~{A/N}~ This chapter contains smut. Easy don't like don't read.

I'M STILL FAIRLY NEW TO THE SMUT WRITING SO PLEASE BEAR WITH ME!!! ~Sincerely Yours~

Killua and Illumi are still in the car on the way to Killua's apartment. "You see I don't really believe you," Killua determines. 'I need him to deny it... just one more time,' Killua thinks desperately hoping that the doubt in Illumi's voice when he said no the first time was just a fluke.

"Well... it's the truth," Illumi says with finality. 'Doesn't that seem... a bit forced?' Killua thinks.

"You're lying aren't you," Killua advances in his accusations. "Are you with Hisoka? And not telling me!?" Strangely enough growing up Illumi has been the most close with his little brother Killua. Killua knows this and can't fathom why Illumi would do this. Illumi has always been the nicest to Killua. Granted it wasn't that nice since he forced Killua to kill and manipulated him but he was nicer to Killua than any other living thing.

"N-No," Illumi states getting more and more annoyed at himself for not being able to just simply deny his brothers accusations. Just from that answer Illumi knows Killua can see the truth. 'I'm done playing Hisoka's game!' Illumi thinks before spilling everything to Killua. "Yeah I'm with him. And stop with that stupid pained expression!" Illumi loses it and this is the first time Killua has seen him like this. "Like this" being so emotional. 'He must really like Hisoka or something,' Killua suddenly feels empty. Loss of all feeling.

Numb.

"T-Take me somewhere else," Killua says quietly and monotonously.

"You're going home," Illumi says harshly.

"No... take me to..." Killua gives Illumi the address has had memorized by now.

"No I'm taking you-" Illumi looks to Killua's saddened expression and gives in. "Fine! Suit yourself!" Killua holes back tears the entire way to his destination.

'I can't believe Gon was right. Gon... the new found crackhead and drunk. I have to get him better. He deserves it. He's the only one who told me the truth,' Killua thinks while staring out the window. Illumi barely slows down the car as they make it to Killua's stop. 'I bet everything Hisoka said about him was false too! I don't believe any of that anymore. Illumi probably told him to tell me all that!' Killua fell out of the car and Illumi sped away. As the car speeds up Killua spats in its direction. 'I hope he falls off Palm's Cliff,' Killua looks at Gon's house and immediately feels tears brimming his eyes. 'I haven't cried since I was 7 years old. Gon has too much power over me,' Killua thinks and runs to Gon's porch.

He trips up the stairs and runs into the door. He knocks on the door as if his life depends on it with tears streaming down his face. 'Why am I acting like this?' Killua thinks as more tears come. Thank god not long after Killua started knocking Mito opened the door.

"Mito...C-Can I-I see G-Gon?" She saw Killua in shambles and immediately let's him in. 'I shouldn't be showing up at his doorstep like this. I need to calm down first,' Killua thinks rationally but ignored it. 'I-I want to see him.' Killua finds him on the stairs. "Gon," Killua hugs him tightly never wanting to let go. He looked into his beautiful, still kind and still soft on brown eyes even through everything he did. He preserved the look in his eyes. Killua can't take whatever feeling he couldn't describe in him anymore and kisses Gon. Gon freezes and doesn't move with his eyes wide.

"What... what..." Gon barely makes out once Killua pulls away. "Who... wait... what...how..."

"I hate you so much," Killua says and holds Gon's head before kissing him again. "You ruined everything," Gon still has no idea what to do. Killua hugs Gon again and lays his head on Gon's shoulder. Killua sheds a few more tears before Gon did anything.

"I hate you too," Gon takes Killua's head and kisses Killua roughly. "You made me this way!" Gon kisses Killua again and explores every crevice in Killua's mouth. He wipes away all left over tears off of Killua's face. "You don't get to cry."

"You ruined my relationship," Killua mumbles in between breaths. Gon pushes Killua into his bedroom. Killua complies and kisses Gon once inside. Gon shuts and locks the door.

"You ruined my perfect attendance record," Killua falls onto the bed.

"You ruined my relationship with my brother," Gon crawls on top of Killua and kisses him.

"You ruined my perfect grades," Gon kisses Killua's neck and leaves a trail of bite marks and hickeys. Killua moans when Gon hits his sweet spot.

"You ruined my friendship with Kurapika and Oreo," Killua groans out and frantically takes off Gon's shirt and pants.

"You ruined my relationship with Mito," Gon takes off Killua's shirt and pants and throws them to the side. Killua stares up at Gon with a mix of complete hatred that could burn cities down and such love that Gon only sees in his grandmother or Mito.

"You ruined me," Killua moves so now he's on top of Gon. Killua strokes Gon's hard member through his boxers with a smirk. "Only I can touch you this way! Okay?"

"Ahhh~," Gon moans which was cut off by a sloppy kiss from Killua. "S-Shut up baka! You ruined m-me!" Killua pulls off Gon's underwear causing Gon's face to go bright red.

"Awwwwww Gon... you're sadly mistaken," Gon looks to Killua angrily as Killua kisses down Gon's torso. 'I hate him so much. I hate how he makes me feel. Why can't I get enough of this though?' Gon thinks as he grips the sheets once Killua takes in Gon's length. Gon arches his back and moans loudly at Killua's expert tongue on his member. Gon could feel himself about to come and grips the sheets even tighter. Killua bobs his head and deep throats Gon.

"Ahhhh~" Gon covers his mouth. "I-I'm..." he tries through his fingers. Before long he releases into Killua's mouth. Killua takes a second or two to swallow and shoots Gon a irritated look.

"Ew... that was fast," he kisses Gon roughly and grinds against him. "I hate you." 'Why can't I actually hate you though?' Killua asks in his head.

"I hate you more," Gon says breathlessly against Killua's lips. Killua slides his own boxers off and plays with Gon's lips piercings with his tongue.

"I hate you more than that," Killua states as he lines his member up with Gon's entrance.

"Impossible."

"I make it possible," Killua was about to go in dry when Gon remembered something. "Wait!" Gon reaches over and gets a bottle of lube out of his nightstand. "Here," Killua looks at the bottle as if he's never seen anything like it before.  "Yes, you're using it!" Killua rolls his eyes and squirts some out. He puts some on his member as Gon lays back down.

"Happy?" Gon nodds. Killua suddenly thrusts into Gon causing Gon to yelp in pain. It was really painful for him at first but after awhile he got use to it. The painful thrusts turned more and more pleasurable to him with time.

"Ouch..." Gon moans loudly. 'I'm surprised Mito hasn't said anything,' Gon thinks with a smirk. 'Oh well,' Gon throws his head back. Killua shuts down Gon's thoughts with another passionate kiss leaving a string of saliva between their mouths.

"G-Gon... I'm g-going," Gon gets the picture and kisses Killua. Gon could feel how sore his lips were but didn't care. He continued to kiss Killua and before they knew it they both came. "Gon," Killua moans out and released inside of Gon.

"Ugh," Killua pulls out and lays next to Gon. "You should clean this up." Gon says after a few moments of silence and kissing.

"Whatever happened to treating the guest," Gon lays his head on Killua's bare chest.

"I don't care. Can you please-" Gon felt himself leaking. Killua looks down at him amused and let him suffer just a little while longer.

"Fine," Gon points to his bedside drawer and there's a towel. "You're all prepared," Killua raises a eyebrow and throws it at Gon face.

"S-Shut up! I hate you... I can't stand you!" He sits up and starts cleaning himself. "You're so annoying."

"I hate you too, boo!" Killua says and makes Gon blush. Killua crawls once again on top of Gon. "You're no cup of tea either."

"I'm tired I'm going to bed. A full day of torture is a lot," Gon rolls over and closes his eyes. Killua pouts in annoyance and lays next to him with their faces centimeters apart. "'Night idiot."

"'Night stupid," The look in Gon's eyes earlier told Killua that he didn't hate Killua. In fact it's quite the opposite. 'I love you too Gon,' Killua thinks and kisses Gon's forehead lightly.