Explanation ~ 25
After everyone left that day, I tried to get Hoseok to talk about what happened but he was too upset and hurt to speak about it.
He didn't really say much about Yoongi confirming him liking me and so I didn't press it.
I knew he was upset and although I was too, I was more shocked then anything. I wasn't mad at Yoongi, I was just sad that he was making Hoseok so upset.
After trying to get Hoseok to talk about it and failing, I went to Ari and told her everything. I was able to talk to her about it for awhile and that seemed to help a bit just to be able to get stuff off of my chest.
The rest of that day, Hoseok didn't mention Yoongi at all.
Now here we were the next day, on our way to our classes. Hoseok and I were walking towards the fountain when he stopped suddenly.
"Let's go the other way." He says and before I can even question why, I see Yoongi standing with the others.
"Okay." I say simply as I following Hoseok a different way to get us to class.
He walks me to my first class then we part ways. That class goes by quick and before I know it, it's time for the class Hoseok had been dreading me having to go to today.
My class with Yoongi.
Hoseok was worried Yoongi would try something but I didn't have those same concerns at all.
If Yoongi is anything, it's respectful. He wouldn't up and make a move on me knowing Hoseok and I are together.
I knew for a fact Yoongi wasn't that type of guy.
As I got into my class, I took my usual seat and just as it always was, Yoongi took his seat beside me.
It was silent for a moment before he spoke. "How mad is he?" Yoongi asks, his voice full of regret.
"He's not so much mad as he is upset. He's confused and quite frankly, I am too." I say as I turn to look at Yoongi.
Luckily the professor wasn't in yet so this seemed like the best time to figure out when the fuck any of this happened.
"I know, I'm sorry." Yoongi says, his eyes meeting mine.
"I just don't understand, Yoongi. When did this happen and why? You know I'm with Hoseok and I love him more then anything in the world. I just don't understand if I did something to ever make you think our friendship was anymore more then friendly." I say and right away, Yoongi shakes his head.
"I know and you didn't, trust me. This is all on me. When all of the stuff with Nao was going on and you turned to me for a shoulder to cry on, I don't know...it just made me feel things and everyday it seemed to get stronger and before I knew it, I grew feelings for you. I never meant for this to happen and I definitely never meant to upset Hoseok. I never intended on acting on my feelings and I still don't. I thought I was doing a good job at hiding them but I guess Ari is really good with these types of things." Yoongi sighs.
"I'm sorry, y/n, really I am. I don't want this to ruin our friendship because I really do value you as a friend. You're the first person outside of my usual friend group with the guys that I've become close with and I would hate to lose you over this. I feel terrible, but I swear I never wanted this to happen. The last thing I want is to come between my best friend and the girl he loves." I could tell by Yoongi's tone that this was just as upsetting for him as it was for Hoseok.
"I think you should sit down and talk to Hoseok. I'm sure once he hears what you have to say, he'll be okay. He's just upset right now and I get it. I definitely don't want this to ruin your guys' friendship and I don't want it to ruin ours either."
Yoongi nods as he speaks. "Yeah of course. I'll talk to him whenever he's willing to listen. I just hope this doesn't weird you out. Trust me, I'd never want to make you uncomfortable and I definitely don't plan on acting on these feelings. They'll go away, I promise. I just don't want to lose you as a friend." He says, his voice sad.
I give him a soft smile as I lay my hand on top of his. "Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. I understand you can't always control who you get feelings for so don't worry, it'll be okay. We're still besties and we always will be, got that?" I grin.
Yoongi seems to visibly relax and I smile as I take my hand back and place it in my lap.
"Thank you, y/n, really. Thank you." Yoongi says and I nod as I flip open my book.
"Now, let's get to work." I say in perfect timing as the professor walks through the door and begins his roll call.
The rest of class, we continue on as normal.
Yoongi liking me changes nothing because at the end of the day, I love Hoseok. He's the only man I want to be with with, now and forever.
The only thing I'm worried about now was if Hoseok would be able to forgive Yoongi and continue on with their friendship.
The last thing I wanted was for them to stop being friends over this. I hated even having to think about it.
I'm sure that once they sit down to talk about it, Yoongi will explain and everything will be okay. I'm hoping so.
The only problem now, is actually getting Hoseok to listen.
Fingers crossed this goes well because If it doesn't, I know what we'll do.
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