Chapter 7

I stare in the hallway of my mind palace; stars look back at me.

It's a strange feelings to look through your own mind.

And as I do look down the hallway of my memories I'm entranced by those stars, I walk towards them.

My hands runs along the wall and occasionally hit a door, then a moment later my hand runs along smoothness once more.

I start to run, but I'm not getting any closer. I just run faster and faster and faster.

The world stops, I fall through the ground. My back arches involuntarily as my hands shoot out in an attempt to find purchase, or maybe some semblance of balance.

But I don't scream.

I just fall and for once I feel no fear, emotion falls away and peace strikes.

The air wipes my hair from my calm, very pale, face. I stop struggling. A small smile comes to rest on my face. At last the end, but it isn't the end, it never will be.

I star to increase in speed, I must be close to the ground.

My moment of tranquil peace is over just as suddenly as it had started as my feet finally last somewhere.

It's some kind of war torn- no, not war torn, storm torn.

I gasp out in sudden shock as I start to feel winds ambling towards me. Thought they seem to be pretty far off, I don't think they will be for long.

The storm will try to kill me, I come to understand. It will take me whole, swallow me up and end me.

Some storm is going to end, I think with all to much shock.

I look around somewhat frantically, searching for something, anything, to hide behind. Anywhere to run to.

I start out at a sprint. Damn my genes. I have to drink Vampire blood and get none of the perks.

I'm going as fast as I can go and it's still not fast enough. I try to move faster.

I look back towards the great mass of wind and debris and I come to a sudden halt as I fall, my ankle twisting, now trapped under some sort of metal thing.

The storm grows stronger still. I hear trees crash with a fever I have never known.

If I had any hope before, I certainly don't now. I close my eyes for a brief moment. Grief overcomes next as I wholly allow emotion to overtake me.

I start to cry for the first time in a very long time. Wet streaks burn at my cheeks. I failed Arsetti. Rini, the twin who had always been my better half. My meek, quit, little slip of a mother. Lyra, the sweet girl who loved to sing to me when I was sad. Bex who seemed to have a heart of ice when we met, but a beautiful soul on the inside.

And I am going to die before I could have saved the legacy of them.

Another failure.

For another split moment in time fear starts to course through me; will I be denied the mercy of seeing my family in the life after the this because of my monumental failure?

I try my best to calm down, death has always been the road I've walked. And that road has served me well.

I breath in and out. In and out. In and out. In and out. In and out. In and out.

I slow down, it's almost here a moment stretches into a thousand as I wait

I start to hum a low melody, one Lyra would have approved of, one she had sung to me many times before.

Rain starts to come down in heavy, violent, droplets and I hum louder, trying to block everything else out.

My head falls back. The notes pick up. The wind is so close. The rain shreds at my sanity. The world falls apart. My body is ripped from its place. The tears start anew. The humming stops. Blackness darts at my vision.

I bolt up from my bed, soaked, with a twisted ankle, which I can't seem to feel. I touch my cheeks, they are wet too, but with salty tears.

I wipe them away, willing myself not to shed anymore.

I just stare at my hand, in shock.

Crying is the most normal things I've grown in awhile, the most human thing.

I put my head back down and fall quickly back into sleep.

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