Sonakshi's pov:
Finally he went out and I just felt a heavy pain in my heart. I was thinking about dev. He was always comimg In my mind. I sat on the sofa. I felt like someone piercing my heart.
What was the reason I was living?

I wasn't able to digest these things further..... Why should I suffer This much? Who is going to need me?  For who I should suffer?  To satisfy someone's desire why should I live.

I decided to end my life..... I took a pen and paper. It's the last note I am writting...... But at the same time it will be my first letter to him. To the only man I love in this world. I don't know whether I could call him as my man But I only love you first in this world dev. The only person in my heart.

I wrote the letter......
To dev dixit (my hands trembled when I wrote his name)

Hey dev...... Well your the last person to read my last letter. You are a lovely person. Dev you have the power to be happy and to make others happy and you should be that more often you have the power to love.

I guess I should have died when my parents died itself but it's late. I can't live here after. I have a terrible past. I am not that sweet to be your wife. Nisha loves you dev. Please marry her and take this as my last wish from you.

At this moment I take your time to wish you a happy married life with nisha...... May you both have a peaceful life. Don't think you can name your female child my name. As I would feel bad according to me this name is painful. I don't want you to remember me. Why did we both meet Dev? Why were you so good to me?  Your just making death difficult for me.

Miss you dev...... It's a hard missing for me. Please don't try to know why I died. Please don't try to know my past as I wanted to be the sweet girl like how you think me to be.  (I was having a great difficulty in writing this letter. I was suffering a deep pain in my heart when I was able to look at his face in my imagination)

If you really loved me don't come after me.

When I die don't try to save me as I know only you could save me. When I take my last breath you please don't cry.  Some people come like this and go..... In your life I will be that someone who came and went like a thunder. I hope you don't have tears in your eyes.
  (I drew a smiley but I had lots of tears in my eyes..... That was making the paper wet.)

Don't cry,  simile my love. It's my time to go.... Bye dev

I love you I will always love you.

I ended my letter......I had no idea on how to delivery This letter. May be after I die when police starts their investigations about my death that time they would find and give this letter to him. I tied it with my cloth. The letter was safely in my shawl.

I went inside the kitchen..... Why should I cook for someone? Who I just know yesterday....... Thinking about those things were killing me. I held the knife to cut the vegetables but..... That turned into cutting my vein..... I need to stop my blood flow to my heart...... I successfully did it..... My hand was not paining as I had lots of pain in my hand...... Suddenly I lost my sense...... Everything around me was getting black....... I guess it's time for me to take a deep breath..... I lost my balance...... I head went down and banged in the steel pipe at the vessels washing area...... I feel down and placing my head down. Everything around me was revolving ...... I was about to shut my eyes but before that I saw the watch man coming running to me. I closed my eyes. I was only able to hear the watch man calling me to wake up but had no strength within me.

Its time to tell good bye to this world.

I felt few drops of water on my face .... Can't those people leave me at least to die happily. I got some stamina and stood up. The man tired to tie a knot around my hand and took me outside the house. I had no idea where he is taking me. I behaved like a crazy woman..... I want to die please leave me.... I said to that old man who was trying to save my life. I freed my hand as he was calling for a cab. I tried to open up the knot..... It was too tight..... Can't people around me atleast leave me to die happily.  I pulled the cloth as I wasn't able to remove the knot.....The white cloth fully turned red. Why am I not still dying? Mam please get inside the cab.... The old person said and pushed me inside. I had pain in my head as I fell on the ground with great force laying my head down.

He took me to the hospital where dev was admitted. I denied and begged him to take me somewhere else but that old man said this the only hospital which is near as  I need to be treated immediately. I was sat that I may get caught with dev but I was happy that I could know how he is now. As I moved in I saw nisha in the billing section paying money with dev...... He was looking fine. I felt happy to see him well. He was about to look at my side and I covered my face with a shawl...... Don't See Me dev..... As you won't allow me die and it's also difficult for me to die in front of you. I was about to leave from there and a pair of hands held me.

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