(Jia's online journal)

Today, he asked me about me. I was taken aback. In the past days, he only talked about her. He only asked about her. I wasn't prepared to be the topic of conversation.

He is smiling quite often now. Although those smiles are still a little sad.

He still send her emails everyday. I'm curious about the contents but I shouldn't pry. I just hope that he misses her a little less now. I hope that he could heal and deal with the loss.

He still works like a maniac. He deprives himself of rest and sleep. My working assumption is that he's punishing himself about something. But what did he do so bad to live like this? What is he really thinking about?

I haven't heard him talk about suicide or heard any slips of the tongue to indicate a tendency, so it's out of the question.

I'm learning about him everyday. I hope one day, I'll know just what he needs to move on.

He's a good man.

I want him to stop hurting.