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controlla – alex aiono

You left your house the same time you did yesterday but it was raining today. You took out your umbrella and opened it before going ahead to the bus stop where you found him already standing there. He didn't look at you or even reacted the slightest bit when you stood next to him. You both acted indifferent to each other as if he didn't live and breathe at the house next to yours. You remembered what happened the other night. How you knew that he's no righteous guy and that he played around but that is an overstatement. Nothing was for certain, that girl could be his girlfriend or someone special but if she was, wouldn't it be appropriate to do it in his room? At least for comfort. Or maybe, he likes to do it in public. People have weird preferences like how you like fantasizing about his face between your legs.

The thought made the hair on your arms raise and at the same time turned you on because that was also the reason why you had your first orgasm last night. You didn't know why you felt extremely bothered by him. You didn't know what you were thinking at all by doing that but it felt good to touch yourself. Your friends told you they do it sometimes too to relieve sexual frustrations. They told you it's okay yet you still felt guilt throughout your body as you lied in the dark, eyes closed after that mind blowing sensation of coming on your fingers.

It's okay, you convinced yourself. He just happened to be that person. There's no feelings there. It just, honestly, feel good. It felt good to think about him, to imagine what things he was doing inside that car, how intimate it was to be in that cramped space, breaths on each other's skin and sweat covering your tangled bodies.

You were lost in the moment until someone from the neighborhood joined you in the bus stop. You cast your eyes on the ground, feeling shame travel through your body for fantasizing about the guy who lived next door. How could you have thought it was okay? It needs to stop.

Jin noticed you even before you noticed him. You stood unusually close to him because it was raining and you both have to share the bus stop's shelter. He noticed how you smelled today, even your perfume screamed of innocence, the fruity scent invading his system, but surely the other night was nowhere near innocent. He smiled to himself, being reminded by your cute moans and your little whimpers as you explore yourself. Although he would love to explore with you and try to find where your limits lie but you're still young for him. Younger by four years, what was he thinking?

This morning, you forgot to close your curtains. He certainly did not plan to look and watch you but once he caught glimpse of your skin, he couldn't stop. You came out of your bathroom, wrapped in a towel that barely reached your knees. He didn't know if you already knew about him peeking on you or if you were just completely oblivious to it as you dropped the towel, putting on your panties first.

Then you walked around your room, still in your underwear as you blow dried your hair. You vanished for a moment, hidden from his view and then returned to the part of the room where he can see you. You held a bottle of lotion and you squirted some on your palm before you rested your foot on your bed, bending down to rub the lotion on your skin, The way your hands traveled along your thighs and your arms in careful strokes was like watching a cam show in person. It felt intimate as if you were doing it for him. He continued to watch as you squirt lotion on your palms again and brought your hands over your breasts, massaging them in circles. You rubbed them so nicely and released them, making them bounce a little, your nipples perking up.

Even though he's had enough share of naked women, when it comes to seeing you naked, he just can't look away. He felt like a teenager again, spying on the girls while they change into their PE uniforms. His pants tightened and he slowly palmed himself through his boxers to relieve some sexual pressure until you were done and you had to go down because your mom was calling you for breakfast. He unloaded quite a lot in the shower this morning.

*

Jin had his friends over that Saturday afternoon. They're just hanging out, playing games, talking about girls while eating pizza all day, doing their usual guy things. He came inside his room to get the game Taehyung wanted to borrow. He kept pestering him about it so he went to get it, taking it from his shelf. Jin noticed how his curtains was slightly parted. He inched towards his window and looked across your room from the small aperture. You were in your room with a guy in and you let him sit on your bed. He figured your parents are not home. He wondered if something would happen between you and your guest. You seem to be nervous, his eyes focused on your face as you closed your eyes and let the guy kiss your lips, his hands on your lap.

Slowly, the guy's hands moved higher and you weren't making any move to stop him. Jin felt uneasy. He knows that he shouldn't interfere with your business, if you want to lose your virginity to a high school jock or whatever it is you want to do with him. He couldn't care less but he also knows that you're making a mistake and you'll regret it as soon as that idiot opens his mouth and you become the school slut.

The guy was now on second base as Jin made his way downstairs, catching the attention of his mates, "Hey Jin, aren't you playing? Where are you going?"

"You dumping us again for your fuck buddy?" Hoseok teased, seeing how Jin is in a hurry. "You aren't serious? You're not really going to fuck some girl, right?"

Jin stopped by the door and faced the group. "No, just helping someone out. I'll be back."

He ran next door and pressed the doorbell twice while thinking of an excuse to make you invite him in. It took you awhile to come down, maybe he already had you pinned down. He rang the bell again with urgency until the doors opened and he was faced with none other than you.

"Hi." Jin started casually.

"H-Hi." You said. Your eyes still couldn't believe that he's standing before you and actually talking to you. You hugged your arms, covering up on instinct. "Uhm, do you need anything?"

"Uh, yeah, I live next door.. and I accidentally locked my bathroom door from the inside." He replied quickly. He's good at thinking on his feet, "I was wondering if you have some tools I can use?"

"Yeah, uh, my dad has a tool box in the garage." You replied, standing aside to let him inside your home. "You can come in."

"Thanks. I hope you don't mind." Jin pulled the cards on his sleeves and sent you a small smile as he intruded on your home.

"Not at all." You still felt like the situation was unreal as you made him follow you inside.

Just then your boyfriend — no, not boyfriend. This is your first date. Was it even a date? He wanted to stay in and pop your cherry since he heard from your friend who is dating his friend that you're still untouched and he thinks he could get you. You didn't really care. You also wanted to explore so you agreed but your neighbor came and you had to leave him in your room.

So, he came down and saw who you were with, "Who's he?" He cockily asked, acting like you were already his property when he reached for your arm and pulled you back.

"My neighbor." You pulled your arm back, showing him that you didn't like his attitude but he continued on, picking a fight out of nowhere. "He just need help. Calm down and wait for me upstairs."

"Look, I'm just here to borrow something." Jin said. "Was I interrupting something?"

"Yes."

"No." You argued then sent him a look. "Can we talk in private?"

You just lost all desires to have sex with him. You pulled him aside in the kitchen out of Jin's earshot. You felt embarrassed in front of the guy you thought about while masturbating so you faced your friend's boyfriend's airhead friend, "You know what, maybe you should go."

"You're calling it off? Why? I thought we were doing fine." He asked, making a move as he pulled you by the waist and kissed your neck like he did earlier. You pushed him off and he got pissed off that he came to your place for nothing but blue balls.

You asked him to leave after saying that you weren't ready when in all honestly you just didn't want to do it with him. He seemed very upset, slamming the front door behind him. You were absolutely glad that you didn't do it with a jerk like that.

"I'm so sorry about that." You told your neighbor who replied with a smile.

"It's fine." Jin noticed the buttons of your shirt was not properly done, the third button on the fourth hole, which meant you already took your shirt off before he came and was in a rush to put it back on.

You noticed him staring and you blocked his view with your hands before you turned your back to him, "You still want that tool box?"

"Yeah. Thanks." Jin followed after her to the garage. "I'm Jin, by the way."

You never ever dreamed of knowing his name so you didn't know what to say afterwards. It felt really wrong to know the name of the guy you had lewd thoughts of. "Uhm, I'm Y/N.. we met a few times before."

"Yeah, we did. Sorry if I didn't talk to you until now." Jin took the toolbox from you, seeing how small your hands are compared to his. Those were the fingers that you used to pleasure yourself.

"No, don't apologize. It's not like I talked to you too." You sent him a smile while both standing still before each other.

"Also, did I ruin your date with your boyfriend?" He added, noticing how you don't directly look at him in the eyes.

"He's not my boyfriend.." You timidly answered, hinting to your plan to lose your virginity to that asshole.

"Good 'cause you're way too good for him." He chuckled. You lifted your head up. That was such a fuckboy thing to say but you know that already and his faces makes up for everything. "Believe me, you can do better than him."

"I wasn't planning on a long term relationship with him." You said. You wanted him to stop giving you advice because it's starting to annoy you and it's ruining the perfect image you had of him.

"I just want to experience it." You're getting horny again after that asshole worked you up and just left. It's also not helping with Jin, standing right before you and he looks so hot. "I don't know why I'm saying this to you but I'm graduating high school soon and I'm the only one among my friends who's, you know, a virgin."

Jin liked the tone of your voice when you speak. He watched you carefully look for the tool box in your dad's garage, bending by your waist to lift the toolbox. "You don't need to rush. You'll meet plenty of nice guys when you go to college."

"You're right." You gave him a smile as you hand him the toolbox, not realizing that one of your buttons came undone.

Jin followed the dip of you cleavage, his fingers going up to your opened shirt, pulling them over your skin. He looked into your eyes, "You're still young and you have a pretty face. Guys will tell you anything just to get you to bed."

You swallowed hard because he was so close. He was taller than you so his lips was just in level with your nose. If it were up to you, you would've stood on your tipped toes and kiss him. He stepped away and smiled, "There are guys out there who wouldn't even blink an eye when they're lying. Just be careful."

"Thanks for helping me out." Jin said nicely before he turned his back to you, already on his way out but you caught his arm. He turned back to you and you were just surprised at what you did.

Jin eyed your form, standing before him, unsure of what to say. "Y/N?"

"Are you like those guys?" You asked him, watching out for his reaction but he just smiled so kindly.

"Yes. I'm like those guys." Jin replied and you were kind of surprised that he wasn't denying it. "I don't like lying to girls. It's just not what I do."

"Then what do you do?" You added.

"I tell them the truth." Jin said, turning his body fully to your direction. He set the toolbox down somewhere and walked towards you. "You're pretty and you got a body I want. I'm physically attracted to you. That's it."

Your face heated up with how blunt his words are. He's so honest. You didn't expect it. "So you want to sleep with me?"

"I'm trying not to." Jin breathed out as he cornered you against your dad's pick up.

"Why?" You asked in a whisper, looking up at his face.

"You're just too young for me. I would feel bad having sex with someone who's clearly not ready for it." Jin explained carefully and you thought it was unfair that he thinks you're so clueless.

"I know what I'm saying." You argued gently while being caged between his arms. "I'll be in college soon."

Jin chuckled softly. "Being in college doesn't prove anything. Maturity comes with experience not with age."

"So let me experience it." You told him, forgetting that you just met him today. "We don't have to be romantic or anything. We don't even have to talk after or while we do it.."

"You'll find someone who you will want to do it with. Trust me. You don't want that person to be me." Jin set a distance between your bodies and you could finally breathe air in your lungs properly. "You're brand new, Y/N. I don't want to ruin your experience."

"I don't care." You insisted and then began unbuttoning your blouse, slowly exposing your skin under your thin camisole. "I want someone to teach me what I need to know."

"You sure are aggressive for your age." Jin smiled while you were done unbuttoning half of the tiny buttons in your blouse. "What do you want to know?"

"All of it." You sounded so nice and innocent.

Your body tingled where his fingers touched. It was entertaining for Jin to find someone who's so young but so eager to jump into things that people would normally avoid. Jin eyed you up and down as you opened the back of the pick up truck. He smiled when you finally took your top off and sat on the back of the truck, letting him move between your open legs. Jin removed his jacket and placed it behind you, "I don't want you to get dirty. You sure you don't want to move to your bedroom?"

"Bedroom is only for romantic sex. This isn't like that." You told him blatantly and he smirked before you felt him lowering you down on the jacket he laid down. "Let's go easy for today since it's your first time."

"It will get uncomfortable but I promise you'll get only the best experience out of this." Jin's lips brushed against yours as his body hovered over yours then you pulled him down on you and you let him lead the kiss.

"Relax." Jin breathed throughout the kiss and you opened your eyes. "You don't have to be so hurried. Just stop thinking."

He dived down to kiss you again and this time you followed his advice and took it slowly. He molded his mouth against yours. It felt so automatic like your lips just know what to do with his. You panicked when his tongue probed into your mouth and he stopped again, "Let me do it first then you follow slowly, okay?"

You opened your mouth and welcomed his tongue in and oh was it arousing. Jin let you try it for yourself and, in the softest manner, you played with his tongue, flicking the tip of your tongue at his lips and then gently sucking on his tongue. You open your legs wide and straddle his hips, feeling his crotch on top of yours. You feel something hard down there. Jin pressed his erection between your legs and you moaned softly when his hard on pressed on your clit.

"You made it like that." Jin spoke against the skin of you neck, kissing your skin there while his hands begin to unbutton your shorts. His fingers play around with the hem of your underwear, "Can I?"

You nod as you look into his eyes, giving him permission to slip his hand inside where you're wet and dripping. He cupped your crotch and kissed your sternum, trailing down between the valley of your clothed breasts. You've never had a man touch you down there and it felt good to have his fingers dip between your folds, to have something bigger than your own fingers pump inside your heat. You bit your lip, hips bucking against his fingers to get more of his fingers.

Jin stopped playing with your breast to watch how you react to him. You had your eyes close, chest rising sharply and falling so deeply, lips reddened from too much nibbling. He liked what he's seeing. You look too precious and so tight around just one of his fingers. He doesn't think you're ready yet so finds a way to come. Your mouth would be perfect but you're not fully accustomed to that idea too.

"Ohh yes.." you arched your back as you grip on your thighs. Jin pulled his finger out and buried his face between your legs just like you fantasized. Your heart raced, sweat forming on your forehead as his tongue explore your woman as if he was digging through to find your hidden treasure box. You came so hard and fast.

You heard his belt fall on the floor with a thud and he lifts your thighs up, keeping them together and made use of your barely existing thigh gap to get his rocks off. It was fast and strong. Your skin burned from the friction of his length thrusting hard between your thighs. You wondered why he didn't just went in you when you already gave him permission but you couldn't complain either having him breathing hard on top of you. His face remained stone cold as if he was angry. It was so hot. The way his sweat trickled down the side of his face and along his neck.

"Fuck." He grunted lowly and his brow furrowed, eyes shut closed in bliss. He pulled himself out between your thighs and moved to pull his jeans on.

You sat up and put your underwear first before you gave him his jacket that you lied on. "Why didn't you do it?"

"You're not ready." He simply replied.

"I was ready." You told him stubbornly.

Jin just sent you a smile. "If I did do what you wanted me to do and just walked out hat door like nothing happened. You would feel so used and you would've regretted it right away."

"Why do you keep saying that?" You said, a bit irritated. "I know what I want. I want to have sex. So you're just leaving without doing it with me?"

"I made you cum didn't I?" Jin said and then looked back at you with an annoying cock eating grin on his face, "Then  I think we're done for today."

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Some of the boys stayed until late at night, still playing games. Now it was a battle between Jungkook and Jimin in which, obviously, Jungkook had the upper hand. Namjoon, Yoongi and Hoseok had to bail earlier to attend to their college departments' freshmen night. It would probably end with one of them going home with someone. Jin immediately went for a shower after he came back from your house. He kept thinking about how amazing you looked, lying underneath him. You had such a small and pink pussy. If it were up to him, he would fuck you so hard you wouldn't be able to walk after. You were right there for him to take but it felt wrong. Taking advantage of such a young thing. Touching you felt so wrong but kissing your soft, sweet lips was so right for him. He would often think about you now, how it feels to touch your waist, your wide hips, your supple breasts that molded perfectly into his cupped hands. He'd definitely think about you every night.

When he was done with the shower, he joined his friends downstairs. Jimin and Jungkook were still playing because Jimin wouldn't admit defeat when, all of a sudden, Taehyung ran inside the house, slammed the door and leaned against it while catching his breath.

He went for Jin the moment their eyes locked and Jin took a small step back as Taehyung cornered him to the stairs' landing, "You didn't tell me you had such a hot babe living next door to you."

"Really? Where?" Jimin's eyes widened and so did Jungkook's before they stumbled towards Jin's living room window to peek to the house across the street. "I swear, Taehyung, if this girl isn't hot, Imma smack you the fuck up."

"The fuck Taehyung, where!" Jungkook demanded, drowning out Jimin.

"She went inside already. I was throwing the trash when she came out to throw the trash too." Taehyung told his story in exaggeration, emphasizing her body which made Jimin drool more. "What's her name, Jin? And which university does she go to?"

"Give it up." Jin answered, getting a bottle of water from the fridge. "She's a high school senior."

"OOOOHHHH." Jimin and Taehyung chorused as they met gazes. "She's a virgin then?"

"I call dibs!" Taehyung declared and thought of a plan to talk to her. "She looks like the gullible type so maybe if I act nice and gentlemanly, she'll give me her number."

"Hey, you aren't done cleaning!" He threw him an empty plastic bottle that littered the living room. "Clean my place first before you shove your dick in places you shouldn't be shoving it into or else I won't let you guys back in here again."

"I was planning to clean it. I just wasn't done yet. Chill." Taehyung said and began to clean the living room, picking up candy wrappers.

"This house better be clean when I wake up tomorrow." Jin told the younger ones before he left them and turned in for the night.

He entered his room and saw your bedroom light still on. The curtains were wide open and just in time, you came inside your room and saw him looking from across the street. You stomped towards your window to pull the curtains close. Jin figured you were mad at him for not pulling through to what he promised.

He regretted not getting your number at the least. Now, you rarely leave your windows open and he's left with only a memory of you with your legs spread wide and your panties hanging around your ankles while you ground your hips into him because in the next few days, Jin learned that you have moved somewhere to study.

author's note;
ha! kim seokjin!
I can't believe I'm writing smut for you 😂