away scared of what will happen next. He must have thought that I was scared of him! I must have even looked like I was ready to take a beating... shit! Damn reactions!

I felt guilty making a hero worry about me again.

Me: I-I'm fine. Sorry for breaking them.

Present Mic: Don't sweat it. We have enough plates! Why were you up this early anyway?

Me: I thought since you guys were so kind and let me stay the night that I could do something in return.

Present Mic: Let me guess little listener, this is what you came up with.

I didn't dare to answer but nodded. This time I couldn't tell if he was displeased or happy about it.

Did I do something wrong? Oh no wasn't I supposes to do this? Wait wasn't I allowed to do it. I never asked them for permission. What if they don't eat breakfast or don't like pancakes?

My mind went into overdrive. The hero saw me spacing out and took me to the table. Then he turned and cleaned up the mess I made. Next, he placed new plates and some mugs on the table.

Present Mic: Toshi and Sho won't be up for another hour.

That's when I realized how late it was. Today was a school day and I needed to attend it or else they would pester my mother because of it and she would do something... I didn't want to find out what that something was.

Me: I ahm I should probably go.

Present Mic: Why? It's only 6 a.m..

Me: Yeah but I need half an hour to get home and then another hour to get to school. If I don't want to be late, I need to go now. Thanks again for everything and please enjoy the breakfast with you family.

Not giving the hero any chance to stop me or say any word to me, I went to the entrance of the house, put my shoes on rather quick and went out. The way home went by relatively fast as I was jogging it back.

Another day of beating... I can't wait for it!

I haven't even eaten anything. My stomach was fighting me, but my feelings told me that I didn't deserve anything.

I pestered the heroes and basically forced them to pay for my hospital fees! Naturally they would take me in for the night! This only shows how useless and what a bother I am to others! I don't deserve any food for this.

Arriving at my home, I prepared my schoolbag and began searching for my grandmothers phone number.

I hate to do this but I really need a guardian besides my mother... This will be just fucking great! *caugh* sarcasm *caugh*

You deserve it and you know that!

It is all your fault! If you just haven't been so useless, maybe people would have wanted you!

Right....

What am I saying?! You are useless anyways with or without a quirk!

True..

You should have died that day!

I tried..

What? Can't even do that? God you are just so stupid!

I know...

Die! Die! Die!

After I found the number, I went to the bathroom, took out my razor blade and took off my bandages. I could already hear the voices that are haunting me. They started to do what they could do best, mocking and taunting me as always!

'You are a failure! You can't do anything right!'

'Useless'

'Die'

'Waste of Space'

Me (whisper shouting): s-s-s-stop.... please not now! I can't take this right now...

'Die'

'I don't believe a quirkless person can be a hero...'

'Disgusting'

'Die'

'No one want's you!'

Me (whisper shouting): .....please.... I beg of you just stop! Let me be!

'Deku'

'Die'

'Your mother left you!'

'Worthless'

Me: just stop... I didn't do anything wrong! I tried to be a good son to her!

'Die already'

'You're just a burden to everyone!'

Me: ...that... I am...

'Worthless'

'Die'

Me: I want to...

'Stupid'

'Die'

'Bastard'

'Die'

'Quirkless Disappointment'

'Do us all a favor and just die already!'

Me: STOP ALREADY! I GET IT! I DON'T DESERVE TO BE HERE! I TRIED AND TRIED BUT FAILED EVERYTIME! I GET IT I AM A FAILURE!

Again 42 cuts on both of my arms.

*Sigh* At least they stopped for now... they don't have to remind me every time. I already now the painful truth!

I then went out of the bathroom after rebandaging my arms, took my schoolbag and went out.

It was already 7 a.m. and I knew that I would arrive in time if Bakugo doesn't spot me that is. I was walking casually and took out my phone and a piece of paper where I wrote my grandmother number on.

Would I bother her now?

What am I even thinking?! I will bother her as I always do! Nevertheless, this needs to be done!

I dialed the number and waited for her to pick up.

Grandmother: Hello?

Me: Hello, this is Izuku.

Grandmother: Who?

She doesn't even remember my name... Did she forget or never wanted to know it. I am going to choose the second option here.

Me: Izuku Midoriya, Inko Midoriyas son.

Grandmother: Oh you are the quirkless bastard my daughter brought to life! WHAT DO YOU WANT?!

Me: I am sorry for bothering you but mom left me alone after she found a better job and I am currently living at the apartment.

Grandmother: She left you?! Good! Took her long enough! It was already time for that! What do you want from me?

Me: I need a guardian and I thought that you could help me with it.

Grandmother: NO! HECK NO! NEVER! IN WHAT KIND OF FUCKING FANTASY ARE YOU LIVING?! I DON'T NEED SOMEONE AS USELESS AS YOU!

Me:...

Guess that is settled...

Grandmother: After school pack your thing! I will come and pick you up!

Why? She made it clear that she doesn't want me!

Grandmother: DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!!!

Me: Yes, Ma'am!

Then she hung up. I didn't dare to question her as I knew how useless I was and that no matter what I say she would always win the argument. If I dared to disobey, something bad would happen. She could report me or worse throw me out of the apartment and then I would be homeless!