"seventeen year old jeon jeongguk was found passed out in his home on october twenty second due to a suicide attempt caused by overdose. he spent the next couple of days in the hospital in a coma trying to get his stomach pumped from the excessive amount of pills before he was officially announced as dead-"

jimin switched off the television in the living room as he passed it on the way up to his room.

both of his parents warily watched their son as he started climbing up the stairs, not the slightest etch of an expression on his face.

with tired eyes he turned into his room, gently shutting the door.

it was no secret that he was affected by the death of the brunette haired boy he had always been so fond of.

everyone on the volleyball team was, even taehyung who had ruined him over his own selfishness of wanting jimin to be his own best friend, even though even he was smart enough to know jungkook needed him the most.

both hoseok and yoongi felt guilty of the locker room incident, knowing nothing of what the younger was going through.

seokjin was blaming himself constantly, feeling as though there was more he could've done and that he should've noticed jungkook wasn't just saying goodbye to leave the conversation, he was bidding farewell to leave his life.

namjoon was doing exactly what he promised to do, being there for jimin.

when they all first heard of the attempt, they all spent time together feeling awful, trying to come up with something to do for jungkook when he woke up and got to come home, but he didn't.

jungkook didn't wake up, and he didn't get to go back home.

the ethereal boy jimin thought was too good to be apart of their simple world, no longer was.

jungkook now lived in the puffy clouds in the day, and the shining stars at night.

he was the rays of sunshine shining down upon jimin as he dragged himself out of his house for fresh air, and he was also the glowing moonlight seeping into his windows as he laid wide awake trying to convince himself that he did all he could for the boy he once loved.

after the news got out that jungkook's heart finally stopped beating, the six teammates became distant- except for namjoon constantly stopping by jimin's house and holding him for hours while he cried- all too caught up on blaming themselves to want to be around each other.

jimin kicked off his shoes, laying down on his bed and facing one of the plain light blue walls of his room, a tear escaping his eyes before his eyelashes could catch it and prevent it from falling.

with a shaky breath, jimin grabbed his phone from his table, the left side of his face nuzzled into his pillow as he unlocked it.

-october twenty fifth

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jungkook

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i miss you

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i regret so much and it hurts

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i wanted to tell you so much and when i did it was too late

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i didn't even get to see your smile

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or hear your laugh

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or even get to really know you

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you pushed me so far to suicide

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that everyone was too busy watching over me

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to see the signs you were giving

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hoping someone would catch on and stop you

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and no one did

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in the end not even i did

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and now you're gone

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it hurts so bad

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but it also hurts knowing this is the only way you were ever going to be happy

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as a memory

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a memory that i will always cherish

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but will some day forget

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and i'm terrified of that day

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i'm terrified of forgetting you

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i want to always remember

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so one day

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when i also leave this world and join you in the sky

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maybe we can meet again

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maybe i'll finally get the chance to let you know

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that i love you jungkook
delivered 16:31

-october twenty fifth

yall i could have totally made a ghost sequel if i would have changed it to read instead lmao

yes this is the end and i'm sorry if you didn't like it

i didn't want to make jungkook dying a big deal n seem huge by making everyone sad n depressed forever n like make it seem like there's no moving on from it because i dont want to glorify suicide, however that is technically the whole buildup of this story

basically to answer some questions, all of them quit the volleyball team, jimin and namjoon end up together and taehyung refuses to forgive himself so he visits jungkooks grave daily to apologize, hoseok and yoongi go to university together and seokjin decides to move away, none of them (besides jimin and namjoon) really remain friends, more like strangers with history

i really hope you enjoyed and remember life is worth it and even if it doesn't seem like it things do get better, tell an adult if you're being abused or bullied or feeling suicidal, stay healthy everyone and remember there's life past depression