As always play the song above (iz a gay song :3)

HELLO THERE 👀

I KNOW THAT PRIDE MONTH ALREADY PASSED...BUT FUCK IT I JUST FELT LIKE MAKING THIS CHAPTER SO YOU'RE WELCOME.

ALRIGHTY, THIS CHAPTER IS GONNA BE MORE OF A DISCUSSION/EDUCATION THAN A CRACK FEST.
I'd really appreciate it if you guys leave comments on the things that I discuss, I'd like to see your view on things. (Participation appreciated)

AS SOME OF YOU REMEMBER I POSTED THIS A WHILE AGO

I posted that, when I was out talking to another LGBTQ+ member and it hit me...I never gave a fuck about my sexuality.

And by "never gave a fuck" I mean that I never really thought about it in depth. Yesterday was the first long conversation I have ever actually had about my sexuality and I came to the realization that people are too consumed by it.

I know people that are so consumed by the fact that they're gay or bi that their actions and personalities are literally centered around their sexual orientation and that's just dumb.

Now some are consumed subconsciously, they do things without realizing them and those are usually caused by some sort or trauma or phobia of no acceptance.

But the people that do it on purpose are the biggest attention whores ever. I am fully aware that coming out can be a horrifying journey, but for people that have no obstacles in their lives regarding coming out and make it such a big deal honestly need to get a head check.

Now on the topic of people that are actually struggling to be accepted and to come out. I understand and you're all so strong for coming so far and you should know that no matter what you're loved by someone.

Moving on to my sexuality for those that are curious.

Getting one thing straight...I'm not (always wanted to make that joke)

For those of you that don't know, I'm pansexual, in other words I'm down to fuck anyone no matter their gender lmao.

And about a year ago, I considered myself straight.

And about four years ago I was homophobic af lmao.

K let's start from the beginning.

Where I live, around ten years ago it was next to illegal to be gay, gay was an insult and everyone considered it as a "mental disorder".

Just imagine being "diagnosed" with a mental illness for just being yourself. Pretty much everyone supported the "it's wrong" idea and I believed that it was wrong too.

Why were people so unaccepting? Well, pretty much everyone was religious, everyone was taught to believe that it was unnatural. I even remember that in school we were taught that that was "wrong". And not just from the religious spectrum of things, but according to biology it was also " not natural". And just like any child living with a religious mom I followed the rules. (Tho I must mention that my mom never pushed her beliefs on me, she isn't an lgbt supporter, but she has said that in the end everyone is free to live their lives ❤)

But around the period of ninth grade...I changed, love is love no matter the gender.

I was a supporter for around 2/3 years. I have always acted gay tho lmao, not in any means to offend anyone on the contrary I admired LGBTQ+ people. Since I'm a very straight forward person I was often super touchy with my close female friends and they were too.

At the beginning of this year tho, I started gaining an interest in girls sexually, (lmao that sounded so creepy).

And around two months ago I met a girl that literally turned me gay lol. (If ya know me well enough you know who I'm talking about). Before I met her I was down to try things with girls yes, since I'm really opened when it comes to sexual stuff, but after meeting her...I needed to have her- k keeping it PG lmao.

Oh and if y'all are confused why I'm pan instead of bi (since I only talked about a girl), I'd have no problem being with a non binary person either.

It honestly feels so right to say that I'm pan.

Oh and if you're curious, no my family doesn't know about it, I honestly see no need to tell them since it's something more personal I guess, plus this way I'm avoiding meaningless fights. If I do end up with someone of the same gender they'd just have to accept it, if they want me to be happy. (Don't get this wrong I still love them)

Alrighty, tbh I don't know why I made this chapter exactly since I don't care about my sexuality much and it's legit like the last thing that defines me but oh well.

Hope this was entertaining in any way.

Remember...I'm under your bed ;) or closet-

Till next time my children.

Ly byeeeeeeee 😘