Media- so. Zayn left and I'm still here and I will always be here no matter what. I stand behind Niall, Louis, Liam, Harry and Zayn, I stand behind our boys no matter what. lots and lots of love x

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warning: fluff c;

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"Hate?" Harry asked quietly, pulling Louis on top of him.

Louis smiled down at him and slowly nodded. Harry leaned up and kissed him on his lips. Louis sighed, and leaned his head against Harry's chest, while Harry's arms wrapped around his waist. "Everyone's going to think I'm stupid, and I am. I'm so so stupid," Louis mumbled.

Harry traced circles against Louis' skin at the back of his waist underneath his shirt. "You're not stupid,"

Louis snuggled his head closer against Harry, "I hated it when you weren't around and the fact that you didn't call, or try to, even though I said I never wanted to see you. Mostly, I hate the way I don't hate you...not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."

Harry looked at the snuggled Louis on his chest, and kissed his forehead. "Happy Birthday Lou," he whispered.

"We'll be okay, right Harry?" Louis mumbled, a small yawn escaping his lips.

"If you try, I try," Harry answered.

"No more lies?"

"No more,"

"Secrets?"

"Never again,"

A faint smile appeared on Louis' sleepy face, and he listened to Harry's heartbeat before he fell into a deep sleep.

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"You're going to f'cking hurt him again," someone shouted, Louis' eyes fluttered open, and he saw that he was on Harry's large bed, but Harry wasn't in the room. Standing up, he began to make his way out before there was another loud, familiar, shout. "No, Harry, f'ck you, you're always lying, and you expect me to believe you're finally going to change? Honestly, save your bull for someone who'll believe, where's Louis? I'm here to take him home, you know, after you f'cked every other relationship he had with others," Niall was shouting, at an angry looking Harry.

"Believe what you want Niall, like I give a damn about what you think, just don't go running off to my little brother," Harry shouted back. Louis made his presence known, and Harry's face immediately softened when their eyes met.

"Did I wake you? I'm sorry love," Harry said, and Niall grunted in disgust.

"Lou, you can't do this, not again. Honestly, it didn't work out the first time? The second time? You think he isn't lying this time, I know Harry and I know he lies no matter what. I don't want to see you getting hurt, come on Lou, you were doing so much better," Niall said turning to Louis.

Louis didn't say anything for a long time, with Harry and Niall looking at him expectantly, he was at a slight loss for the right words to say. "No, I wasn't getting better. If anything I was getting worse, and you don't think I don't know that? You don't think I don't know he could hurt me again? I can't live without him though Niall, I just can't, I need him with me. I rather be happy with him by my side than spend the night crying and wishing he was with me. I don't care anymore if he hurts me. Let him, I don't care, I'm done trying to refuse to have the one thing that has made me happy," Louis told him. He walked to Harry and took his hand, and Harry looked at him softly.

Niall shook his head, he looked like he was going to say something but instead sighed and looked away before he finally looked back at Louis. "Are you sure?"

"I'm positive, I just want to be with him," Louis replied.

Niall shook his head, bringing his hands to his face, "Okay, it's your life, f'cking hurt him again it'll be the last thing you do Styles," he shouted at Harry.

"I won't, I've learned already," Harry answered, rolling his eyes slightly. He didn't need Niall threatening him to know he won't be making another mistake with Louis ever again.

"Fine, Lou you want a ride home?" Niall asked.

"I'm going to stay for a little bit,"

"Okay," Niall turned to walk away. "I stand by what I said," he glared at Harry one last time.

Louis sighed, and looked down at his feet. Harry grabbed Louis' chin, tilting his head up. "I don't want you to walk away from me," he whispered.

"I won't, I really don't think I ever could walk away from you," Louis told him, his heart breaking because in reality it scared Louis.

It scared Louis so f'cking much because he just wants harry, and no one else. He wants Harry with all his flaws and his past, he wants Harry no matter what Harry did. Louis still wants him, he doesn't want Harry to walk away, and Louis himself could never part from him and that terrified him.

"It's so stupid how you could possibly do anything and I would still want to be with you," Louis murmured.

Harry tightened his hold around Louis, nuzzling his face against Louis' hair. "Don't hurt me, I don't think I could take it again," Louis told him. His voice breaking at the end got to Harry, he wasn't about to hurt Louis. Not if he could help it and never again on purpose.

"I'll change for you," Harry whispered.

"I don't want you to change, I fell in love with you, I just don't want to get hurt anymore, just don't hurt me,"

"I won't, trust me?" Harry said.

Louis chuckled, "Trust you? Always, just don't make me regret it,"

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/Harry/

I looked down at Louis, into his beautiful eyes that were the first to bring my attention to him in the first place. His voice that was like music to me since he first spoke.

What had I been thinking? How could I have hurt someone as beautiful as him? Again an again he trusted me and I just broke him.

F'ck the day I decided he'd be a great game piece. F'ck the day I ever decided to hurt him, I will never hurt him again.

Never.

I should have stopped all this since the day on the rooftop, when everything started spiraling out of control. But you don't think do you? Yeah I don't.

I'm so happy he forgave me, he won't regret it. I love him, or at least I think I do. I've never felt like this for anyone. He's the only one who's made me this crazy. The only one to ever make me feel so guilty over something I've done for years.

The past month has been hell, waking up to a cold bed. No familiar loud laugh and giggle, no soft cheeks to kiss, no familiar blush to kiss.

No Louis by my side.

I can't live like that, so now looking down at his beautiful face I know I will do anything to keep him by my side.

"Hungry?" I asked.

Like a child fresh away he nodded softly, and I leaned down and kissed his lips.

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Harry let Louis go and walked over to the kitchen, opening the fridge and grabbing some eggs. Louis jumped and sat down on the counter, crossing his legs and watched Harry cook.

"I've missed this," Louis said out of nowhere. "Like when you acted like this when no one is around, you act like yourself. Carefree and happy, not gloomy like you are when you're around Zayn or anyone else. You just seem so carefree when no one else is around,"

"I do?" Harry mused, scrambling the eggs.

"Yeah, why?"

"Because you're with me," Harry replied, without a bear and Louis looked down and blushed.

"Really?" Louis asked

"Well, no one else has said I've ever looked happy doing anything you're the first. You make me happy,"

"You make me happy too," Louis told him.

"I wouldn't hope for anything less," Harry said, walking over and leaning up to capture Louis' lips in his.

His phone buzzed on the counter, and Harry ignored it until he finally pulled away from Louis leaving them both breathless.

He checked the message and saw it was from Alexa. Rolling his eyes he typed back "leave me alone,"

A questioning look on Louis' face had Harry saying, "desperate bitches I swear,"

"You're the only one I wanna f'ck from now on, just you," he continued.

Louis raise his eyebrows, "you sure know your way into someone's heart with your words," he muttered sarcastically.

Harry got in between Louis' legs, placing his hands on Louis' waist. He picked him up and Louis cried out in surprise. Harry brought Louis closer to him and Louis wrapped his legs around Harry's waist.

"Fine than, you're the only one I want to make love to," Harry told him, biting down on Louis' lower lip.

"You're the only one I ever want like that," Louis whispered.

And so Harry's phone buzzed consecutively. And somewhere in Niall's flat, Louis phone vibrated too.

Harry didn't care though and Louis didn't even know.

all that mattered was that they were in each other's arms.

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A/n

So happiness...but for how long?

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