"Oh wow. I didn't know you'll hate yourself so much for sleeping with me." Jin chuckled beside you. He turned to his side and sat up. "I couldn't blame you though. This isn't exactly the type of relationship a girl would dream of."

You stared at the back of his head with his messy bed hair that have been between your fingers a couple of minutes ago. "I have thought of this.. of sleeping with you."

He turned his head around to look at you. Then he smiled. "Quite proud of it, are you?"

"I know what this is. You don't have to draw the line every time by reminding me." You also sat yourself up, holding the sheets over your chest.

"Just making sure you know.." He leaned towards you until your faces are in such close proximity. "I don't want you to get hurt. All the women I've been with had certain expectations that they wanted me to meet."

Jin placed his hand on top of your knee, gradually moving up between your thighs, "I can only promise to meet your expectations in bed. Should I go or should we have another round?"

You leaned in and kissed him. He grabbed your hair and returned your kisses harder. Jin was on top of you in a matter of seconds, his mouth on the side of your neck as he grinds his pelvis against yours. He breaths down your neck as you help him out with your hand on his cock. Jin's moans are quiet and breathy. As much as you get turned on by guys who moan loudly during sex, you love how Jin is the exact opposite.

Jin often liked doing it from behind. He loved grabbing your hair and putting your arm behind your back as he pounds into you. You had no idea that you will like rough sex as much as you do with Jin. You always imagined sex to be romantic and with a special person or at least someone you're quite close to.

Your fantasy was doing it in missionary position. It was the intimacy that you imagined would make it satisfying but this was another type of satisfaction. Jin rarely do you in missionary and you don't ask him to but he is on top of you now, so deep in you, with strokes so slow that it had you losing your mind at the feeling of his length paving a path around your walls.

Jin smiles down at you, "Feel good?"

You nod as you watch how his cock dives into your hole and disappears between your folds. He pulls back all the way out and pushed your legs up to your stomach, spreading you wide as his mouth finds your opening and his tongue plays with your clit. You cried out and arch your back when the suction from his mouth came and an electric current washed over your whole body. He didn't care about anything at the moment. Not your hands trying to push his head away or your hips moving away from him. All he cared about was his mouth on your pussy. 

"Oh God, im coming. i'm coming, Jin!" You moaned out, tightly clutching on the pillow under your head. Your body trembled from the hard orgasm.

He plunges back in just as you came and thrusts into you like an animal in a heat. You felt so spent when he finally stopped, still inside you, and finished his load into the condom.

Jin pulled out when he was done and you noticed just how much cum he deposited into the 0.1mm condom he wore. You were thankful that condoms nowadays are durable enough without sacrificing pleasure.

"Can I have a smoke?" Jin asked you after he threw the condom away in the bin. You'd make sure to throw it out later.

"You can't smoke in my room. I don't like the smell of cigarettes. You can do it outside when you leave." You told him blatantly to which he just laughed at.

"No smoking. I'll take note of that." Jin smiled at you.

"You should go." You told him.

He nodded and then dressed up just as quickly as he undressed. Jin left and you went back to your room, taking the dirty sheets off your bed to chuck it into the washing machine when you heard something drop on the floor. A black phone. Jin's probably. You picked it up and noticed a few messages that he hasn't read yet flashing on the notification panel.

All of them are from girls, asking if he could meet them. It made you realize that you are one of these girls. That despite him treating you nicely and being thoughtful while he's with you, in the end, you are just a number.

Why didn't it occur to you that he could be seeing someone else while he is seeing you. He's not exactly bound to you so he isn't breaking any rule. You knew what he wanted from you but wouldn't it be common courtesy to see one girl at a time?

If something like this made you feel the slightest bit angry and disgusted, that only meant that you didn't fully understand what you wanted from him.

You heard him knocking at the door so you went and opened it for him. Jin stood there and you gave him his phone immediately then closed the door at his face without saying anything.

🎀

Three days passed by quickly. You didn't see Jin since you shut the front door at his face. You haven't talked to him either. You kept yourself busy with school work. Not that you weren't busy. You are busy. You have exams coming up and you need to focus on studying for the time being. No guys and no sex until you pass your exams. Those can wait.

You head to the library to hit the books. You were hoping to be productive today. You need to be because if you flunked your exams, your parents won't let you rent your own flat. You had an agreement with them that if you pass your midterms safely, you'd get to have a place of your own. They were willing to let you go and allow you to practice some independence.

So you turned your phone off, found yourself a table and started cracking on it. Studying isn't easy nor was it too difficult for you. It's just something you needed to do. Like a routine.

Routine. That word somehow reminds you of him. You started staring off into air, biting your lip as his eyes flash in your mind. His face slowly comes into view and you imagine the way he looks at you when he's about to go down on you. The hungry, deprived look he gives you as his hands grips on your thighs. You crossed your legs unconsciously under the table and nibbled on your lip. Then suddenly, someone stops beside you.

"Y/N?" He looked surprised and happy to see you. He's quite good looking. He has soft-looking brown hair that hangs down perfectly over his forehead and a really charming smile.

You gave him an uncertain look as you straighten up in your seat. "Yes? Do we know each other from somewhere?"

"You don't remember me? It's me." He pointed a finger to his chest then he squinted his eyes and made his cheeks puffy.

You stared at him weirdly for half a minute until you remembered. "Jae Eon?"

( it's so obvious. lol i just started watching Nevertheless and it reminded me of this book)

He nodded his head and grinned. "That's me."

"Oh my God, look at you!" You raised your voice, making the staff hush you. You apologized and shied away from everyone's stare before facing Jae Eon. "I really didn't recognize you. You lost so much weight."

Jae Eon just smiled and then noticed your books all open and laid out on the table. "Sorry, you were in the middle of studying."

"Oh yeah, I have exams coming up." You replied as you also just remembered. "How about you? Why are you here?"

"Oh, I transferred here this semester so I'm now a student here." He replied and you softly giggled at him.

"I mean at the library." You said which made him quite embarrassed. "That was my bad. I wasn't specific."

He just smiled and rubbed his nape. "I was just borrowing some art reference books."

"You're an art student?" You asked. It was surprising because you never thought he'd pursue a major in the arts. He was more athletic.

SHHHH!

That was the second time you were hushed by the staff and the other students are now glaring at you so you packed up your things and grabbed Jae Eon by the wrist, leading him outside the building.

"Wait, is it okay to just leave? You were studying." He asked you once you were outside.

"It's perfectly fine. I can continue at home. I just went here today because there's too many distractions at home." You gave him a big smile. "We should catch up."

"If you insist then how about you buy me coffee?" He smiled. "You owe me an ice cream when we were young, remember?"

"I remember! I sat on it when we fell from the swing." You laughed heartily. "but hey! That was an accident."

He shrugged his shoulders. "You still owe me."

"Fiine, coffee's on me." You said and linked your arm around his. No awkwardness between you. It just felt natural like he never went away.

Jae Eon was one of your closest friends when you were young. He used to live beside your house which was Jin's house now. You used to take the bus together to school and eat lunch at your secret place. He had to move away because his Mom was sick and had to get treatment abroad.

Both of you sat outside at some cafe just around the library. You lost track of time as he told you all the funny stories he had when he moved abroad like when he almost got mugged but he ran so fast the man chasing after him just gave up because he was so unfit, he couldn't catch his breath.

"You've always been good in sports." You said, trying to stop laughing because your tummy is starting to hurt.

"Thank God! I'm good in sports!" He said and thanked your old PE teacher, making you laugh again.

"You still remember his name?" You almost wheeze out. "Oh dear. I have tears in my eyes now. Please stop making me laugh."

"Okay. In one condition.." Jae Eon said and handed you his phone. "Give me your number."

"If you promise not to tell any more jokes or funny stories today." You looked at him with a serious face then smiled. "I'm kidding."

You typed your number into his phone and returned it to him. He looked like a happy child. Almost like a puppy. He's always been cute. Especially when he's eating.

"Can I call you anytime?" He asked, looking up at your face.

"I guess? But no calls after 10pm." You raised your finger at his face.

"Text?"

"Text is okay." You smiled.

"Great." He grinned at you. "I might randomly stumble into a new restaurant that I want to eat in so I need someone to eat with me."

"As long as it's free." You told him, making him smile. His family has always been blessed with wealth.

"Of course it is. It's always been.." Jae Eon replied, looking at your face. "For you."

"I mean, you love free food, right?" He added with an awkward laugh, scratching the back of his head. "You always said food taste better when it's free."

"You remember!" You exclaimed and chuckled. "Yeah, I used to say that all the time so you would buy me food. Sorry."

"It's okay. It didn't cost that much." He said, "and besides, I had too much money for someone my age. What will I do with all of it?"

"I wish I had your money. I would've bought whatever I wanted." You added, thinking of the things you were dying to have at that age.

"But you know, it's hard to think of what you want when you have everything. It's like having all the information in the world but you don't know what to do with all of it." Jae Eon said, he stared down at his hands. "There's something that I've wanted for a long time.. I've thought about how I would get it but whenever it's at arm's reach, I always feel guilty. Like I don't deserve it."

"You shouldn't give up too easily. Work hard for it. Work harder than anyone else so that others can't tell you that you don't deserve to have it." You told him.

You don't know what he's talking about but you wanted to cheer him up and encourage him. It seemed to work when he smiled back at you. "You always know the right words to make me feel better."

"Well, you promised to give me free food so I figured I should pay you back." You shrugged your shoulders, making him laugh.

"You're still as funny as ever." He told you.

"You're funnier!" You told him, standing up. "I don't know if that's grammatically correct but we have to go."

"Where?"

"Home!" You laughed at him in disbelief. L"I don't know about you but I have a house to get back to."

"Oh yeah." He face palmed himself. "Do you still live there?"

"You nodded as you walk home. "We moved away for a few years but we moved back."

"I wanted to move back into our old house but someone already lives there." Jae Eon frowned and latched his arm around your shoulder. "I wanted to live right next to you!"

You couldn't hide the frown on your face when you were reminded of Jin. Jae Eon should never meet him. You wouldn't want him to know about Jin.

author's note;
it's been AGES!!!! lmao
i'm sorry and forgive me for this lousy chapter.
i have forgotten how to write 😅

anyhooo, i hope you still enjoy it.
please leave lots of comments about the chapter.
I need some feedback since I've been on a very long hiatus. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻