The Son of Man must suffer greatly and be rejected by the elders, the chief priests, and scribes, and be killed and on the third day He raised... If anyone wishes to come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow Me.

Luke 9:22-23
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Jesus said to his disciples, "I command you, that you love one another. If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love it's own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I choose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you."

John 15:17-19
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I'm not perfect. I am also a sinner but I'm trying to do good and obey the commanments of God. I started preaching the God's words and verses. Time came that I took my own cross. Like Jesus Christ, I felt the suffering too but I can't hold it too long. Suffering for me is the end of the world. Maybe because this is a culture of human. I beg God to end my suffering.

I am too emotional. Hated by my friends because I corrected their doing is too much painful for me. One bad word from them is a venom in my heart. I am not strong to hold on and accept the hurtful words. I started felt alone. I felt depression and lead into angry. I felt betrayed that cause for me to put a wall between myself to them. I knew that this is not a right thing to do. Jesus said, "love your enemies." Loving them is the hardest thing to do. Time heal but I cannot forget.

The only medicine that can heal my heart is to pray and forgive. That makes me whole again. This is sad and not good for being his follower but I always try my best to walk beside Him.
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Lord, forgive me if I can't take up my own cross in too long. Please give me a strong heart to accept the hurtful words. Give me wisdom to understand them. So that, I can walk with you and can feel the hevies of our sin. Amen.

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Deuteronomy 30:15-20 • Psalm 1:1-4, 6 • Luke 9:22-25 • John 15:17-19