he found a place for us to stay for the night a night cozy motel." alright lets go" I smile weekly as we step out of the car. we walk towards the entrance when I look over at jax " one sec" I start rummaging through my bag until I find my wallet "aha" I pull it out swiftly and start walking again.  jax seemed awfully quiet " hey um spencer?" I looked over at him his voice was so soft it was almost hard to hear "yeah?" "how come you never let me meet your parents?" I tensed  up not knowing what to say "well.. because they're not very nice people" he looked at the ground "oh" I herd the sadness in his voice oh god he probably thinks I don't trust him enough or something " listen im sorry.. I just didn't want you to get hurt" he looked up at me in slight shock "get hurt" I was expecting him to yell at me for making stupid excuses but he never did I sigh " yes get hurt" and before he can say anything else we were inside the building. the lady at the front desk had strawberry blonde hair with lowlights pulled back into a neat bun she had navy blue eye shadow on and bright red lipstick her teeth were white a couple of them crooked but other than that the others were completely straight. she looked over at us and smiled" hello there how may I help you?"  he voice was like silk "oh um we'd like a room please what do you have available?" she looked down  at her computer typing something in swiftly then looks back up at us "we have one room available it has a queen size bed will that be alright?" I smile "yes thank you" I look over to see jax glare at me whoa what did I do? I pay the lady he she hands us the key card and giggles "oh young love" I pretend to gag and jax punches me in the arm I laugh and push him over. he falls to the floor with a loud thud I look over at him getting up and running to the room " oh no" I whisper to myself as I get up running after him "jax wait!!"  he just speeds up "you can hit me if you want!!"he stops dead in his tracks turning around and walking towards me he puts his  hand up and I flinch and he just stands there I stare up at him "YOU HONESTLY THOUGHT I'D HIT YOU?!?!?!" he screamed at me. I was holding back tears "well isn't that what everyone does?" I whisper he just seemed to be even more angry "I WOULD NEVER STOOP THAT LOW!!!" I sat there staring up at him until he grabs me by the collar pulling my up to his face and through gritted teeth says " I cant believe you think I'd actually hit you you're so stupid" I feel my face get hot as I push him off me "I can't believe I thought I could actually trust you.." he stared at me as I got up running towards the room. I quickly open the door running to the bathroom slamming the door and locking it. I herd his heavy foot steps and breathing " spencer I'm sorry" I just held my breath he knocked against the door gently and in a soft voice say "spencer im sorry" I began to softly cry. I could hear him trying to unlock the door I hear  a small pop and the door start to slide open until it hits me. I just keep my heads in my knees as I feel jax wrap his arms around me. 

*** jax pov***

she felt so fragile like at any moment she would shatter so delicate. she cried into my chest I rubbed her back slowly "it's okay" I whisper I feel her start to cry harder. she's been through a lot it's not her fault I shouldn't have snapped at her this is all my fault. she looked up at me her eyes red and puffy I wiped away a few of her tears when she spoke her voice was shaky and weak " I'm sorry" she took a deep breath " I really do trust you" she smiled weekly and I smiled back a kissed her cheek "it's fine I know you didn't mean it we were both just frustrated" I seen her look away, I could tell she was still mad so I picked her up carrying her to the bed setting her down gently "I'm sorry". she looked over at me "don't be you opened my eyes to the reality that I wasn't live a "normal" life" she made air quotes with her fingers and put her hands in her lap and stared down at them "listen spencer" I paused thinking about what to say "you didn't have to suffer alone and you wont have to anymore I'm always here for you" she looked up at me teary eyed " I love you and I'm always here for you" she smiled and wrapped her arms around me "I-I always thought you hated me" I tensed up a little picking her chin up and smiling "I could never hate you"  she smiled weekly "now lets get ready for bed" she nodded getting up and going into the bathroom and changing. when she came out she was in a band tee shirt and small black shorts she had a few scars on her thighs I pointed and looked up at her " what happened" she looked away pulling down her shorts "nothing" I just got going into the bathroom

***spencer's pov***

I got nervous I cant tell him what really happened he'd freak out and I'd rather just wait to tell him I hopped into bed and waited for him to get out of the bathroom . he came out in basket ball shorts and a tee shirt he smiled getting into bed "you stay on your side got it?" he just nodded rolling over sleep finally had caught me in its grasp

**dream**

I just sat there blank faced as he was strangling me "daddy please" I whisper as he smacks my head against the wall again I feel the blood trickle down my neck. " you always were a disappointment" he dropped me and I gasped for air staring down at the sky blue tiles seeing my blood pouring down onto them. that's when I felt the sharp burning pain in my side I looked down seeing the knife planted into my side I gasped looking over at my father. he laughed in my face my mother still pounding on the door wildly " daddy I thought I could trust you" I whisper. he laughed again " trust gets you killed in the real world so I'm saving you that pain" I herd the door crash open as my mother seething with rage walked in. she punched him in the face breaking his nose and then kicking him in the stomach as he falls to the ground she rushes over to me picking me up "everything will be okay baby girl" her face and ribs were bruised badly she had a small stream of blood falling from her lips, even then she didn't cry. she got into the car me still in her lap she began to drive away to the hospital when I feel her slam on the brakes.

**end**

I shot up hyperventilating I felt jax wrap his arms around me "hey are you okay" his voice was groggy "yes now go back to bed" I watched him hesitantly lay back down I sigh laying back down "why now?"

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hey guys just wanted to say thanks for reading^^ did you like seeing things through jax pov? should I do that a little more often? let me know what you guys think and thanks again for reading this chapter ^^