Sae opened her eyes to too bright sunshine.

Fingers curling into unfamiliar white sheets as the entire situation crashed into her consciousness from her subconscious where it had been prowling for her to wake.

Previous memories which had resulted in bruises, aching limbs and tears flashed through her mind like movie reel pulled too fast than normal, too accelerated. And along with each scene, each painful moment came a thousand emotions that had her back arching and gasping as though somebody had physically landed a blow on her spine.

She was aware of her tears, their paths down her cheeks and the rough hands on her cheeks that had her flinching curling into her blankets. The hands hesitated then, they didn't find her under the blankets and she felt for a second before her cruel mind returned in full swing, working against its own as it tortured Sae with consequences that she would have to face, memories of punishment and her own self-loathing.

Hot flashes made her thrash around, not knowing to slip out of the suffocating blankets or shield herself. She was gasping for breath, sweat clinging too heavy on her skin, the balminess making it worser, her throat parched and dry enough that instead of screams only whimpers and hoarse breath could be let out. Every color around her, pastel and bright, merges and convulsed into this black hole of anxiety and oblivion that made her feel like she couldn't stay in her in this world, being swept away by the force of it.

"If you..."

Then, as softly as a midsummer night's breeze, a hum started from the black hole. It slowly rose up as if gathering confidence.

"If you are struggling like I am, then why cant we be together?"

It was a lullaby, a raging storm, there were no sensical syllables or it was just Sae's mind just not processing. But she could make the insistent hum, the breathy tune and that deep voice, almost as though a serene silence in the dark storm. Her own paradise.

"she is leaving, and I cant do anything.."

The hum reared and slowly rose and rose and crashed into the tidal waves of her memories except that this time, it washed over her comforting and reassuring.

"Love is leaving and like a fool..." It taught her to breathe, it made her think of nebulas and doe bright eyes. "I'm just blankly standing here..."

As her panic edged away leaving deep exhaustion, she reached for a hand she knew would be there. A hand she knew that would never leave her, a voice that would always comfort her.

"I remember the old times, I remember you."

"Ju.." She rasped still partially blind from over stimulation yet trying so hard to just feel him, just a bit before finally giving into the ignorant bliss of sleep. "Kook.."

Just a bit of skin against hers, just a bit more of his voice, just one more second she found herself wishing and for once her wishes were granted.

"Noona." A gentle palm against her's, rubbing and thumbing soothingly and she found herself smiling as sleep dragged her down.