WARNING: R-18

I PUFFED THE SMOKE OUT OF MY MOUTH AS I WAS MOVING UP AND DOWN HIS LENGTH.

I closed my eyes tightly as I removed the cigarette from my lips. I heard him moan loudly as he buried his face against my neck. I bit my lower lip when I felt his hand come closer to the valley of my breast.

"Ahh..."

When I felt his face approaching my breast, my eyes immediately opened.I threw the cigarette away and grabbed his hair backward.

I hissed as I raised his head in my direction. "No sucking."

Nakita ko ang pagpungay ng mga mata niya bago marahas na pinisil ang kanang dibdib ko. I saw how his eyes looked at my breast before they met mine.

"Maybe you can make an exception?" His voice softened. "I want to taste those pink crowns on my tongue-"

Malakas na itinulak ko siya pahiga at inilagay ko ang aking kamay sa leeg niya. I can feel his length twitching inside of me, like it was aroused because of what I did. I saw how his eyes glistened with desire as he was looking at me. This bastard.

"I told you I don't like to be sucked! I am not your mother!" Naiiritang usal ko bago marahas na nagtaas baba sa kaniya. He moaned loudly as he supported my waist.

I can feel something building up inside of me as he was also pushing his dick inside of me roughly. I can't help but be distracted and moaned loudly as I felt reaching my orgasm. Fuck him.

"Oh! Dawn!"

I heard the noise of our bodies colliding with each other as we were both reaching our climax. I moaned loudly as I pushed myself up and down. His rugged breathing reached my ears, and I screamed when he pinched one of my nipples.

When we were done, I jumped up from him, and I felt his sperm dripping down my thigh. I really need to wash up. I have a shoot after this.

I was about to put on my bathrobe when I felt his hand holding mine. My eyebrow went up when I saw his serious expression. Pawisan ang katawan niya maging ang kanyang leeg at noo dahil sa makailang ulit naming ginawa iyon. Ano pa ba?

Sex.

Just sex.

"You're leaving already?"

Walang emosyon na tuluyan kong isinara ang bathrobe sa aking kahubadan. Nakita ko pa kung paano gumalaw ang mata niya pasunod sa pagsara ko doon.

"Yep."

Nagulat ako nang hinigpitan ni Jackson ang pagkakahawak niya. My brows went up as I was getting annoyed. Nakita ko ang pagdilim ng mukha niya.

"Dawn, I do not like this setup. I've already told you that."

"What the fuck are you talking about? Diretsuhin mo nga ako."

He sighed. "We've been doing this for months now, and I know there is a deep connection between us-"

I chuckled lightly before I harshly removed his hand from mine. "The only deep connection that we had was when your dick was inside of me."

Ano ba ang pinagsasabi ng lalaking 'to? The alcohol still didn't tone down on him I guess? Kasi kung hindi siya lasing, hindi niya sasabihin 'yan sa akin.

"Tigil-tigilan mo ako, Jackson. I'm not in the mood right now to talk about these... trivial matters." I rolled my eyes before I turned my back to him.

I only took three steps before I heard his voice again.

"So this is what you always do, huh? You just messed around with every guy you met-"

Nilingon ko siya bago ako ngumisi ng malaki.

"That was what I was here for. Sex lang. Sex lang ang gusto ko, Jackson." I sighed heavily. "If you're asking for more than what I can give, then I'm sorry."

Jackson's eyes became confused. "Sorry for what?"

Kinindatan ko lang siya. "Thank you for the steamy nights, but I can't fuck with you anymore. "

"What?!"

Hindi ko na siya pinakinggan bagkus ay mabilis na naglakad ako papalabas ng quarters room ng banda nila matapos kinuha ang susi ng sasakyan ko sa itaas ng drawer.

"Dawn! Dawn wait! That's not what I meant-"

"GO FUCK YOURSELF, DELA TORRE!" I shouted before I closed the door.

Napapailing na naglakad na ako papunta sa elevator. Alam ko na hindi niya ako mahahabol dahil wala siyang ni isang saplot. It will literally take minutes before he can even reach me.

Sayang. Gwapo siya. Malaki ang katawan. Hulmado ang mukha at magaling sa kama. Ang problema... gusto pa yata akong jowain ng gagong 'yon! As if naman na papayag ako!

I don't want those shitty romances. Those silly feelings will only lead you down a rabbit hole of deep shit. I do not want to give myself that kind of problem! Ang dami ko na ngang problema, dadagdagan ko pa ba?

Even though I was naked inside the bathrobe I was wearing, I am not bothered at all. Even though it was only three a.m., I knew tulog na lahat ng ka-banda niya. I thought it would just be a short session, but he was good, so I stayed longer than three hours, and he just gave me those snarky words.

Mga lalaki nga naman. You gave them everything you had, and they were not satisfied with what you could offer. They wanted more and in the end? They will leave you with nothing.

Ganoon naman sila.

Ganoon naman silang lahat.

Kaya mas mabuting gamitin ko nalang sila for my own gain and satisfaction than them using me first. Uunahan ko na. Using them really gives me a thrill. like I was on a roller coaster ride, of course.

There was so much more to life than what they referred to as "romance." Heck! You can do whatever you want and explore the deepest desires in your heart. Falling in love will only make it more difficult for you to pull yourself together because, if you fall in love, siguradong uubusin ka. Lahat-lahat ng nasa iyo.

I will not be fooled by the same mistake three times because I already know the price I have to pay for all of it.

I drove away from the apartment building and maneuvered the car at full speed like I was racing. I was stressed out earlier, but now I just found myself smiling like an idiot while feeling the rush of blood into my veins as I was stepping hard onto the accelerator.

When I arrived at my apartment complex, I was holding my head when I saw someone standing in front of my apartment door. His hands were both placed inside his pockets while he stared at me like he was going to eat me alive. Halata na galit ito sa akin.

I just smiled and raised my hand. "Hi. "

Hindi siya nagsalita bagkus ay may nagsalubong ang kilay niya at nagtagis ang kanyang bagang habang nakatingin sa akin. Mas dumilim lang ang mukha niya nang titigan niya ang suot ko.

"How come you're dressed like that at this hour? Saan ka galing?"

I sighed heavily before I rolled my eyes. Still the "super strict" manager act? Fine.

Naglakad ako papalapit sa kaniya at namewang sa kanyang harapan. Despite his eyes piercing like daggers into mine, I couldn't help but smile.

"Hello, Papi."

I saw how his eyes squinted and his hands formed into a fist. Galit siya? Okay lang. Wala naman akong pakialam doon. Sanay na ako sa pagiging nagger niya.

I mockingly encircled his neck with my hand and whispered. "Galit ka ba?"

I looked at him for a moment, perplexed when, after he closed his eyes, he became solemn... calm. Nakita ko ang pagbuntong-hininga niya ng malalim bago unti-unting lumapit sa akin.

"No, but I knew you were at the bar last night."

I touched the tip of his nose before I sighed heavily.

"I was just so stressed out, Gill. Alam mo naman siguro na nag-away na naman kami ni Mama, right?"

Gillen moved in front of me before tapping my head; his eyes were staring right at my face for a few moments.

"Matulog ka na. You have a shoot tomorrow." I was shocked when he went to get the bag out of my hand and opened my unit.

Anong nangyayari sa kaniya? I really thought he would be mad at me. Alam ko na alam niya na kasama ko si Jackson. Those paparazzi at the club already had a picture of us together leaving the club. Imposible naman na hindi niya iyon makikita eh kahit accounts ko ay siya ang humahawak.

Sumunod ako papasok sa loob ng apartment ko at agad na hinanap ng mga mata ko ang lalaki. I didn't see him in the living room, so I went to the kitchen, and he was there. His back was facing mine, and it looked like he was doing something.

Kumunot ang noo ko. He's supposed to go back to his house at this hour. I knew he couldn't function well in the morning if he hadn't gotten enough sleep at night.

"Ano 'yan?"

Hindi siya nagsalita nang humarap siya sa akin hawak ang isang mug. He stirred it with a spoon before walking onto the table. Napahinto ako ng makita na may isang platito roon na may blue berry cheesecake. I immediately smelled the hot chocolate in the air.

"Eat and drink this before going to bed, brat."

"Ba't ang bait mo ngayon? You're supposed to scold me-"

"Just be thankful." Masungit na usal nito bago ako nilampasan. Pinanood ko lang siya na kunin ang jacket niyang itim sa itaas ng cupboard bago siya naglakad palabas ng kusina. 

"Wala man lang pa-kiss?"

I didn't hear anything from him but when I heard the door of my apartment close, I couldn't help but smile.

Kahit hindi ko siya maintindihan, I am always grateful for him. Siya lang kasi ang nakakayanan ang topak na meron ako. Many would say that my attitude was the opposite of my angelic face. Mabuti sana kung may pakialam ako kaso ay wala.

Maganda lang ako, hindi ako mabait.

Even though I am tired, I just found myself happily eating the blueberry cheesecake and sipping the hot cocoa he prepared for me. Akalain mo nga naman. May bait din palang tinatago sa katawan ang lalaking 'yon.

***

[Where the hell are you, Dawn?! ]

Agad na inilayo ko sa aking tenga ang aking cellphone nang marining ko ang malakas na boses ng babae sa kabilang linya. Base sa seryoso niyang boses ay alam ko na agad na galit ito.

"Ahm... Hi?"

[Anong hi? Shuta nasaan ka na ba? Akala ko ba sasamahan mo ako sa isang event ngayon?]

I rolled my eyes. Tangina. Kung maka-request naman itong si Olive ay akala mo binibili ang oras ko. "Tinatamad ako eh-"

[Dawn! I swear to God! Kung mag-isa lang akong pupunta ngayon ay kakalbuhin kita! Tara na! Isusumbong kita kay Sam! Sige ka!]

Tumawa lang ako. Nakakatuwa talagang inisin ang babaeng 'to. "Magsumbong ka. Samahan pa kita eh-"

[Huwag mo akong hinahamon! Sasabihin ko talaga na nalasing ka noong nakaraan tapos ikaw ang sumira noong laptop niya na akala niya ay nahulog lang sa mesa-"

Iritang bumangon ako sa kama ko. "Fine! You bitch! Don't ever tell her that! She's scary because her laptop broke! Mabuti nalang at nakaalis ako agad!"

I heard her laugh on the other line, which makes me irritated. This bitch really knows how to blackmail me!

[So okay na ha? Sandali lang naman ang event. Aaalis nalang tayo kapag hindi na natin feel ganon lang. Sige na. I'll just finish my shoot.]

"Alright, ingat ka."

[Okay. Bye. Love you!]

Napahawak nalang ako sa aking sentido. Ang makulit na 'to. "Fine. Love you."

Tamad na naglakad ako papunta sa banyo para maligo. Gusto ko pa naman sanang matulog lang ngayong hapon kasi maaga natapos ang shoot ko kaninang umaga. Kung hindi ko lang talaga mahal ang bruha na 'yon.

I quickly took a shower and dressed in a fitted red dress with a slit on my right leg up to my thigh. I just let my hair fall up on my chest, and I just fixed my bangs on the front. I wore some pieces of my gold jewelry before I decided to put on makeup and red lipstick from Mac. I also wore my expensive red Christian Louboutin pumps, which I got last Christmas from Paris.

I looked at my reflection in the mirror, and I winked at myself. 

Tangina. Ang ganda ko talaga.

I just brought a small silver clutch bag with me na ang laman lang ay small wallet, pack of cigarettes and a lighter, phone, lipstick at isang box ng condom. Mabuti nang handa. Safety first.

I exited my apartment and walked toward the parking lot of the apartment complex where I live. I clicked my car key before bending down to kiss my car.

"I'll use you for today, Midnight!" I whispered to my car before opening the door and driving away.

Nasa entrada palang ako ng lugar ay parang gusto ko nang umuwi sa dami ng mga paparazi na nakaabang.

"Dawn!"

Agad na napatingin ako kay Olive ng tawagin niya ang pangalan ko. I gave her a smile before walking in her direction. Niyakap niya agad ako at hinalikan sa pisngi bago ako binulungan.

"Gaga ka akala ko ay hindi mo na ako sisiputin! Gigil na mga reporters dito eh! Kanina pa ako ginigisa kasi ang tagal mo."

Napatawa ako dahil doon bago umangkla sa braso niya. "Sure naman ako na dinaldal mo din!"

Humagikhik si Olive. "Siyempre! Anong silbi ng ganda ko tonight!"

Naiiling na naglakad kami papasok ng building. There was even a red carpet where many paparazzi took our pictures. Hilaw na ngumiti nalang ako at kumaway. Nagmamadaling pumasok kami dahil napapagod an ako kakangiti. The place was packed with different personalities, artists, and models from the industry. Halos mahilo ako sa dami ng tao. 

May dumaang waitress na may hawak ng champagne kaya't kumuha kami ni Olive. I was sipping my champagne as my eyes wandered around. Siyempre ano pa bang gagawin ko dito? Of course, looking for a hot prospect is something I enjoy doing.

Sight seeing ng mga tite ganon.

"Dawn, mauna ka na sa table natin ha. Babalik ako agad. Tinext kasi ako ni Geo may sasabihin daw. "

Tumayo na siya kaya't tumango nalang ako. I rolled my eyes as I finished the champagne in one gulp. Tamad na hinanap ko ang number 18 na table kung saan naroon ang mga pangalan namin ni Olive. Natigilan nga lang ako at bahagyang tumikwas ang aking kilay nang makita doon ang isang babae na putok na putok ang pisngi na parang binugbog ng sampung diablo. Makapal ang pulang labi nito at luwa ang dibdib sa suot na silver gown.

Tanginang bruha 'to.

I confidently walked in her direction, and I saw how everyone at the table and nearby stopped what they were discussing. I flashed my sweetest smile at Maicy, whose smile was fading on her lips.

Maicy Sebastiano.

Ang babaeng mukhang hinugot ng buhay mula sa impyerno. Nauna nga lang ang mukha kaya ganito ka-putok.

"What are you doing here, you bitch?"

Nakita ko ang pagsingkit ng mga mata niya na ikinatuwa ko.

"Of course, I am invited, duh?" I flipped my hair before I gazed at her. " Hindi naman sinabi sa akin na may panget palang a-attend dito. Sana hindi nalang ako nag-effort. "

Nakita ko agad ang pamimilog ng mga mata niya bago galit na tumayo sa aking harapan. Habang tinitingan ko ang mukha niya ay mas nagiging alien siya sa paningin ko.

She scoffed and looked at me from head to toe. " Huh! If I know you, you'll always find a way to be here. Hindi ka ba na-inform na para lang sa mga desente ang party na 'to?"

I laughed and looked at her disgustingly. "Ahh... desente? So you think you're still decent after I saw you fuck that hotel staff during our Milan shoot? Really? "

Silence filled the table before I heard whispers and gasps. Nakita ko agad na namumula sa galit at hiya si Maicy na ngayon ay gigil na nakatitig sa akin.

"Sinungaling ka!" She looked at the people near us, who must have heard what I said. "I-It's not true, okay? She was just saying a nonsense thing to ruin me!"

Tinatamad na pinagmasdan ko lang siya na kinakabahan. "Excuse me, bakit naman kita sisirain kung wala ka ngang career in the first place? Sino ka ba para pag-aksayahan ko ng oras, duh? Ano ka? Tite?"

"BITCH!"

I just winked at her before I turned my back. I walked away with grace, still hearing commotion behind me. Mas malakas nga lang ang boses ng mga reporters na ngayon ay ginigisa na ng mga tanong si Maicy na nagsisisgaw na tinatawag ang pangalan ko.

"Dawn Pepper!"

I groaned lightly when I saw Olive's shocked face from afar after calling my name. Nanakbo ito papalapit sa direksyon ko bago ako kinurot sa tagiliran.

"Ano ba?! Ba't ka nangungurot diyan!"

Bumusangot ang mukha nito. "Gaga ka! Wala pang five minutes na iniwan kita, naghanap ka na ng gulo. "

I rolled my eyes and looked for the waiter who had brought champagne earlier. Gusto ko pa no'n. Pampagana ng gabi.

"Yung diablong 'yon naman ang naghahanap ng away, duh!" Narinig ko ang paghalakhak ni Olive. She decided that we should sit in the other part of the hall with some actresses she knew.

Bored lang na nakaupo ako sa tabi ng kaibigan ko na nakikipagdaldalan sa mga kakilala niya pero nakahawak-kamay naman sa akin at paulit-ulit akong chinecheck dahil nakakailang baso na ako.

I decided to excuse myself after two hours because I was so bored. Nagpaalam nalang ako kay Olive na iihi ako pero ang totoo ay mayo-yosi ako sa likurang bahagi ng venue. I walked towards the backdoor, and I winked at the security who was there.

When I was finally outside, the cold air touched my face, and I breathed heavily. Walang katao-tao ang likuran at rinig ang malakas na musika mula sa loob.

I quickly reached into my bag for a cigarrette and the skull-shaped lighter Olive had given me for Christmas last year. Nakita niya daw kasi iyon sa isang antique shop at mukhang ka-vibes ko daw kaya binili niya. Loka-loka talaga ang isang 'yon pero mahal ko naman. Duh.

Inilagay ko ang sigarilyo sa aking bibig bago sumandal pader. My head rested against the wall as I lighted the cigarette, looked up, and then exhaled the smoke.

Ahh, at last. The kind of peace that I wanted.

Nakakailang buga pa lang yata ako ng usok ng aking sigarilyo nang makarinig ako ng malalakas na halinghing na nagmula sa kung saan. It was followed by several loud, exhaling gasps that appeared to be panting for air. Parang kinakatay kung maka-ungol.

"Ohh... fuck! Ah! Ah!"

Sunod-sunod na malalakas na pag-ungol ang narinig ko hindi kalayuan sa akin kasunod nito ang iilang mga pagkaluskos. I quickly removed my cigarette from my mouth and held it in my hand as I searched for the source of the noise.

"Ahh... m-malapit na ako... H-huwag mong tigilan-ah!" Malakas na pagsalita ng isang babae.

I heard a male voice. "Shh... someone might hear you, Tara."

Kahit madilim ay tinalunton ko ang isang makitid na daan. Napahinto ako nang makarinig muli ng mabibilis na paghinga bago malakas na pag-ungol ng isang matinis na boses at isang mababang boses.

I realized something.

Wow. They're fucking outside.

Napailing nalang ako at babalik na sana nang may babaeng naka-maikling dress na nagmamadali na lumabas sa kung saan at nanakbo papunta sa venue kanina. Malapit pa akong mabangga ng gagang 'yon!

Natatawang pinanood ko siya na pilit na inaayos ang maliit niyang black mini dress at bra na mukhang hindi pa naayos habang tumatakbo. Tingnan mo nga naman! Basta tite! Kahit saan, sige ng sige!

I put the cigarette back in my mouth before I puffed the smoke again. Atleast hindi naman boring ang gabi ko. Inapakan ko agad iyon.

I curiously looked in the direction from which she came, and I haven't seen the guy she was with yet.

Bakit hindi niya pa sinusundan ang syota niya?

Napangisi ako ulit. Tonta. Mukhang hindi niya syota tinira niya. Tangina. Mga lalaki nga naman.

I made the decision to move into the area where the woman had first appeared, and when I did, my mouth dropped open to see someone holding his own dick and softly massaging it while still exhaling loudly.

I saw how the sweat was dripping on his jaw, and I do not know why, but I was... turned on when his jaw clenched.

Fuck.

I saw the twitching of his long, thick penis as he softly caressed it. He was dressed in a white long-sleeve polo shirt and slacks. He turned his gaze to me, and my eyes widened in shock.

Nagtama ng ilang segundo ang mga mata naming dalawa. He had his lips open and was breathing heavily as he stared at my face. He looked to be drowsy or otherwise tired because of his droopy eyes.

"Wow, so right now that I'm drunk, I'm seeing an angel? Hayop na 'yan!" He chuckled. "Kukunin mo na ba ako? Kaka-langit ko palang eh!"

I was confused as to what he was talking about. Our eyes met quickly because my gaze returned to his dick, but I can see veins popping out of it, and I realized it was even harder now than before.

"Wait a minute... ang l-laki." As I took a deep breath, I mumbled loudly. It was not my first time seeing a dick this big, but wow, I'm impressed. Bilang nalang kasi ang mga gwapong may malaking mga tite ngayon.

"H-huh?"

"Gago ka! Ba't lumaki 'yang tite mo?!" I shouted at him.

Nakita ko ang ilang beses na pagkurap niya na parang iniintindi ang sinabi ko bago biglang nanlaki ng mga mata niya.

"A-ay pucha! Tangina tao pala!" He freaked out as he was hurriedly picking up his pants from the ground.

I couldn't stop laughing when he panicked like an idiot.

Tangina. What a night!