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Yoongi pov

Growling out of frustration I give up at trying to sleep, sitting straight up my mind wanders to think about rosé, where was she that whole day? , was she out planning something?

Yoongi try not to think badly

Maybe she skipping school with a friend.

No, her friends are here at school as they were all worried, yoongi

Sighing I take the covers off my body then grab my clothes from the couch and head to the bathroom to take a shower.

Yoongi you promise you would stay away from her, so own up to it why are you so worried about what she does?

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Rosé pov

Spraying my hair down with the leave-in conditioner I take a glimpse at myself in the mirror, sighing I roll my eyes.

Why did you even bother looking?

As I'm brushing my hair I overhear my parents talking about me and how they're taking me to the doctor to prescribe me with medication, honestly medication only solves it for a while and then they see you're not getting better they'll up your dosage, they're just out to make money.

I could use it too...

No, I want it to be painful.

I'm numb to it anyways why not?

Placing my brush in the brush holder on my counter , I fix my shirt wiping off all the falling strains of hair off , I grab the door handle then see my parents standing in the hallway, they turn around with a smile, acting as if I didn't hear them argue and refer to me as their " looney-tick daughter" , I walk past them without a word and I hear their footsteps behind me, packing my bookbag , I ignore them.

" so we've been thinking that you should go to the doctor to see what's wrong with you , because we don't know any other way to help you sweetie , the way you were snapping at me and the lady , was uncalled for , maybe you have anger problems? Or you're on your period "

" excuse me?" I flare up, how dare she blames me for going off when she does know that the real problem is her. " I had every right to snap at both of you cause you guys are stupid and delusional, you're too blind to see that your daughter is over here deteriorating little by little every day, she's not crazy she's not moody , she's hurting I have anxiety high anxiety mixed with depression and mind you it's high as well, but you guys refuse to see it ! " placing my bookbag on my back I walk past them " I guess you'll see it when I'm dead" I whisper

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Instead of heading straight to school I went by the place and I see him sitting there helping a young girl, but I can see right through her lies that she's pretending just to get his attention. He looks towards my direction and smiles with a wave.

I return it then sit at the table closet to the door, then I pull out my phone deciding should I text my friends that I'm not going to be there for homeroom nor first period, just when I'm about to send it he takes my phone out my hand. " dates with me this are unacceptable " he smiles , then I see his eyes light up like it's Christmas, how does your soul get that clean?

" fair enough " is all I could say

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Yoongi pov

Zoning out I'm not hearing anyone's shit right now the only thing I can think of is rose and how her face was so dark and dull, as if she meet someone out that day that crushed her even more than I did.

Maybe it was you yoongi

Maybe it is my fault

How does someone so beautiful get so much hate ? And so much disrespect, she deserves more then what life gives her she's a radiant angel , she shines among the stars and the moon.

"Yoongi!" Someone yells snapping me out of thinking I turn to see seokjin I ease him up and down then I scrunch up my nose

"What?" I say annoyed
" what are you thinking about? We're hanging out today at the karaoke bar wanna join?" Seokjin asks
Shrugging my shoulder " why not"

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Rosé pov

We sit on the empty grass eating the packed lunches he made , the sandwiches are amazing they're like a little sweet with peppers and it's the perfect combination in the world. I go to grab for a sliced cucumber and I feel his thumb on top of my lip as he brushes something off.

" sorry you had mayo on your lip" he says looking into my eyes
" now you tell me after I devoured that sandwich" I scoff , his response is just a chuckle , for a couple of minutes we just sat there and talked and eat , majority of the talk was asking about me and getting to know me I didn't know much about him, but I learned somethings about him.

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After our little picnic, we started walking throughout the woods here , it's so beautiful and peaceful almost like what you see in movies where you just go "wow" , who knew that there could be one peaceful place here on earth. This may be my new thinking space .

" you like it?" He asks
" like it is an understatement, I love it out here , it's so peaceful it's so breathtaking, I've never seen something so beautiful in my entire life" I say looking at the squirrel on the tree, weirdly I carry nuts cause I'm lacking in the protein department so I pour some into my hand , making noises for it to come towards me and it does. It takes the nuts out my hand as it start munching on it then two more squirrels come my way , I start to feed them too as I pet them with my freehand. I'm such an animal lover , I just love little creatures. I guess they're full because they run back up the tree as they play with each other smiling I start backing up but I twist my ankle on a twig screeching I feel hands on my waist I look back and see him there smiling.

" do you ever take care of yourself ?"
"No not really, but thank you" I say nervously , why am I so nervous for? My heart is pounding tremendously, rosé? What is up with you? Chillax

We make it back to his car and he hands me my phone back " your friends must really care about you they've spammed you so much"

I screen lock my phone back , as he drives me to school , wow that really do care huh? To bad that'll all be over when I'm dead and gone.

He arrives to my school then he scoffs softly I turn and look at him with furrowed eyebrows as he laughs a little " I'm sorry , I used to go to this shitty school, I couldn't take it no more I had to transfer"

" yeah this school is pretty shitty , but it's my last year so I figured I'd stay here" I reply taking my seatbelt off, he then grabs my wrist and I look at him instantly .

" I could try to get you in my school, my dads the principal there so I could talk to him if you'd like, oh sorry how rude of me my name is Eli, and you are Rosè , such a beautiful name for a beautiful woman" he says with a smile , I feel my cheeks starting to burn and my mouth starting to curve

" thank you , well I'll think about that offer okay? , I gotta go to hell" I say
" while you there can you ask if he can please take Donald trump and my father and ex girlfriend?" He says looking into my eyes

" I'll ask him I got you , bye"
"Bye have a good day"

I walk into my home room and see them sighing with relief, then they smile at me my homeroom teacher looks at me with a blank face " you're always late" he comments, I turn around then tilt my head

" last I checked sir I gave you a slip that said everyday I'd be coming in at this time due to an AA meeting club for mental health, now unless you wanna be sued bankroll for not understanding that then by all means do so, and don't lie that I didn't give you one cause I have a copy with your signature, now may I be seated?" Fixing my bag I sit down next to Olivia as they start bombarding me with questions.

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Yoongi pov

School went by surprisingly fast and now we're on our way to this karaoke bar , I don't really like to sing at these things I'm just here for the drinks and food and just to see my brothers act a fool.

We walk into an empty room and I sit on the couch the food was already prepared so I grabbed two mozzarella sticks and same marinara sauce, and start chowing down .

Namjoon decided not to drink because he's the responsible one and knows he's the only one that can drive us back . I start sipping a little bit of the sweet clear substance letting it pass throughout my whole body, my mind starts to project a film of rosé wondering what she's doing , lately her friends told me she's been coming in late every morning, she has a so called note for her to be excused maybe that's what she's doing right night , maybe she's getting help unlike me, I sip and pop pills to get over it. At least she's acknowledged she needs help I deny it and confide in drugs.

What else can I do?

I grab a hot wing , as I watch Jin scream on the top of his lungs causing Jimin to through his hold body back on the couch and laugh , I look down at him smiling more like cheesing at him. I go in for another shot but namjoon stops me.

"Are you okay? You're drinking more than everyone else here"
I scoff " yea I'm fine , it's just this taste really sweet and I'm in love with the taste"

I actually wanted to drink my sorrow away

" Woah that's dangerous, let's move that away from you" he moves it away as he starts laughing a little when he looks back at me.

"So? Are you going to talk to that girl ?" He nudged me
" what girl ?" I frown

I know who he's talking about

" Rosè?" He questions
"no, she's um taken I believe" I grab a tiny sandwich pulling the toothpick out of it

" someone told me, she's actually single she hasn't dated since junior year" he comments

Namjoon please drop it

" oh really didn't know" I acted surprised
" so you should go talk to her, you guys would balance each other out minus your laziness, but you guys would be very compatible"

Not really not with my mental health, I would kill her

" Maybe I'll talk to her one day"

That'll be never

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Rosé pov

I came home and laid down on my bed, thank god tomorrow is Saturday, even though I'm not doing anything tomorrow. looking up at the stars on my celling i smile i wonder what the sky looks like from above when youre in peace. no more stress.no more bad people touching my now empty soul. i could be with those whom i love again.

so far my trial isnt going so bad these past few days, it makes me feel a little bad, but i gotta keep my end of the bargain.

No one would notice anyways they want you here cause it's convenient for them. My heart throbs for Eli we just met and he seems to take a lot of interest in me as a friend and I'm going to be leaving.

Do I feel bad? No cause I'm going to be selfish I've never put my feelings before others so this is my one time that I get to do this.

And the last.

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Authors note

Hello my beautiful humans , I hope you guys are doing amazing. Sorry for the lack of update on this story I get busy with other things , college is stressful Jesus , but I love my major and I love what I do which is art! I love it so so much . But anyways I hope you guys are doing super well and you're taking care of yourself well! You deserve everything, thank you for the support and I'll see you in the next chapter!! Byee

I love you all remember to stay happy and healthy, and let no one tell you other wise because a million people love you.

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